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A MEMOIR 



OF 



LADY COLQUHOUN. 



BY 
JAMES HAMILTON, D.D., F.L.S, 

FOURTH EDITION. 



LONDON t 
JAMES NISBET AND CO., 21, BERNERS- STREET. 

MDCCCLIY. 



Lt 5 5* h 3 



ALEXANDER MACINTOSH, 

PRINTER, 

GREAT NEW-STREET, LONDON. 



V 



CONTENTS, 



CHAPTER I. 

Sir John Sinclair — Thurso Castle — Lady Janet Sinclair — 
Nurse Morris — Stoke Newington — The Sisters — Dr. Walter 
Buchanan, and Wilberforce's " Practical View " . 



CHAPTER II. 

Rossdhu and Loch Lomond — Sir James Colquhoun — Dr. Stewart, 
of Luss — Aristocratic society in Scotland long ago — Com- 
mencement of the Diary — A Mother's Legacy , . .21 



CHAPTER III. 

Death of Miss Hannah Sinclair — Letter to Miss Massie — Luss 
and Arrochar Bible Society — The poor of Scotland thirty 
years ago — Nelly — "Despair and Hope " — Bell Macintyre — 
Tract distribution— The School of Industry— The Sabbath 
School—" Kirkings "—The Diary— Dr. Alex. Stewart— Mr. 
Legh Richmond — Dr. Chalmers — Miss Jane Farrell . . 67 



IV CONTENTS. 



CHAPTER IV. 

PAGE 

Publications — "Impressions of the Heart" — Dr. Colquhoun, of 
Leith — Dr. Hamilton, of Strathblane — Dr. Malan — Letter to 
the Rev. A. Westoby — A Daughter's Marriage — First visit to 
Brighton — The Pavilion and the Sabbath — "Be not far off: 
for grief is near " — The Illness and Death of Sir John Sinclair 
and Sir James Colquhoun 131 



CHAPTER V. 

Thy Maker is thy Husband " — Class for grown-up Girls — Lady 
Colquhoun's talent in Expounding Scripture — Visits to Suf- 
folk — Labors amongst the Cottagers of Stutton and the 
Inhabitants of Thistle-street — Letters to Miss S.- — Sunday 
Trains — Journal 189 



CHAPTER VI. 

The Disruption — The Free Church at Luss — Societies — Educa- 
tion in India — Letters to Miss Laing — Irish Mission — Gaelic 
Schools — Making a friend of the unrighteous Mammon — 
Piety at Home — Servants — Diary concluded — Death of her 
Daughter-in-law and Lady Sinclair . . . . .231 



CHAPTER VII, 

Sunset in Autumn — Waiting for Spring 277 



CHAPTER I. 

O SATISFY US EARLY WITH THY MERCY ; THAT WE MAY 
REJOICE AND BE GLAD ALL OUR DAYS. PSALM XC. 14. 



I do remember them, their pleasant brows 
So mark'd with pure affections, and the glance 
Of their mild eyes, when in the house of God, 
They gather'd up the manna that did fall 
Like dew around. 

MRS. SIGOURNEY. 



To few of her sons is Scotland more indebted than 
to the late Sir John Sinclair, of Ulbster. Entering 
into active life at an early age, for sixty busy years he 
was constantly spending in the service of his neigh- 
bours and his country excellent talents and a good 
estate. Whilst yet a lad at college he gave earnest of 
that passion for improvement, and that dauntless enter- 
prise, which distinguished him through life. Among 
its many wants, his native Caithness wanted roads, 
and it was in vain that Mr. Sinclair urged his brother 
landowners to supply the deficiency. There was a 
steep hill called Ben Cheilt, which ran right through 
the county, and as an objection to the turnpike, at 
once witty and fatal, it was always asked, " When will 
you show us a road over Ben Cheilt ? " But one 
summer morning, having beforehand provided great 
store of implements, the young laird mustered on 
the spot 1,200 labourers, and ere nightfall a good 
carriage-way was thrown over this terrible mountain. 

B 2 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 



And much of his subsequent career was the same 
exploit repeated. In every undertaking he knew that 
he must look for a Ben Cheilt, — a Hill Difficulty, on 
which all the timid and all the lazy would take their 
stand ; and he always sought to surmount it by some 
brilliant and conclusive operation. And by dint of 
his own heroic exertions, and by the aid of those 
friends whom his reputation and his good offices 
were perpetually acquiring, he accomplished many 
works of enormous labor and of more than national 
utility. Encouraged by the success of his schemes 
for improving the husbandry of his own ungenial 
realms, he founded that Board of Agriculture which 
has introduced a new era in the tillage of the empire, 
whilst his untiring labors have left his name associated 
with the productive fisheries and thriving sheep-farms 
of Scotland. The list of his publications fills thirty 
pages of print ; and if the themes be too various, and 
if fresh projects succeed one another too rapidly, they 
show the industry of the student who could impart 
information on subjects so diverse, and the benevolence 
of the statesman whose only concern was to make 
other people rich and contented. His " Statistical 
Account of Scotland " * is a trophy of his unconquer- 
able energy and unwearied good-humour. It was a 
* In twenty-one volumes, octavo. 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 



task for which, saving the engineer of Ben Cheilt, few 

would have had faith or perseverance sufficient. In 

order to compile it, he required answers to one hundred 

and sixty queries from nearly a thousand ministers. To 

many of his correspondents, such topics were strange 

or distasteful, and all of them encountered difficulties 

in the shiness, and sometimes in the superstition, of 

their natural informants. Tenants would not tell the 

produce of their farms, for fear that their rents should 

be raised ; and Highland shepherds would not count 

their flocks, lest their vain curiosity should entail a 

judgment on the fleecy people. But, by a judicious 

admixture of coaxing and objurgation, the sanguine 

Baronet quickened the diligence of the ministers, and 

by patience and adroitness, the ministers elicited the 

essential facts from their over-cautious parishioners. 

One laid aside his Cicero, and another his "Poli 

Synopsis,' ' till he should complete his census of pigs, 

poultry, and milch-kine. Professor Cooper grew 

archaeological over the " Auld Wives' Lift," and Dr. 

Gibb waxed curious in acoustics : * in stately periods, 

* Witness the clever and well-bred echo at Mugdock Castle : 
" Opposite to this tower is heard a very extraordinary echo. It 
repeats any sentence of six syllables, in the exact tone, and 
with the very accent, in which it is uttered j wailing delibe- 
rately till the sentence is finished before it begins." — Stat. Acct. 
xviii. 579. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 



worthy of a Scottisli Johnson, Mr. Sheriff told how- 
many pounds of clover, and how many firlots of rye- 
grass were sown, in order to procure a hundred stones 
of hay ; whilst the mellifluous cadence of Dr. Mac- 
kinlay lent new charms to printed calicoes, duffles, 
serges, and mancoes, and all fabrics which owed 
their glory to Kilmarnock and to "creelman's com- 
position." When the mighty work was completed, 
no country possessed a survey of its internal resources 
so comprehensive, or local histories so minute, as 
were contained in its elaborate pages. It greatly 
helped to create the science of statistics, and to 
Scottish antiquarians it is a record of ever-growing 
value. — When to such literary and economic toils, 
we add that in mellow age he could reckon two 
hundred of his countrymen who owed their worldly 
advancement to his friendly interposition, and that he 
numbered among his correspondents half the renowned 
names of Europe, we shall convey some idea of his 
wide acquaintance with his cotemporaries, as well as a 
specimen of his ceaseless and kind-hearted activity.* 

* For interesting memorials of Sir John Sinclair we are 
indebted to the filial affection of both a son and a daughter. 
See Miss Catherine Sinclair's " Shetland and the Shetlanders ;" 
and " Memoirs of the late Right Honourable Sir John Sinclair, 
Bart.," by Archdeacon Sinclair. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 



When the heir of Ulbster was still young, full of 
the chivalry which through his strong-minded mother, 
Lady Janet,* he had derived from the ancient house 
of Sutherland, and exulting in all the possibilities of 
an existence which he meant to fill with noble deeds, 
at the residence of Mr. Maitland, at Stoke Newington, 
he saw a young lady whose rare attractions drew 
many admirers round her. Of these none could be 
more ardent than Mr. Sinclair, and he soon won the 
affections of a congenial mind. But Miss Maitland 
was an only child and an heiress, and her mother 
grudged that her future home should be so far away. 
However, the same love which would fain have kept 
her daughter near her, could not long gainsay that 
daughter's deliberate choice; and ere long the sanc- 
tion of either parent gave to the happy suitor his 
lovely bride. Nine years passed prosperously. Mr. 
Sinclair was in Parliament ; his knowledge of finance 
made him an authority on that great question of the 
day, and gained him the special favour of the Premier. 

* Lady Janet was daughter of William Lord Strathnaver, 
who, had he survived his father, would have been seventeenth 
Earl of Sutherland. Her sister, Lady Helen Sutherland, 
married Sir James Colquhoun, of Luss, grandfather of that 
Sir James who became the husband of Miss Janet Sin- 
clair. Consequently, Lady Colquhoun and her husband were 
cousins. 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 



He had received the promise of a Baronetcy,* and was 
daily rising into higher political influence and public 
celebrity, when his flattering prospects were shrouded 
in sudden gloom by the removal of his much-loved 
partner. Along with the memory of her feminine 
graces and endearing gentleness, Mrs. Sinclair left 
her representatives in two little girls, almost too 
young to miss her, but still so like her, that, in the 
daughters there was a promise that the mother would 
appear again. Hannah, the oldest, was five years of 
age, and Janet, of whom we are now to write, was 
only four. She was born in London, on the 17th -of 
April, 1781, and during her infancy her parents 
resided at Westminster and Whitehall. 

The first home of these motherless children was 
their ancestral seat, Thurso Castle. That stormy 
mansion looked more like a nursery for a lord of 
the isles, or like, what at first it was, the ocean-nest 
of the amphibious Caithness earls, than a retreat for 
tender orphans, cradled beneath a southern sun. But 
in that grim old castle the Orphans' Guardian had 
provided for them all but a mother's care. Not only 

* After his wife's death, as Mr. Sinclair had no son, by a 
very unusual concession to the feelings of his friend, Mr. Pitt 
made out the patent of Baronetcy in favour of Sir John, with 
remainder to his daughters and their heirs male. 



LIFE OP LADY COLQTTHOUN. 9 

was it the frequent resort of their fond surviving 
parent, but it was the permanent abode of their 
paternal grandmother, a Scottish gentlewoman of the 
olden school, shrewd, energetic, notable, proud of her 
ancient lineage, and, as became the descendant of 
that venerable peer who first affixed his /tremulous 
autograph to Scotland's Covenant, a firm adherent to 
the Presbyterian polity • one who looked well to the 
ways of her household, and indited hortatory epistles 
to youthful clergymen ; but also one who, amidst all 
the strictness of a manager, and all the stateliness of 
a high-born dame, carried about that constitutional 
kindliness, and those profound affections, which — 
like a deep well, fenced with rustic masonry — the 
old mothers of Scotland sometimes hid within a dry 
or stoic manner. Lady Janet now lived for the 
daughters of her son, and though perhaps imper- 
fectly acquainted with the distinguishing truths of 
the Gospel, it was her anxiety to bring up her 
youthful charge religiously. She constantly took 
them to the parish church, and then examined them 
on the sermons they had heard, and required them 
every Sabbath to repeat to her a Psalm and the 
Shorter Catechism. At the Castle also resided 
their father's sister, a kind lady who, throughout 
her long life, never ceased to be much loved by 



10 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

her nieces.* And there, too, sojourned a judicious 
and affectionate servant — the English nurse, Morris — 
to whose warm-hearted counsels and simple Bible 
lessons her youthful charge were at that period more 
indebted than to any human influence. Herself 
a guileless and God-fearing Christian, this faithful 
attendant imbued their susceptible minds with much 
of her own truthfulness and reverence for sacred 
things. One Sabbath Miss Jessie came in with a 
lapful of shell-fish, which she had gathered on the 
shore at a great distance from the Castle. " I think, 
my dear," said Morris, " you should not have 
gathered them on the Sabbath-day; you had better 
put them again where you got them." Miss Jessie 
disappeared, and was late of returning. She had 
scrambled back the whole way along that rocky coast, 
till she came as nearly as she could judge to the spot 
where she had found the periwinkles, and then put 
them carefully back again. To her latest day she 
retained the simplicity and ingenuousness, as well as 
the respect for the Sabbath, which she learned thus 
early ; and to her latest day, Nurse Morris experienced 
the gratitude of the Misses Sinclair, who provided her 

* She afterwards became Mrs. Baillie, by her marriage to 
Lord Polkemmet, one of the Senators of the College of 
Justice. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 11 

with an ample annuity, and were careful that in 
health, as in sickness, she should want no comfort 
which money could procure. 

Prom Thurso Castle it was a grand sight to view 
the Pentland Frith in its winter's fury — and the 
sisters often viewed it. On the short December days, 
— in Caithness extremely short — they would stand 
and watch as one long wave after another swung 
home, and exploded beneath them ; till at last some 
monster billow, with skirmishers streaming before 
him, rolled up to the charge, and as he burst on the 
basement, the windows were washed with brine, and 
the old tower shook like a lighthouse. To gaze on 
that stormy ocean, and listen to its noisy anthem, were 
great lessons ; and even in these our days of infant 
training, it might be well if more provision were made 
for such bookless education, and the young mind 
were permitted to commune more freely with nature 
in her wild and gentle moods. The subject of this 
memoir often reverted to the solemn and awe-struck 
emotions with which she used to survey the many 
waves of that mighty sea. To her it lived. In its 
gambols it was a familiar and a play-fellow ; in its 
turmoil it was a preacher of Jehovah's majesty ; and 
when formal instructions had nearly faded from re- 
membrance, she was still conscious of lofty thoughts, 



12 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

and grave impressions, derived from this august but 
kindly tutor. 

Prom Thurso Castle Lady Janet brought her grand- 
daughters to Edinburgh. There, for three years they 
dwelt in the ancient Canongate, whose quaint houses 
were still occupied by such of the aristocracy as had 
not migrated to the New Town ; and then, to complete 
their education, they were sent to the school at Stoke 
Newington, where their own mother had spent her 
youthful days. Mrs. Crisp, by whom this school was 
conducted, received the children of her former pupil 
with a very warm affection, and, in her well-ordered 
establishment, the business of learning went briskly 
forward. The different branches were taught by the 
best teachers ; the Miss Sinclairs enjoyed good health, 
and were endowed with excellent abilities ; they had 
already acquired the most essential elements of know- 
ledge before coming to London, and they had every 
incentive to study which the affection of their gover- 
ness and the goodwill of their companions could 
supply. Accordingly they made signal proficiency, 
and when, at the respective ages of fifteen and sixteen, 
they returned to Edinburgh, in person and acquire- 
ments advanced beyond their years, they found a 
ready welcome into that brilliant society to which 
their birth was a passport, and into which their kind 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0TJN. 13 

mother-in-law, Lady Sinclair,* rejoiced to introduce 
them. 

However, it was the great happiness of the sisters 
that even then they had no love of fashion and no 
turn for gaiety. And it was their other great hap- 
piness that they had an ardent love for one 
another. Hannah was a student. Even during her 
childish days at Thurso, she had nearly as many 
friends as there were books in her father's library. 
She knew the haunt* of each, and climbing on a 
chair got hold of her favourite poet or divine, and sat 
demurely reading whilst the summer tempted her to 
play. To her it was the great event, not when the 
carrier brought a package of new toys, but a parcel 
of new volumes ; and when ministers and learned 
people visited the Castle, she posed them with hard 
questions. At school the same tendency was mani- 
fested. Her turn was still for thought and knowledge. 
She was fond of languages; she was an adept in 
grammar, history, geography, arithmetic ; she could 

* The second wife of Sir John Sinclair was the only 
daughter of Lord Macdonald. She was not more eminent for 
beauty and accomplishments, than for benevolence and sweet- 
ness of disposition. The attachment of the Misses Sinclair 
towards her was warm and well-deserved, for she was always a 
kind mother, and a faithful friend to them. She survived her 
husband ten years, and died in 1845. 



14 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

calculate an eclipse, or analyze " Reid's Inquiry." 
And, as might be expected, she was sedate and 
speculative, and often silent. Prom extreme modesty, 
reserved, she was still more self-contained, because 
amongst companions of her own sex she seldom found 
much sympathy in her intellectual pursuits. But 
Jessie was more lively. Dutiful and diligent, and 
considerate of each one's feelings, she was full of 
merry life and social glee. There was health in her 
nimble step and a prepossession in her fair and open 
features, and a peculiar charm in her tuneful voice. 
To her sister's turn for music she added a remarkable 
command of the pencil ; and whilst her sister pored 
over problems and deep authors, Jessie read for infor- 
mation. Their characters had just diversity sufficient 
to increase their fondness for one another, and to 
enable the one to supply what the other lacked. 
For her erudite and thoughtful sister the younger 
felt an admiring and up-looking deference; whilst 
the limpid perceptions and true instincts of that 
younger mind often proved lights in dark places to 
the more abstract inquirer. 

At that period Dr. Walter Buchanan was one of the 
ministers of Canongate. His warm and affectionate 
nature had been cast in the mould of the Gospel, and 
as it shone from his happy countenance and breathed 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 15 

in his gracious words, holiness was very beautiful.* 
The sisters looked at him with reverence. They 
had been told a great deal about religion, and they 
thought of it as something strict and precise ; but they 
had never met anything so fascinating as they saw in 

* Dr. Walter Buchanan was born in 1755. After he was 
licensed he received an invitation to become the pastor of the 
Scotch Church at Rotterdam, and was also called to the chapel 
of South Leith, of which Dr. Colquhoun was for so many 
years the eminent minister. But instead of either charge he 
accepted the office of assistant to Mr. Randall, of Stirling, 
whom he succeeded in 1780. In 1789 he was translated to 
the Collegiate Church and parish of Canongate, where he re- 
mained until his death in 1832. He was a beautiful specimen 
of Christian urbanity and warm-heartedness, and his house 
was the natural resort of the pious clergymen and Dissenters 
who in those days, — the days of Simeon, Rowland Hill, and 
George Burder, — came to Edinburgh, and who, until the year 
1799, were allowed to occupy indiscriminately the pulpits of 
the Scottish Establishment. Along with Dr. Davidson he was 
noted for his liberal encouragement of pious students of 
Theology, and by the books which he lent them, the fatherly 
advice which he gave them, and the many substantial services 
which he rendered them, — finding a tutorship for one, and 
the office of schoolmaster or assistant minister for another, 
and frequently giving goodly sums to those in straitened 
circumstances, — he became a general patron to all proba- 
tioners of Evangelical sentiments in Edinburgh. For many 
years he edited a periodical which supplied the godly fami- 
lies in Scotland with missionary intelligence and instructive 
Sabbath-reading, — " The Religious Monitor." With that con- 



16 LIEE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

their saintly pastor. They were quite arrested. Even 
amidst gay parties and volatile companions there 
followed them many a reminiscence of those fervent 
intercessions and persuasive counsels to which they 
had hearkened on the previous Sabbath. At last one 
day Miss Sinclair said to her sister, "If to obtain 
eternal life, we have only to practise goodness ; if we 
have only to do what is right in the sight of God 
and avoid what is evil, I am sure it would be folly not 
to make the attempt." And the proposal was made 
to one who had already been pondering the matter in 
her own mind, and who was beginning to be much 
impressed with the value of her soul and the uncer- 
tainty of life. The two resolved to become religious. 
They often retired and read the Bible together, and 
became very exact in devotional exercises. But still 
they were not satisfied. They saw that their pastor 

stancy which was one of her loveliest characteristics, Lady 
Colquhoun never abated for one hour in the grateful and 
venerating affection with which she regarded this earthly guide 
of her youth ; and when, long afterwards, her own daughter 
was married, she felt it a hallowing and auspicious circum- 
stance that the rite was solemnized by her own spiritual 
father. And in his widow, who survived for fifteen years, she 
found one of her most esteemed and congenial friends. The 
house of Mrs. Buchanan was the last to which Lady C. paid a 
visit. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 17 

and Christians like him, " had bread to eat which 
they knew not of," and they longed for this hidden 
manna. At this time they found on their father's 
table a Theological Treatise, newly published and in- 
scribed, " From the Author. " It was " A Practical 
View of the Religious System of Professed Chris- 
tians in the Higher and Middle Classes, by William 
Wilberforce, M.P." It seemed the very book they 
wanted. They carried it off to their own apart- 
ments and perused it with avidity. They could 
easily recognise in it the same system of evan- 
gelical doctrine which their minister preached, and 
as one truth after another unfolded in the bland 
and eloquent expositions of the gifted author, they 
were transported with delight. In the precision of a 
printed book, and in the free, inartificial language of 
a layman, they understood the Gospel. In Christ 
believed they found their peace with God ; in Christ 
loved they learned a new morality. It was Dr. 
Buchanan's scriptural preaching and elevated walk 
which first prepossessed them in favour of vital god- 
liness, and which long continued to be the chief 
means of building them up in faith and holiness ; 
but it was the " Practical View " which first corrected 
their self-righteous errors and first taught them God's 
own method, — the religion of receiving and relying. 

c 



18 LTFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

After this the Canongate Church was dearer than 
ever. With sacred delight they hailed the return of 
the Sabbath, and to them the most hallowed spots in 
the world were the dusky pulpit in which re-appeared 
that man of God, and their own family pew with its 
faded lining of green baize. With its brown light, 
its heavy pillars, and clumsy sounding-board, and with 
an audience becoming rapidly more and more plebeian, 
that sanctuary had charms which more classical struc- 
tures and more fashionable resorts could never counter- 
vail. It was the Bethel where God first met them, 
and daring each sojourn in Edinburgh, the youngest 
sister used always to revisit it, till shortly before the 
time when she arrived at " her Father's house in 
peace/' 

Now, also, was found the benefit of " two walking 
together." Miss Sinclair's seriousness and reflective- 
ness at an earlier period had proved of essential 
service to Miss Janet; and now that service was 
requited, for, indulging the metaphysical propensity 
of her mind, Miss Sinclair was soon involved in per- 
plexity as to the primary truths of revelation.* The 
doctrines of the Trinity, the incarnation, the eternity 

* We here anticipate the narrative by a few years. It was 
not till Miss S. had reached her 21st year that she felt the 
doubts described above. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 19 

of future punishment, the Divine sovereignty, all in 
succession proved stumbling-blocks ; and though much 
distressed at her own reluctant doubts, she had not 
within her own resources the means of removing 
them. In spiritual matters her only confidant was 
her youngest sister ; but a mind like hers could not 
have sought a better counsellor. To Miss Janet the 
Gospel had always been its own witness. She did 
not " exercise herself in great matters ; " but she saw 
the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. To her 
the religion of the Bible was beautiful. To her, in 
His revealed character, God was light, and she per- 
ceived no darkness at all. To her the Bible was 
truth, and the Gospel was the wisdom of God. And 
instead of debating with her sister, she directed her 
mind to the same objects which had assured herself. 
That which she had seen of the Word of Life she 
declared to her disquieted friend; and by dwelling 
on the fitness of the Gospel, and the loveliness of the 
Saviour's character, and by urging her to pray, she 
sought to bring that friend to " fellowship with the 
Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ." And she 
succeeded. By means of the more prominent and 
practical truths of Christianity, she conjured away her 
sister's abstruser doubts and intellectual difficulties, 
and had the happiness to see that dearest of her 

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20 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

kindred a sharer of her own ingenuous and healthful 
piety. Our language contains few summaries of 
Evangelical Christianity more simple and compre- 
hensive than Hannah Sinclair's " Letter on the Prin- 
ciples of the Christian Faith ; " and in reading it we 
feel our interest deepened by remembering that this 
labor of sisterly love is in good measure the result of 
sisterly prudence and piety ; for, under the blessing 
of God the Spirit, it was her younger sister's meek- 
ness of wisdom and simplicity in Christ which mainly 
contributed to establish Hannah Sinclair in the 
" Christian faith." 

But an event had now occurred which, whilst it 
left them attached as ever, interrupted their daily 
communings. On the 13th of June, 1799, and in 
the nineteenth year of her age, Miss Janet Sinclair 
was united in marriage to James, eldest son of Sir 
James Colquhoun of Luss, Baronet. 



CHAPTER II. 

GROW IN GRACE, AND IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF OUR LORD AND 

SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST. — 2 PETER IH. 18. 



Lady, that in the prime of earliest youth 

Wisely hast shunn'd the broad way and the green, 

And with those few art eminently seen, 

That labour up the hill of heavenly truth, 

The better part, with Mary and with Ruth, 

Chosen thou hast. 

Thy care is fixed, and zealously attends 

To fill thy odorous lamp with deeds of light, 

And hope that reaps not shame. 

milton's sonnets. 



Has the reader ever spent a bright day on Loch 
Lomond? Has he gone at leisure, and carried to 
it a spirit free from guilt and foreboding? Rising 
in health and in prayer, has he opened his soul 
and consented beforehand to let in all the wonder 
and delight with which the great Creator may be 
pleased to fill it? And, in his own hired boat, 
dropping from isle to isle, has he taken time to gaze 
and meditate and dissolve into the scene? And 
was there ever day like that? Not that you can 
describe the sights unutterable ; though you carry 
within yourself placid visions and sunny images of 
which you know that the origin was there : a silvery 
fulness, and, standing forth from it, mossy rocks and 
clumps of verdure ; a giant mountain on a throne of 
empyrean, with a foot-stool of lazulite ; vistas through 
the hot and flickering air, such as the fire-tinted 
pencil of Turner only can depict ; pure summits and 
a polished flood, which made you think of the hills of 



24 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

immortality, and the snowy robes which sweep the 
sea of glass : whilst, like the music which breaks a 
dream and then makes it beatific, through all the 
trance there went and came the sense of a pervading 
Presence, — the nearness of that Eternal Wisdom 
which built the mountain and up to its green edging 
brimmed the flood. But though no words can restore 
the landscape, you remember how it refined your 
perception and ennobled all your faculties : the 
fallow-deer on Inchlonaig and Inchmurrain grew tall 
as the elk, and you were sure that the hawk was an 
eagle. The Persicaria in the bays, with its rosy 
spikes, and the toad-flax on the beach, were new and 
gorgeous flowers ; and familiar texts and stanzas of 
favourite hymns thrilled you with excessive emotion. 
You had put off the commonplace, and were clothed 
upon with fine and pellucid senses ; and there was no 
longer aught tame or vulgar in the world, for you 
yourself were nobler. 

With a keen eye for its varied beauties, the 
subject of our biography now found her home in 
one of the loveliest regions of all these lovely shores. 
Surrounded by its stately trees, and sheltered from 
the blast by the ferny slopes of a Highland moun- 
tain, Rossdhu looks out upon Loch Lomond, where 
its waters are widest and its isles and margins 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 25 

fairest.* And, though encompassed by soft lawns 
and blossoming parterres, it is near enough to 

* A small volume has been compiled, describing the sensa- 
tions of different travellers in visiting Niagara. A similar 
volume might be devoted to Loch Lomond. Such experiences 
are interesting. Be it the perfection of grandeur or the per- 
fection of beauty, the tendency of noble scenery is to concentrate 
the soul, and nothing can be more revealing of the real character 
than the genuine utterance of such intensified moments. And, 
after the lake in all its loveliness had subsided into her calm 
and daily consciousness, few things were more delightful to 
Lady Colquhoun than to witness the rapture of a fervent 
novice. Near the mansion of Rossdhu is the Island of Inchta- 
vanach, from whose elevated crest, tradition says, a great bell 
used to summon to their several churches the people of four 
parishes. Of course, this belfry-knoll commands a splendid 
view ; but, owing to his lameness, it was with some difficulty 
that they dragged Legh Richmond to the summit. Once there, 
however, they could not drag him down ; but, slowly revolving 
his radiant visage, and through his great round-eyed spectacles 
devouring the landscape, he always hushed his fidgetty com- 
panions with the sentence, — " The eye is not satisfied with 
seeing." But a shorter glance sufficed his friend and cotem- 
porary, Mr. Simeon of Cambridge. "With his usual vivacity 
he pirouetted round to look at every object as they pointed it 
out ; then, turning to his hospitable guide, he exclaimed, " Sir 
James, you turn to this side and you say, ' That is mine ; ' and 
you turn to the other side and say, ' That is mine ; ' but," lifting 
both his hands, " I look up and say, Heaven is mine ! " On 
the same spot Dr. Chalmers exclaimed, " I wonder if there 
will be a Loch Lomond in heaven ! " And there Dr. Malan 
knelt down, and poured forth the fulness of his heart in such a 



26 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

the mountains to be constantly visited by breezes 
from the broom and the heather. Some of the 
windows look out on a ruined gable of that castle 
from which the fierce Sir Humphrey used to sally 
with his followers when he went to fight the 
Clan Gregor ; and near that Castle, overshaded by 
ancient yews, is the roofless chapel, where the fierce 
Sir Humphrey was laid to sleep when all his fights 
were over. With its pictures and its library and its 
spacious halls, with three parishes for its manor and 
the queen of Scottish lakes for its outlook, and with 
all the self-contained luxury which marks the country- 
seat of a wealthy Baronet, at the period of life most 
susceptible of enjoyment, the younger Miss Sinclair 
found herself the lady of Rossdhu.* But the grace 
of God had full possession of her mind, and, amidst 
all the blandishments of smooth-going existence, He 
Himself was her chiefest joy, and His Word her 

prayer as many have heard beside his own Lake of Geneva. 
Perhaps, however, the mood of mind most congenial to her own 
was that expressed by one with whom Lady Colquhoun had no 
personal acquaintance. In the diary lately published of the de- 
voted missionary, John Macdonald, he writes, — " I took an oppor- 
tunity of visiting Loch Lomond, and was exceedingly delighted. 
O how sweet and tranquil was the bosom of the lake ! I thought 
of the ' peace of God that passeth understanding.' " 

* Her father-in-law died, and she became Lady Colquhoun, 
in 1805. 




m 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 27 

chosen guide. Amidst all the charms of the landscape 
and all the fascinations of refined society, she never 
neglected a household duty. " The lines have fallen 
to me in pleasant places/' was her devout acknow- 
ledgement regarding her earthly lot ; and, though 
embowered in scenes so fair that they almost justified 
the relaxation to which they perpetually tempted, she 
never ceased to hear a voice, authoritative and earnest, 
saying, " Occupy till I come." 

Of retiring habits, and fain to dwell among his 
own people, Sir James Colquhoun was much beloved 
by his dependants. Personally cognizant of their 
character and circumstances, there survived betwixt 
himself, his farmers, and cotters, the best relic of. 
feudalism, — its mutual affection. He took the prin- 
cipal management of his own estates, and never 
turned adrift on the world the orphan or the widow.* 
It was his greatest happiness to have a wife like Lady 
Colquhoun. At first, proud of her looks and her elegant 

* In early life Sir James had served in the army. Having 
raised a company in his own neighbourhood, according to the 
regulation at that period, he was appointed to the command 
of it, and thus joined his Regiment with the rank of Captain. 
He was afterwards elected Member of Parliament for the 
county of Dumbarton. On the death of his father lie retired 
from the army, and chiefly resided on his estate, devotiDg 
himself to its improvement. 



28 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

manners, he learned to value her gentle wisdom and 
unworldly goodness, till at last harmony of affection 
merged in harmony of faith. She saw his prejudices 
against evangelical religion. She scarcely hoped to 
remove them by conversation ; but she prayed for 
\\ oil in her lamp/' and sought to make her own light 
shine. Her prayers were answered; her consistency 
was rewarded. Her husband became gradually and 
more and more intelligently attached to the same 
principles. In appointing pastors to the eight parishes 
of which he was patron, it was his first anxiety to 
find ministers of fervent piety. And when, by and 
by, he was chosen an elder of the Church, and had 
a voice in its supreme Assembly, his vote was always 
given for those measures which conferred privileges 
on Christian congregations, and which promised most 
effectually to extend the Gospel. 

Luss can boast of more than one celebrated divine. 
It was here that Maclaurin commenced his eminent 
ministry, and here that he would have been content 
to spend his life in preaching those sermons so full of 
holy eloquence and magnificent theology. And it 
was here that John Colquhoun was born. In his 
boyhood he herded sheep on the Mulea Hill, and till 
thirty years of age plied the shuttle of a hand-loom 
weaver, when he got his heart's desire, — went to 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 29 

College, and became one of the most useful preachers 
and solid authors of the Scottish Church. But, for 
many years after Lady Colquhoun came to Rossdhu, 
the parish minister was Dr. John Stuart. Although 
not eminent as a preacher, he was famed for his 
scholarship and his scientific attainments. To his 
knowledge of the original Scriptures, and to the 
idiomatic purity of his Gaelic, the Highlanders are 
mainly indebted for the perfection which their version 
of the Bible has attained. And at a time when few 
cared for natural history, he was pursuing it with 
enthusiasm among the mountains of Breadalbane ; 
and with such success, that when Pennant, Lightfoot, 
and Sir Joseph Banks came to explore the Scottish 
Fauna and Mora, it was from Mr. Stuart they derived 
their most important information. The " Manse 
Garden," at Luss, contained many exotic rarities, 
and, still more interesting to the botanist, many of 
the scarcest plants of Scotland ; and in that garden it 
was a great delight to Lady Colquhoun to walk, and 
view those treasures with which no hand might 
tamper save the Doctor's own. In these visits she 
was soon much prepossessed in favour of the minister's 
eldest daughter. Along with her father's warmth 
and generosity, Miss Stuart inherited much of his 
talent and his turn for botany. She was often the 



30 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

companion of his rambles through the glens and up 
the mountains, and, having on these occasions shared 
all the delight of his discoveries, she could guide the 
curious traveller to the spot where the Lysimachia 
thysiflora or the Osmunda regalis flourished, and 
knew where on Ben Lomond might be gathered the 
finest specimens of the Sibbaldia jprocumbens and the 
purple Saxifrage. But, in that amiable and ardent 
mind, Lady Colquhoun quickly recognised an affinity 
more precious still. Miss Stuart's thoughts were 
deeply occupied with those great truths in which she 
herself had found all her salvation and all her desire ; 
and, until Miss Stuart's marriage to an eminent 
minister, when they met they took every opportunity 
to commune together on the things which per- 
tained to their everlasting peace. In one of these 
walks round the garden at the manse Lady Colquhoun 
stopped to admire a beautiful dwarf-shrub (the BJio- 
dodendron ferrugineum). Next morning, on entering 
the breakfast-room, she found a tiny slip of the plant 
in a miniature flower-pot ; it grew, and soon needed 
a larger receptacle, and ere long was transferred to a 
choice plat of the flower-garden ; and, on her return 
from any temporary absence, one of the first spots 
which Lady Colquhoun was sure to visit was this 
border, that she might see " dear Betsy Stuart's plant." 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 31 

The place no longer knows either, but the memorial 
of their hallowed affection, the little shrub, with its 
clusters of rich crimson, still flourishes. 

However, during the first years of her married life, 
Lady Colquhoun had much reason to lament the 
want of Christian society. Her spirit craved for it. 
All her desire was towards the excellent of the earth, 
and when, with letters of introduction, pious strangers 
took their place at her table, or turned aside to tarry 
for a night, she had towards them a venerating 
feeling, as if they were angels of God. But usually 
it was in vain that she longed to have spiritual con- 
versation with them. They assumed that she was like 
most gentlewomen of that day, — more amiable and 
interesting than many, but as destitute of real religion 
as the rest. And then, when they had passed on 
their way, and when it would have been equally just 
to have charged the lost opportunity to their excessive 
prudence or erroneous politeness, her sensitive spirit 
took home all the blame, and she upbraided herself 
for her sinful timidity. On the other hand, in the 
visiting circle of her own neighbourhood there were 
at that time few, at least few known to her, in whose 
intercourse she could find spiritual invigoration or 
intellectual enjoyment. Amongst the landed aris- 
tocracy of Scotland there were then less mental 



32 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

expansion and less religious enlightenment than in 
the middling class of towns-people, and much less 
than amongst their own modern representatives. 
Political rancour was extremely virulent. The preju- 
dice against evangelical Christianity was nearly uni- 
versal. And if the gentlemen did not drink so freely 
nor swear so coarsely as a bygone generation, they 
did not read their Bibles more, nor keep the Sabbath 
better. Card-parties, elaborate carriage airings, and 
the news of the neighbourhood, were the recreations 
of their wives and daughters ; but few took pains to 
cultivate their minds, and still fewer were engaged in 
works of usefulness ; so that in the general absence of 
literary tastes and refined enjoyments, the houses of 
our Scotch grandees repeated with irksome uniformity 
the same scenes of pompous inanity and stolid merry- 
making. And, although there were exceptions, all 
the more prized for their rarity, it was rather by an 
effort of benevolence than in obedience to her natural 
inclinations that the young lady of the manor paid 
visits which added nothing to her mental resources, 
and often left repentant misgivings in her devout and 
conscientious mind. 

This comparative isolation was not without its 
benefits. It gave a more personal character to her 
piety. Instead of deriving all her impressions and 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 33 

impulses from ardent or endearing friends, her religion 
increasingly became communion with the Saviour. 
And it left her more leisure for that employment into 
which she had thrown all her soul, — the instruction 
and training of her children. And, whilst it prepared 
her for hailing with peculiar delight the congenial 
intercourse at length so abundantly vouchsafed to 
her, it drew her in the meanwhile with especial 
tenderness towards such humble disciples as the 
parish then contained, — those " poor" whom the Lord 
had promised that she should " have always." 

Judging by the hand-writing, it was soon after 
her arrival at Rossdhu that the following " Helps to 
Self-Examination' I were written out : — 



" 1. Did I awake as with God this morning? 

"2. How were the secret devotions of the morning 
performed ? 

" 3. Did I offer my praises of thanksgiving, and 
renew the dedication of myself to God with becoming 
attention and affections ? 

" 4. How did I read the Scripture or any other 
useful book ? Did they do my heart good ? 

" 5. How have the mid-day devotions been attended 
to? 



34 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

" 6. Have I pursued my common business with 
diligence as unto the Lord ? 

" 7. What time have I lost this day, and for what 
cause ? 

"8. Have I seen the hand of God even in little 
mercies and afflictions ? 

"9. Have I received my comforts with thankful- 
ness and my afflictions with resignation ? 

"10. How have I guarded against passion and 
vanity ? 

"11. Have I lived by the faith of the Son of God ? 

"12. Have I governed my thoughts well, especially 
in solitude? 

" 13. What subject of thought was chosen this 
day, and how was it regarded ? 

"14. Has my heart this day been full of love to 
God and to all mankind ? 

"15. How have I profited this day by the negli- 
gences I observed in last night's examination ? 

" 16. How did I pray last night? " 

In the hope that it might prove a stimulus to 
increased activity, and a help in the great business of 
self-culture, in 1805 she began to keep a Diary. Its 
precious volumes have been intrusted to the perusal 
of the Editor, and have left on his mind a very sacred 
impression regarding the sainted writer. And although 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 



35 



extracts will probably fail to transfer that impression 
in its fulness to the mind of the reader, they may 
give him some idea of the tender lowlihood, the 
faithful self-observation, the ingenuous truthfulness, 
the simple dependence, and the devout aspirations, 
which resulted in a character at last so complete and 
blameless. As illustrative of her calm and constant 
nature it may be right to notice how perseveringly 
this private narrative was kept up. Perhaps the 
reader has himself tried to keep a journal. In a 
zealous moment he has commenced a daily register of 
employments, or the story of a tour, or a record of 
his experiences ; but he soon wearied of its methodical 
routine, and the written leaves have long since been 
cut away to render the book available for some new 
project. But Lady Colquhoun was eminently sted- 
fast. Her undertakings were never prompted by 
romantic fancies, but by sober judgment ; and, there- 
fore, the longer she persisted in them the more she 
liked them. And the successive volumes of this 
journal, extending over forty years, and sustained 
with scarcely an interruption, are only a symbol of 
that continuous industry with which she prosecuted 
every enterprise, and that loving faithfulness with 
which she clung to all her friends. 

During the first period this Diary is usually brief; 

D 2 



36 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

but a few specimens may throw some light on the 
writer's position and employments : — 

" Tuesday, Oct. 15, 1805. — Awoke in an unhappy 
frame, but was enabled to pray with fervour. Prayed 
for an unlikely thing, which I hoped might be helpful 
to my spiritual interests. To my astonishment my 
prayer was heard. Called at Cameron. Mr. Slight 
came to dinner. Much benefited by his prayer." 

Mr. Slight was then, and for a few years longer, 
the Minister of Bonhill. He was a man of cultivated 
mind and fervent piety. He sometimes, but not 
often, spent a day at Rossdhu, and " the unlikely 
thing" for which Lady Colquhoun had prayed on the 
above occasion was, that he might be sent to their 
house that day. In going to Cameron she met Mr. 
Slight, who stopped his horse, and said that he was 
on his way to Rossdhu, and if convenient to her, he 
would still proceed. The Journal resumes : — 

" Wednesday, 16. — Arose with God. Mr. Slight 
left us. The joy of God's salvation restored. I 
would do anything for a continuance and increase 
of it. Retired twice to read and pray for some time 
during the forenoon. 

" Saturday, Dec. 28. — Resolved to read no more 
novels, having been enticed to read one which too 
much occupied my time. Retired and read and 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 37 

prayed with much love and trust in my Lord. This 
week and last I have seen how unable I am to resist 
temptation. Oh ! that Christ would strengthen me ! 

" Saturday, July 21, 1810. — Prayed earnestly to 
be kept from worldly-mindedness this day, being to 
dine at . Escaped pretty well at the dinner- 
party ; but I fear transgressed in the evening at the 
theatre, where I went without wishing it." 

As, in the sequel of this Journal, there will be no 
allusion to the theatre, it may be right to mention, 
that up to this period, and in deference to the wishes 
of others, Lady Colquhoun occasionally went to it ; 
but she had long ceased to feel happy there. With 
successive visits her repugnance strengthened, and 
soon after the above was written she saw so clearly 
the sinfulness of patronising such places, that she 
made a decided stand, and never entered a playhouse 
again. 

" Sunday, Aug. 12. — Do not remember for a long 
time being so little disposed for the services of the 
day. Prayed in the morning seriously, but with little 
life. Unfortunately no service at Luss.* Read a 

* The communion was then dispensed in most rural parishes 
only once a year ; and, as the pastors and flocks of adjacent 
parishes used to adjourn to the scene of its celebration, each 
pulpit was apt to be vacant several times in the course of the 
summer. 



38 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

sermon aloud, but felt little interested. Heard the chil- 
dren, and by reading Doddridge's ' Rise and Progress ■ 
tried to find out what I should do when this deadness 
is upon me. Head over this book and felt a little 
enlivened by finding some of my own experience in 
it. In temptation without Christ I cannot conquer ; 
but through Him I may surely do all things. Let me 
struggle on in the way of duty; He cannot forsake 
his own servants. Lord, Lord, help ! — After writing 
the above, retired to pray to my Lord. Entreated 
with great fervour to be supported in the ways of 
God, in the midst of innumerable evils. In prayer 
my faith and love revived. How gracious is my Lord ! 

" Thursday, 23. — Delighted with some pleasing 
accounts of George. 

"Friday, Oct. 12.— Sir J. and Lady M'Gregor 
Murray here. Read and prayed early. 

"Saturday Oct. 13. — This whole day so engaged 
as to find it impossible to read the Bible. Prayed in 
the forenoon, and felt affected while walking in the 
island among the tombs.* 

" Sunday, Nov. 25.— Read, with delight, ' Theron 
and Aspasio/ on the freeness with which Christ 
is offered. Retired and prayed, with tears, for 
acceptance and pardon. 

* Inch Cailliach is the burjing-place of the M'Gregors. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 39 

"Sunday, April 14, 1811. — Have been three 
months in Edinburgh, from which I returned about 
a week ago ; and though constant occupations of one 
sort or other have prevented my writing, I now set 
my hand to it that God is true and merciful to those 
who trust in Him. I left this place fearful that the 
dissipations of an Edinburgh winter would draw my 
thoughts from my only real good ; but, merciful Lord, 
thou hast made me more than conqueror ! My prayer 
was, that thou wouldest shine as a light around me 
in temptation, and surely thou hast heard me. The 
means of grace were powerful, and, by the Holy Spirit 
working in them, far outdid any contrary influence. 
The Sabbaths I was able regularly and delightfully to 
keep, and I had an opportunity of sitting down at the 
table of the Lord when Dr. Buchanan preached, — a 
time which I hope was not lost to me. Now I return 
here to the want of those lively means ; but, Lord, 
thou art here also. Hold thou me up, and I shall 
be safe; and so shall I keep thy statutes con- 
tinually. 

" Wednesday, April 17. — Prayed fervently in the 
morning. Resisted a temptation to anger. This day 
I am thirty years old. Let me now bid a cheerful 
adieu to my youth. My young days are now surely 
over, and why should I regret them ? Were I never 



40 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

to grow old I might be always here, and might never 
bid farewell to sin and sorrow. Lord, teach thy 
servant to rejoice in the hope of thy glory. 

"Saturday, July 13.— Sir W. W. W. and Mr. and 
Mrs. S. and Mr. C, came. Prayed that my affairs 
might be ordered for me, and that the duties of 
to-morrow might not be interrupted. 

" Sunday, 14. — All our visitors went away before 
breakfast, except Mr. C, who is almost no interrup- 
tion to my devotions. Prayed in the morning with 
much thankfulness. God is my helper in every time 
of need. 

"Friday, 26. — Head with pleasure, and saw my 
adoption from the character of the children of God. 
How great is my privilege ! I would not resign it 
for worlds. 

" Sunday, 28. — Meditated with pleasure on the 
Divine disposal of all my concerns. 

" Saturday, Aug. 3. — Mr. Campbell and Wilhel- 
mina * here. Happy to find dear W. still pious as 
I remember her. Meditated with pleasure on the 
goodness of God to her and to me, and to all his 
people. Oh ! how does He heal our backslidings and 
forgive us freely ! 

* Sister of Sir James Colquhoun, and wife of John Campbell, 
Esq., of Stonefield. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 41 

"Monday, 5. — Had a long conversation with 
Wilhelmina at night on religions subjects. 

"Sunday, 18. — Heard the children. — made me 
happy by saying she often forbore doing what she 
thought displeasing to God, and that she prayed for 
His Spirit every day. Prayed for them all with much 
earnestness, and with thankfulness for every serious 
impression. 

"Tuesday, Sept. 3.— The light of God's coun- 
tenance restored. Convinced that I would be heard 
by my gracious Lord, from considering that, w T hen on 
earth, He never rejected any one who applied to Him 
for either temporal or spiritual blessings. 

"Friday, Nov. 1. — Forgave an injury, in order to 
follow Christ. 

" Saturday, July 25, 1812. — Read on the religious 
education of children • which led me, with my whole 
soul, to pray for God's blessing on my endeavours to 
bring up mine in the ways of piety. He knows my 
almost only wish for them is directed to this end. 

" Thursday, Sept. 24. — Mr. Millar and his friend, 
Mr. Gorham,* here. Peel refreshed by the sight of 
this dear disciple of my Lord, though I had no oppor- 
tunity of conversing with him on religious subjects. 

* Since well known in consequence of the proceedings in the 
Ecclesiastical Courts of England. 



42 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

" Friday, 25. — When it is so pleasant to meet 
with Christ's people here, think, O my soul, how 
delightful will be the society of heaven ! Feel a 
desire to depart, but am grieved that I love my Lord 
no better. I long for more acquaintance with Him. 
However, I feel assured that I am His, and trust to 
His promise, that I shall one day be as I would. 
Did not resent an injury. 

"Sunday, Feb. 7, 1813. — During the past week 
have got by degrees into a more comfortable frame, 
not from being sensible of any amendment in myself, 
but from trust in my Saviour, and from being sensible 
that I must rest in Him, sinful as I am. Feel very 
comfortable, and full of faith in the atonement of 
Christ. Resolved to endeavour never to think of 
myself any more, but to look on my salvation as 
finished, whatever my frame may be. 

" April 4.* — In these duties not very lively, but 
have an abiding persuasion of acceptance through 
the righteousness and atonement of my all-righteous 
Saviour. Refreshed with the text, 'Whosoever 
receiveth whom I send receiveth me, and he that 

* After this period Lady Colquhoun usually wrote in her 
Journal only once a-week, viz., on each Sabbath. Unless, 
therefore, the day of the week be mentioned, the reader will 
understand that it was the Lord's-day. 



^^^^^y^^^, ~~^t<^ l ' f2 ° 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 43 

receiveth me receiveth Him that sent me.' Surely I 
joyfully receive and attend to the people of God. In 
the evening had a conversation with Sir James on 
religious subjects, which greatly pleased me. Oh ! 
how are my prayers continually answered ! 

" 25. — Walked alone. My meditation sweet. 
Among other things reflected with pleasure that, as 
every creature is placed in a situation most adapted 
to his wants, so surely that noblest work of God, the 
new creature, must and shall be one day placed where 
it shall grow and flourish. Oh ! that I were thus 
transplanted ; for this world is indeed a barren soil. 

"Aug. 15. — Went to Church at Bonhill, there 
being no sermon at Luss. One part of Mr. Gregor's 
discourse struck me. Speaking of our justification, 
he said, ' that the people of God, or believers in 
Christ, are really as much in a state of acceptance as 
their Lord Himself : He being their Surety, all their 
debt is paid, and there is nothing to object against 
them.' 

"Sept. 19. — For some months have been led con- 
tinually to meditate on death, and anxiously to wish 
that I could look with outstretched neck to the time 
of my dismission. My fears of it begin to abate. I 
feel heartily willing to leave the world, which, except 
for my friends in it, has no attraction to me. What 



44 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

principally staggers me is, that I do not sufficiently 
love my Lord, and long to be with Him. 

" Edinburgh, Feb. 13, 1814. — Got a tooth extracted 
yesterday ; and one thing which influenced me was 
the desire to attend the house of my God to-day. 
The gum was still painful when exposed to air; 
however, I resolved to go and hear Dr. Buchanan. 
Refreshed by the sermon, though sometimes in much 
pain. One remark comforted me, that love to our 
Christian brethren is a sure sign of being Christ's 
disciples ; as mentioned more than once in the 
Bible. I do, indeed, with my whole heart, love 
them. 

" Bossdhu, April 10. — We all returned safe home 
last week, accompanied by Hannah, and Mr. Proud- 
foot,* who conducted family worship, which I wished 
to establish, and we are to have it every Sabbath 
evening. I hope it may turn out for the good of 
us all. 

"June 26. — No sermon at Luss. Heard Sir James 
read one. Went out and meditated on the love of 
Christ, and his frequent exhortations to faith. Oh ! 
that I could not doubt, and then I might say to this 
mountain of sin, — ' Be thou removed, and it should 
be done,' and nothing should be impossible to me. 

* Then tutor of her sons, afterwards Minister of Arrochar. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 45 

Well, I trust my Lord has undertaken to cure my 
hard heart. 

" July 24. — Impressed with the shortness of my 
abode in this world, which is to me a reviving, as 
well as awful idea. Indeed, I would not live here 
always. 

" Sept. 4. — In the past week Hannah left me, and 
I parted with her and with my father and Lady 
Sinclair with more regret, as they are shortly going to 
England to reside, and I can see comparatively little 
of them. But shall I not trust to my Lord that all is 
right and well ? I know that this dispensation is for 
good for me and us all, and I wonld not alter it. 

" Edinburgh, Jan. 15, 1815. — At St. George's in the 
morning, and heard Mr. Thomson. At the Canongate 
in the afternoon, and heard Dr. Buchanan, Ps. cxvi. 
16. He concluded with a few advices to those who 
were determined to serve the Lord: — ' 1. Beware of 
self-confidence. 2. Beware of sloth. 3. Beware of 
worldly -mindedness. 4. Mix not too much with the 
world. 5. Be constant and fervent in prayer. 6. Be 
sure you trust in the mediation of Christ, and in Him 
only/ Oh ! what means of grace do I here enjoy, 
for which in some periods of my life I would have 
given anything. As yet, little temptation has befallen 
me throughout the week. Have found benefit by 



46 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

realizing the presence of Christ when in the world. 
Were He, indeed, visibly there, how little should I 
care for others ! 

"Feb. 5. — At Mr. Grey's chapel in the afternoon. 
He preached on the forgiveness of injuries. By the 
help of grace, resolved to practise this difficult duty 
in its fullest extent. I trust I am not utterly a 
stranger to it. 

" 12. — In the past week put in practice, as far as 
possible, my intentions as to forgiveness. Think Mr. 
Grey's sermon was designed for my good, as I had 
much to try me in many little things, which are 
sometimes as difficult to overlook as greater matters. 

"March 26. — After dinner we made an attempt to 
hear Mr. Chalmers, but the crowd was so great we 
could not. Eelt disappointed, particularly as it is my 
last opportunity here ; but was soon reconciled. I 
have more need to go home and meditate and pray. 
Did so, and my heart, from being dead, became alive 
to God. 

" Bossdhu, April 23. — Have of late been distressed 
with the weakness of my faith, which cannot take 
Christ at His word when He says that He will receive 
all who come to Him. I can reason very well, that 
He could do no more to show his willingness, and that 
we must buy without money and without price ; and 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 47 

yet I cannot feel satisfied, because I do not love my 
Lord sufficiently. What is this, however, but resting 
on my own performances ? And did I love Him as 
his dearest saint, it would only be the work of His 
own Spirit, and He can work it even in me. If not, 
I will endeavour to rest on His naked word, that I am 
accepted in Him. This night my faith firmer. 

" July 25, Tuesday. — This day met with a trial of 
its kind. Mrs. Millar had given Mr. Simeon, of 
Cambridge, a letter of introduction to me. I should 
have been delighted to see him, in hopes of getting 
some refreshment from his conversation and prayers ; 
but, from some accident, he went away before I knew 
of it : and although I sent to Luss, I found he was 
gone. Of course, this was ordered by my Heavenly 
Father; but I have found it hard to be resigned. 
Lord, I hope I could be more easily reconciled to 
temporal losses ; but perhaps not. Oh ! if I may not 
receive help from men, be Thyself my light and my 
salvation ! 

" 27, Thursday. — The Lord has heard my prayer. 
This day Mr. Proudfoot lent me ' Edwards on the 
Religious Affections/ On reading it I felt a stronger 
impression of the reality of Divine things, and of the 
infinite holiness and beauty of God and my Redeemer, 
than I recollect for very long. I now feel more 



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certain of being His ; have more love to Him ; and 
(what makes me hope it is indeed His Spirit's 
influence) am more humble. Lord, I bless Thee for 
this refreshment. Thou hast seen fit to do thy own 
work without any intercourse with creatures, and 
now I am resigned. Mrs. Millar, in her last letter, 
mentions her meeting with Mr. Simeon, who took 
leave of her in these words, — ' God bless you. 
Commit yourself to Him. Keep Him in your heart. 
Remember there is no happiness without Him, either 
here or in heaven! 

" JEarnoch House, Aug. 10. — Have been here for 
some days, and have left Hannah at Polkemmet. 
Arose early this morning to read and pray. At 
church in the forenoon at Hamilton, and in the after- 
noon at Blantyre, when Dr. Hodson gave us an 
excellent sermon on prayer, and the certainty of its 
prevalence if offered for things agreeable to the will 
of God. How often have I experienced this ; and do 
I not now experience it? having prayed for the 
presence of God, and that I might hear His Word 
faithfully preached? I have met with the people 
of God in my journey, and Mr. Millar has given 
me many religious books to read. 

" Rossdhu, Oct. 8. — Prayed but coldly in private, 
but with fervor in the family. What a refreshment 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 49 

is family prayer, when my heart is dull, but longing 
for grace ! 

"Edinburgh, Feb. 11, 1816. — Not at church in 
the morning, having ear-ache. Have reason to be 
thankful for this complaint, — it has kept me from two 
parties ; and the day before I took it I had heard of 
the great attainments of poor Bell (formerly my 
housemaid), who, amidst great bodily distress, has 
become eminently pious. I felt envious, and almost 
prayed that I might be made such by any means; 
but God soon taught me gratitude for the good 
health I enjoy. Pain is hard to be borne. 

"March 17. — Another striking event among our 
connexions happened last week, in the sudden death 
of Lord Polkemmet. He had been long complaining, 
but was much in his usual way, when he dropped 
down and expired. Have been much with Mrs. 
Baillie, and have tried to comfort her and raise her 
mind to God. I also saw the corpse — the first I 
ever saw. I felt no terror ; but to me the sight was 
rather consolatory. I thought — Is this all death can 
do if we are Christ's ? then, I will not fear it. 

"March 31. — And now I am come to my last 
Sabbath in Edinburgh, and this day took leave of the 
dear pew in the Canongate Church, where my first 
religious impressions were awakened ; for this spring 



50 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

the church is to be fitted up anew, and the seats 
altered. As I left it, could not help feeling — Thanks, 
thanks, O my God, that I ever sat there ! Praised be 
my gracious Lord that I ever heard Dr. Buchanan 
and sat under his ministry ! Glory be to God, 
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, that it was effectual to 
lead me to Him ! Now I leave the means I so much 
love ; nevertheless, I am continually with Thee. Thou 
wilt hold me by Thy right hand. 

" Rossdhu, April 14. — Read Dr. Colquhoun on 
' Spiritual Comfort/ Think I enjoy what he describes 
as the lowest degree of it, — a hope in the mercy of 
God through Christ, and a trust that everything shall 
be ordered for the best for me. How often have I 
wished for more ! How have I longed for joy 
unspeakable and full of glory ! But it is all right 
and well ordered. My easy, comfortable life does not 
require those supports which are afforded in pain and 
suffering ; and my weak heart would perhaps grow 
vain if I were not often reminded that I am nothing 
and can do nothing. 

"April 28. — Sir James and his brother were 
ordained elders. How truly did I join in the prayers 
which were offered up for them ! Last week I was 

much distressed with the fear that my sweet had 

formed an improper acquaintance, and had got much 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 51 

attached to her. After fervent prayer, spoke to her, 
with tears on the subject, and she gave me every 
satisfaction I could wish, seeming willing to do what 
I pleased. Oh, my God ! protect my children ! 
Make them Thine, early Thine, for ever Thine ! I ask 
nothing for them but in subservience to this. My 
whole drift in their education has been towards this 
end • but Lord, Thou only canst give the increase. 

11 June 23. — Was afraid of Lord and Lady 

being here either to-day or next Sunday; but my 
God has heard my prayers, and they are to come on 
Wednesday. This week have the prospect of being 
four days following in the world: have prayed for 
support. I feel the influence of worldly company less 
hurtful than I once did, and can lift up my heart to 
God in the midst of it much more frequently. 

"July 18, Thursday. — My dear Hannah arrived 
here on Tuesday. I have reason for thankfulness that 
her life is still spared. Oh that she may enjoy 
when here, and while life lasts, the fulness of the 
blessing of the Gospel of Christ ! This is the fast- 
day preparatory to the Sacrament. This communion, 
I have little prospect from means, as even Mr. Gregor 
is not to be here. But I must endeavour to look 
from the dispensers to the ordinance. 

"19, Friday {before the Communion). — Let me 
E 2 



52 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

examine my evidences of faith in Christ. In the first 
place, I have no reliance on anything I have done, or 
can do, for acceptance with God. Secondly, I do 
trust in Christ alone for salvation ; and, were I to die 
this moment, I should have no other plea before the 
throne but His life and His death. Thirdly, I have 
given myself up to Him, and am endeavouring to do 
His will and live to His glory ; but ' faith works by 
love/ and here the weakness of mine is very, very 
perceptible. my Lord, how little do I love Thee ! 
Yet, methinks, I must love Thee, when I can be 
satisfied with nothing without Thee, and when I 
almost think I could be satisfied with Thee, and with 
nothing else ; when I love Thy image wherever I find 
it; and when I desire communion with Thee more 
than anything else. ' Faith purifies the heart.' 
Whatever defilement there may be, and undoubtedly 
is in mine, yet its desires are after purity ; and surely 
I should not do justice to the work of the blessed 
Spirit, did I not think that it is more pure than once 
it was or than it would have been without this 
gracious influence. ( Faith overcomes the world. 5 
Here I can be more decided. The world? it is 
nothing to me ; its pomps, its pleasures, its vanities, 
■ — all nothing, nothing. Its cares are far less than 
they once were. Its sorrows I know not how I may 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 53 

feel, but I trust for Almighty support. Faith has 
overcome the world. 

" Sept. 29. — My dear Hannah leaves me to-morrow. 
God only knows if we shall meet again ; however, she 
(as well as I) belongs to Him, and it will be ordered 
for the best for us both. 

"Nov, 24.— Read 'Life of Mrs. Newell.' For 
some time past I have been in an uncommon state of 
mind, as I think, owing to one and another difficulty 
and trial. Eeel in the strongest manner the import- 
ance of religion, and it is continually in my thoughts, 
and yet my affections seem dead. Read to the 
children both before and after dinner. Heard them, 
and prayed with them. Happy to hear them say 
that they had prayed alternately aloud in a room by 
themselves. Is not this some sign of good impres- 
sions ? 

"Feb. 2, 1817. — After dinner read to Sir James 
the ' Life of General Burn,' a most interesting book. 
I feel quite happy here in my beloved retreat, away 
from the gay and busy world.* 

" May 4. — Reading ' Doddridge's Lectures on 
Divinity,' delighted to find some cases described as 
frequently occurring to Christians similar to my own 

* This winter was spent at Rossdhu. Her sons and their 
tutor were in Edinburgh. 



54 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

experience. For instance, texts of Scripture occurring 
with power to the mind. Well do I recollect 'the 
deceitfulness of riches ' occurring to me again and 
again, almost as if I had heard a voice, and when I 
could not recollect in what part of the Bible it occurs ; 
and still the impression of it is fresh. Then, a strong 
persuasion of some particular request being granted, 
which removes from the spirit an overwhelming 
burden. Yes, my God, I know this case by expe- 
rience. Thou hast seen me for weeks oppressed and 
groaning under what seemed a wound incurable, but 
Thy own sweet words, O Saviour ! healed it, — ' All 
things whatsoever ye ask in prayer, believing, ye shall 
receive/ Man, I knew, would tell me I must not 
take these words so literally; but I determined to 
credit God. I see no limitation, and I will make 
none ; and never since have I doubted that I shall be 
heard. Some signs of it I already see. I seldom 
read this verse without tears, and the chapter con- 
taining it (Matthew xxi.) is dear to me. 

" May 8, Thursday. — Mr. Proudfoot was ordained 
Minister of Arrochar. And now, my God, who would 
not trust Thee ? ' In the shadow of Thy wings will I 
make my refuge, until all calamities be overpast. I 
will cry unto God Most High, unto God that per- 
formed all things for me! I went up to Arrochar 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 55 

and witnessed the ordination. Mr. Gregor conducted 
the service uncommonly well. His text was, ' Neces- 
sity is laid upon me : yea, woe is unto me if I preach 
not the Gospel.' The crowd was great, and he 
preached in the tent. 

" June 8. — Read to Sir James, and prayed for a 
blessing. I never had more delightful views of the 
Lord Jesus than last night, in reading the parable of 
the good Samaritan. What a beautiful one it is ! I 
could have kissed his sweet, compassionate, heavenly 
words. Art Thou, Lord, such a pure, glorious, gra- 
cious Being ; and yet do I sometimes fear Thee as my 
enemy? Thou knowest the reason. Nothing but 
Thy Spirit can open mine eyes, and I will trust Thee 
that it shall be given. The most delightful view I 
can form of heaven itself is, that I shall love and serve 
Thee. 

"July 17, Thursday. — This being the fast before 
our Sacrament, rose earlier and thought over my sins 
with penitence. How constantly do I sin in neglect- 
ing God, — that God who is giving me so much to be 
grateful for ! How constantly do I sin in my best 
works ! However praiseworthy in the sight of men, 
every action is denied with this disgusting quality. 
My most fervent prayers are tainted with this poison. 
My most self-denied labours for the good of others 



56 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

are sometimes rendered unworthy in the sight of God 
by pride. And how often am I far more gratified by 
thinking that a pious action will procure me the 
approbation of the dear disciples of my Lord, than 
of that Lord Himself ! Oh ! vanity, how dost thou 
defile my almost every thought ! And have I not 
been envious? Am I clear of doing injury to the 
souls of my dearest friends, and of all around me, by 
neglect ? These are a few of innumerable sins. 
' Woe is me ! for I am of unclean lips, and dwell in 
the midst of a people of unclean lips ; ' but let a coal 
from thine altar touch them, and take my iniquity 
away. 

" 27. — Expected that Sir Gregory and Lady Way 
would have been here to-day. Once, a sight of these 
disciples would have been quite a refreshment to me ; 
now, through the goodness of God, I have much more 
intercourse with his people. I suppose we shall see 
them to-morrow. 

" Oct. 26. — Dined out yesterday. All seemed to 
make light of religion, or worse. I dared to put in 
one word for it, and am happy to think I gain a little 
more courage in this respect. Why,— oh ! why have 
I been taken out and made separate? Why? but 
because God would be a Father to me, and would 
have me for a daughter even of the Lord Almighty ! 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 57 

Oh ! that He may dwell in me, and walk in me, and 
be my God for ever and ever ! " 

Lady Colquhoun's Journals have left upon our 
mind a delightful impression of sincerity and 
progress. Whilst, on the one hand, there is no 
constructive effort to prove against herself infirmities 
and sins with which she was not chargeable ; on the 
other hand, every significant circumstance in her 
spiritual history, whether encouraging or adverse, is 
detailed with scrupulous accuracy. And, as the great 
end which she kept constantly in view was self- 
improvement, she was not content with confiding to 
these memorial pages her weekly portraiture, but 
against detected faults she resolved and prayed and 
watched until they were completely overcome. God 
gives grace to the humble, and when, in later life, 
she perused these minute and ingenuous records, she 
must have been cheered by a thankful consciousness 
of expanding views and maturing character. 

And should any reader of this narrative have 
adopted a similar plan for his own improvement, may 
we suggest that its entire value will depend on similar 
faithfulness ? Apart from the haunting idea that it 
may fall into other hands, a diary will prove a snare 
if its writer tries to feel other people's feelings, aud 



58 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

failing that, uses language in advance of his own expe- 
rience. Like those piratical molluscs which take up 
their abode in the shells made by their neighbours, 
the religious professor who only prays or journalizes 
in other men's phrases will be sure to distort or dwarf 
his piety. And in the subject of this biography we 
see how much more growthful is a lowly commence- 
ment, if genuine, than the most brilliant beginnings, 
if made in borrowed exuviae. 

Although we have forborne from transcribing those 
passages in which a mother pours forth her desires 
and prayers, in the foregoing pages the reader has 
obtained occasional glimpses of her parental affection 
and assiduity. During this period her main employ- 
ment was the education of her two daughters. With 
the exception of some branches, for which, whilst in 
Edinburgh, she called in the aid of masters, she 
taught them everything herself; and studying in 
such dear society, her pupils never felt a task in 
any lesson. On the Sabbath evening they were joined 
by their three brothers, and the time was spent in 
repeating the catechism and hymns and psalms, and 
in hearing their mother read some book adapted to 
their years. Amongst her papers were found two 
letters, the one addressed to her sons and the other to 
her daughters. They are not dated, but must have 



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59 



been written when her children were very young, and 
when she had on her own mind the impression that 
she might soon be taken from them : — 



"My dearest James, and John, and William, 
" I cannot leave you in this vain world without one 
parting advice, and without once more assuring you 
how dear you have ever been to me. Now that my 
body is consigned to the grave, and my soul has re- 
turned to God who gave it, to you, my dear children, 
it will not signify whether you ever knew a mother's 
care or not, except in so far as you profit by her 
counsel. Let me, therefore, ask you, and let me beg 
that you would ask it of your own consciences, — Are 
you living to God? Are you trusting in Christ for 
salvation, and obeying his commands ? 

" To promote this my every thought with regard to 
you has been subservient. Were I assured of this, I 
should feel comparatively easy as to everything else. 
Oh ! my children, this is the one thing needful. 

" I feel a pleasing confidence that none of you are 
ignorant of the method by which sinners obtain 
reconciliation with God. I would, therefore, only 
urge your immediate acceptance of Christ as your 
Saviour ; of God as your God. There is no impedi- 
ment on God's part. Blessed be His name, all His 



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offers are free ; be willing, then, and you are His for 
evermore. 

" How many temptations you must pass through I 
tremble to think of; but I have an assurance, which 
I would not part with for worlds, that my prayers for 
you are heard, and will be answered, when I am 
sleeping in the dust. I feel a hope that you will be 
blessings to the circle in which you move, and that 
you will glorify God by your conduct through life. 
What higher honour can you aspire to ! 

" You, my dearest James, will probably have many 
opportunities of usefulness. If you live you will have 
much of this world's good things to dispose of; value 
them, I beseech you, only as giving you more of the 
power to do good. Oh ! let all you are and all you 
have be devoted to God. Encourage every useful 
undertaking, and give liberally to the poor, as you 
have received liberally from God. Do all in your 
power to place pious clergymen in any church in 
which you may have influence, for this is a most 
important method of doing good. 

" Should any of my dear boys think of entering 
the sacred profession of the ministry, — Oh ! consider 
the weight, the importance of the charge. Remember 
it is doubly incumbent upon you to be yourself what 
you exhort others to be. I charge you my child, to 



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61 



preach Christ Jesus the Lord. Remember, if you do 
not use every means in your power to bring to the 
Saviour the souls of those committed to your charge, 
you are responsible for them. 

" With one other advice I will conclude. I exhort 
you, my dear children, if any of you should at any 
future time think of marriage, that you will not allow 
beauty, or any outward accomplishments, to be the 
only thing you look for. In the choice of a wife seek 
for one who fears and loves God, and I will venture 
to assure you of happiness with her. Such a one in 
your own rank it may be more difficult to find ; but 
among the families of the pious it is far from impos- 
sible. Pray to God, and He will direct your choice. 
I trust you will ever love and assist one another, and 
be dutiful and affectionate to your dear father. 

" And now, O my God, shower down thy grace 
in abundance on my children. Remember all my 
prayers for them ; be to them what thou hast been to 
me • — I can ask no more. ' Save them from the evil 
that is in the world.' Grant, oh ! grant that we may 
meet in glory, through the merits of thy well-beloved 
Son. Amen. 

" I remain, your most attached Mother, 

" Through life and in death, 

" J. COLQUHOUN. 



62 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

" Keep this letter by you, and occasionally read it 
over; when you are older you may understand it 
better." 

The following are extracts from a similar letter 
addressed to her daughters : — 

" My dearest Sarah and Helen, 

" When this shall be put into your hands, I hope, 
my darling children, you will be in some degree 
reconciled to the loss it has pleased God you should 
sustain in the death of your most affectionate mother. 
I am sensible that it is a great loss to be deprived of 
a parent whose anxious care it was to bring you up 
in the fear of the Lord ; and nothing could reconcile 
me to the thought of parting with you, but that I 
commit you to Him who has been my God in life and 
in death. 

" And now, my children, when deprived of an 
earthly parent, to whom should you go but to your 
Heavenly Father? Believe me, there is in Him 
enough to make up for every loss, and much more 
than enough to satisfy every desire. Fall down on 
your knees before Him. Entreat Him to receive you. 
Entreat Him to be to you what He has been to your 
mother. Entreat Him to guide and instruct and 



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sanctify you. And entreat Him, through the merits 
and righteousness of Christ Jesus, which, if you ask, 
are yours. 

" Read the Bible carefully, and with a desire to 
be instructed by it. And pray for a blessing on it. 
Read, also, other good books, many of which I leave 
behind me. Never neglect fervent prayer. 

" My dearest Sarah, to you I leave my Diary, 
which you will find in my bureau, in the small place 
that locks inside of it. Let your brothers and sister 
see it • and I would recommend you all to keep one 
yourselves. I have found much benefit in doing so. 
By it you will judge what were my aims and desires. 
How far I fell short, God and myself only know. 
But you will also see, that I have trusted alone for 
acceptance in 'the Lamb of God, who taketh away 
the sins of the world/ 

" Dearest Sarah, take some charge of your sister. 
Endeavour to instruct her in those truths in which 
I have instructed you, and by which she was perhaps 
too young to get much benefit. Try all methods to 
win her to the love and practice of religion ; and if 
they fail, try them again. Be a mother to her, and 
God will bless your weak attempts. 

" In whatever relation or station you may be 
placed, try to act as God would have you. Be very 



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cautious of your friendships. Shun, as the plague, 
those who have not the fear of God, whatever other 
attractive qualities they may possess. Meet with such 
you must ; but do not, oh ! do not make them your 
friends. Whatever it may appear to you now, the 
time, be assured, is not far distant when death shall 
snatch you from everything here. Surely, my dearest 
girls, all my care, all my prayers for you shall not be 
in vain. Oh ! then, dread the world ; dread its follies, 
its gaieties, its company. Oh ! then, place your hap- 
piness in religion. Oh ! then, keep the command- 
ments of God. Oh ! fly to Christ for redemption. 
Do the angels rejoice when one sinner repenteth? 
and shall not my joy be unbounded to see my children 
saved with an everlasting salvation ? 

" With one more request I will conclude. My 
dears, do not mourn for me as those who have no 
hope. Look up. I am safe, I am happy, unspeak- 
ably happy. You may follow. All things are ready : 
Come to the wedding. Christ stretches forth His 
hand to save and support you ; put forth yours and 
lean on the Beloved. ' The Spirit and the bride say, 
Come. And let him that is athirst come. And who- 
soever will, let him take of the water of life freely/ 

" Let your brothers, and, if you like, your father, 
see this letter • and get a reading of theirs. Keep it 



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by you, aud let Helen have a copy. Be ever dutiful 
to your only remaining parent, and endeavour to 
prevent his feeling nry loss. 

"Farewell, till we meet (oh! may I not hope?) 
never to part, where we shall be ever with the Lord, 
ever with one another. My God, my Jesus, let thine 
everlasting protection shield my children from all evil. 
Save them, and they shall be saved. Make them 
holy and heavenly. I have endeavoured to lead them 
to Thee ; receive them graciously, love them freely, 
and even in glory put a new song into my mouth, — 
praise for the wonders of redeeming love to those 
dear as a right hand. 

" I die, as I have lived, 

" Your most anxiously attached mother, 

" J. COLQUHOUN." 



CHAPTER III. 

REMEMBERING YOUR WORK OF FAITH, AND LABOUR OF LOVE, 

AND PATIENCE OF HOPE IN OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST. 

1 THESS. I. 3. 



Therefore love and believe ; for works will follow spon- 
taneous, 

Even as day does the sun ; the right from the good is an 
offspring, 

Love in a bodily shape ; and Christian works are no more than 

Animate love and faith, as flowers are the animate spring-tide. 

LONGFELLOW. 



f 2 



Hitherto the summers of Rossdhu had been often 
cheered by long visits from a beloved sister ; but the 
last of these had now been paid, and, in the spring of 
1818, that sister lay a dying invalid at Ham Common, 
in Surrey. There, besides the affectionate assiduities 
of her own family, she was favoured with occasional 
visits from a faithful minister of Christ, and the 
frequent society of an attached Christian friend. Lady 
Colquhoun could not come to her ; but on this very 
account, her supplications were the more ceaseless, 
and her solicitude relieved itself in letters, which, for 
their sisterly tenderness and faithfulness, proved the 
chief cordial of the weary sufferer. In penning them 
the fond writer sought help from a Wonderful Coun- 
sellor ; and, as they were full of His wisdom, as well 
as her own warm-heartedness, they always arrived 
like " words in season." Miss Sinclair kept them 
under her pillow, and used to have them often read 
over to her. 



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The following extracts from her Journal show how 
the mind of Lady Colquhoun was exercised during 
this anxious spring : — 

" Ross dim, March 8, 1818. — After church was 
quite overcome by receiving two or three lines from 
my dearest Hannah, written with great difficulty and 
in much weakness, but expressive of the composure 
of her mind and resignation to every issue. Oh ! my 
God, I will praise Thee ! Yes, I will praise Thee 
even in the fire of affliction, when thus tempered with 
mercy. 

"April 12. — It has pleased the Lord to lay His 
afflicting hand upon me : but it has also pleased Him 
in great mercy to support me. I heard yesterday, 
that my dearest sister is no better, and getting still 
weaker. I have been agitated, but quite resigned; 
and I see so much, so very much mercy in every part 
of the dispensation, that I dare do nothing but lie 
quietly in the hand of God. After some thought, T 
wrote her a letter telling her of her danger. Oh ! how 
was I puzzled how to frame it ! but I trust my 
pen was guided by an invisible Hand. O Lord ! 
accompany this bit of paper ; be with her when she 
opens it ; support her spirits ; give her triumph in 
the thought of death ! I trusted to Thee for direc- 
tion ; may it answer the end for which I wrote 



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it ! Employed much as usual to-day ; but in the 
evening felt nervous and unwell. Still I have the 
greatest possible confidence in the safety of the dear 
saint. I cannot mourn as those who have no hope, 
and I could not have believed that I should be so 
tranquil. 

" 26. — Oh ! I am cold and dead at present. I am 
indeed worthless ; my services worthless, my heart 
worthless. I feel some pleasure in writing these 
lines, and making this acknowledgment. In glory, 
and there alone, shall I love and serve my God. And 
heaven is mine, — freely and without money, mine. 
Had not Christ died, my portion were hell. Had 
the happiness yesterday to hear that dear Hannah 
is no worse, and that Mr. Gandy and Miss Massie 
were to see her. How kindly is God dealing with 
her ; and thus He deals with all who are His. 

" May 10. — Prayed with sincerity in the morning, 
and laid all my burdens on my covenant God • for 
burdens I have, and one very heavy to be borne. 
All hope is over. Dear, dear Hannah is much worse, 
and I look for her death every day. Still, Lord, 
Thou art faithful, Thou art kind. Did not I pray 
for evidence as to her eternal state? and is not my 
prayer fully answered? Ts she not everything I 
could wish ? a pattern of meekness, patience, long- 



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suffering, — faith ? What would I have more ? Must 
she be detained from glory because I cannot part 
with her ? No, Lord ! I would only still further 
implore that Thy everlasting arms may enfold her 
now and for evermore; that her passage through 
the dark valley, which is but a ' shadow/ may be 
easy, and that Thou wouldst be graciously pleased to 
support me, Thy poor afflicted servant, and sanctify 
it to me. 

"17. — Received a very gratifying letter from my 
sister Catherine ; not that my Hannah is getting 
better : my dear saint must go to her blissful home ; 
but I was gratified with the affection expressed for 
her and me, and above all, with the piety which 
appeared in it. There is the fruit of my Hannah's 
labors. 

" 24. — My beloved sister still lives; at least, I 
have not heard of her death. Oh ! how hard it is 
to give up one so truly dear ■ yet I feel resigned. 
My heart is sometimes rent, especially when I hear 
anything of her affection for me ; but, in general, I 
am calm to a miracle. God has done it. In this 
trying dispensation, how kind has He been to me, 
warning me for eleven years of its approach, and at 
last taking her in the gentlest manner. I trust, too, 
it has already been sanctified. My heart has been 



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73 



raised to Jesus, and I have been enabled, in a 
faltering manner, to lean on the Beloved. Could I 
but know this clear Lord, I should trust Him. 

" Tuesday, 26. — Hosanna ! Hosanna in the highest ! 
I have just heard that my beloved Hannah is in glory ! 
What cause for praise ! ' Unto Him that loved us, and 
washed us from our sins in His own blood, and hath 
made us kings and priests unto God, and His Father, 
to Him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. 
Amen. 5 Sweetest saint, thou art now far removed 
from me ; but far, also, from sin and sorrow, and 
enjoying the presence and the smiles of Jesus. Oh, 
that my end may be peaceful, like thine ! Not a 
fear disturbed thy serene composure, and thou 
slippedst gently away, as if afraid of disturbing 
others. Oh, my Hannah, hardly shall I find thy 
equal, as none can be equal to me ! yet, could raising 
a finger bring thee back, I would not be so cruel. 
Though I must sojourn here a longer or shorter time 
without my darling sister, have we not an eternity 
to spend together? Let me rejoice in the thought. 
Oh, that I could raise this dead heart above the 
world ! My God ! sanctify this event to me, and 
accept my praise for Thy great kindness to the dear 
departed, and for so wonderfully supporting me. 

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write a little to thy beloved memory. What a heart 
was thine ! — filled with the desire of doing the will 
of God, and of conferring good on all around thee. 
Yet, hadst thou died some years ago, I should not 
have been so confident of the safety of thy state. 
God heard my prayers, and completely established 
thee in the faith, and now I have nothing to say but 
' Alleluia : for the Lord God omnipotent reigneth. 
Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to Him : 
for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife 
hath made herself ready. And to her was granted 
that she should be arrayed in fine linen : for the fine 
linen is the righteousness of saints.' — Read to myself 
and Sir James. Read to my children with much 
enlargement. At night prayed with tears. Even my 
prayers distress me, for I used always to pray for my 
dear departed Hannah. I cannot omit her name, so 
I turn it into thanksgivings for God's goodness to 
her." 

The following letter was on this occasion written 
to her sister's kind Christian friend, Miss Massie, of 
Kingston ■ — 

" RossdJiu, May 30, 1818. 
" My dear Madam, — I have delayed answering 



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your truly kind letter, till I was somewhat more 
composed, after the heavy trial it has pleased my 
Heavenly Father I should meet with. From the 
kind sympathy you express, I think perhaps you 
may like to hear how I have borne my loss. In 
this instance I can remarkably attest the faithfulness 
of God. I have not indeed mourned as those who 
have no hope. I never had but one anxiety for 
my dear sister, — and that, through mercy, is com- 
pletely at an end, — ' that she might be found in 
Christ, not having her own righteousness which 
is of the law.' I did, however, hope to have 
seen her again; and from what she said and the 
general strain of her letters of late, I hoped to 
see grace grown in her, and herself fast ripening 
for glory. Though I did not witness it, I have 
no doubt that this was the case, and under God 
I attribute it to her intercourse with you, and 
to the ministrations of Mr. Gandy, in whose sermons 
she took great delight. I have no less than six 
of these lying by me, which she condensed from 
memory, and sent me that I might share the 
benefit. I mention this, that you may inform that 
servant of God ■ it may be some encouragement 
to him. I need hardly add how much I was 
myself pleased with this, and how highly gratified 



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to think that she had the opportunity of hearing 
such a man. I am much obliged by your account 
of his visits to her. In every respect God has 
dealt kindly with her : she wanted no temporal 
nor spiritual comfort. It surely becomes me not 
only to say, ' Thy will be done/ but ' Thy name 
be praised.' She was one of my dearest friends. 
We were educated together, and our hearts had 
long been united ; and I hope we are still united 
in Christ. But must she be detained from glory, 
because I cannot part with her? You say you 
have passed through the same sad trial some years 
ago. Yes, my dear Madam, but what will years 
soon appear to us? Are not those that are gone 
already like a dream? Let us have patience for 
a few more, perhaps a very few, and we shall meet 
those friends who died in the Lord, never more to 
part. 

"If I am not too troublesome, I would still 
request to hear further about the dear departed. 
Anything will interest me. I should also be glad 
to know if you think my Hannah's life and death 
still continue to impress the survivors. 

" I remain, &c. 

" It gives me much pleasure to find that a tract 
is to be published, written by my sister, by which 



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she ' being dead will yet speak/ I long to have it, 
to distribute among my poor neighbours." 

Miss Sinclair died on the 2:2d of May, and soon 
after her death a little volume was published, con- 
taining her own beautiful " Letter on the Principles 
of the Christian Faith," and a brief memoir from 
Legh Richmond's happy and descriptive pen. In 
its accessible pages the reader may learn more fully 
how worthv was Hannah Sinclair of her sister's 
devoted love, and how full of immortality was the 
hope which sparkled amidst that sister's tears ; and 
it is only for us to add, how fraught with peaceful 
fruits to the survivor was this long and deeply-felt 
affliction. These chapters may be read by some who 
have sustained recent bereavements ; if so, may their 
sorrow in like manner be sanctified ! 

And, perhaps, the most natural effect of this trial 
on a mind like hers, was the effect which Calvin's 
death produced on Beza, — " Now is heaven more 
dear, and death less dreadful." She had learned 
how lightsome the Saviour can make the dark valley, 
and she almost wished that she had traversed it 
when the " door of hope " opened so wide, and 
let so much glory shine athwart it. And she 
could think of the better country more vividly, 
because one so familiar was there. To quote some 



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of the simple rhymes into which about this period 
her contemplations often ran : — 

In sweet surprise that anthem swelling 

With notes of joy and love ; 
What seraph's form is this that treads 

Jerusalem's courts above ? 



That form, methinks, I yet should know 
That heart, it once was mine ; 

And still, my Hannah, does my soul 
Unite in love to thine. 

Together from our earliest years, 

In every thought united, — 
Each in the other's grief downcast, 

In th' other's joy delighted. 

Oh ! may we still such union prove, 
And one in Christ be found : 

And through one glad eternity 
The Saviour's praise resound. 



Arrayed in the deep mourning, which was little 
needed to remind her of her loss, many were the 
solitary walks she now took in the garden, and 
in the sequestered by-paths of the " Policy ; " and 
there, or seated on the margin of the silvery lake, she 
loved to meditate on the multitude before the throne j 



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and just as in that multitude she recognised one dear 
as her own soul, for that dear one's sake " the Lamb 
in the midst of the throne " became yet dearer. 
Nor was it long till the sisterly thoughts, which used 
to travel to England, as naturally ascended to heaven. 

But along with this result came another, as important. 
For many years she had ceased to live unto herself ; 
but up to this period her solicitude and self-denial 
had been mainly for her husband, her children, and 
her immediate family circle. This Providence, how- 
ever, broke open a door of exit, and bade her seek a 
wider sphere. She received it as a personal message, 
and, admonished that "the time is short," she looked 
eagerly around for opportunities of larger usefulness. 

Accordingly, the first time that her neighbours 
saw her, except at church, was at the formation of a 
Bible Society, a few weeks after her bereavement. 
The day is thus recorded in her Diary : — 

"Monday, June 29. — I had the happiness of 
witnessing the establishment of a Bible Society at 
Luss. It is to be called ' The Luss and Arrochar 
Bible Society.' I hope I was of some use in setting 
it a-going, though not the original mover. Lord, I 
rejoice to be in any way the instrument of forwarding 
thy kingdom in the world, and saving poor lost 
souls. With delight I heard Sir James make a 



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most excellent speech on accepting the office of 
President; and thus supported, I trust it may be a 
great benefit to the neighbourhood." 

From this time forward she also devoted herself 
in more systematic efforts to the poor of her vicinity. 
And although the national reserve prevented her 
from gaining all the access she desired, or doing 
all the good she wished, her labors of love were 
generally appreciated, and she was conscious of a 
recompense in her own soul. 

" Blessed is he that wisely doth 
The poor man's case consider : " 

So sings the Scottish version of the forty -first 
Psalm; and we have often heard that most enlight- 
ened of the poor man's friends, Dr. Chalmers, quote 
it with admiring emphasis. And there was much 
" wisdom " in the way that Lady Colquhoun dealt 
with the " poor man's case." Amongst the natives of 
Luss she found Scottish pride in union with Celtic 
touchiness. Under the home-spun coat and Highland 
bonnet it was the same high mettle which often 
stalks in hungry magnificence beneath the Spanish 
cloak and sombrero, afraid of obligation, and affronted 
at alms-giving. " Na, na, I'm no in want," was the 
instinctive rejoinder of a tattered old woman, as a 



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stranger slipped half-a-crown into her withered palm, 
which, however, as instinctively closed over the goodly 
coin, till the sense of want and the sense of honour 
were happily harmonized by some courteous word of 
explanation. And even after they consented to 
receive the gifts of individual kindness, it was a 
prime point of honour to owe nothing to public 
charity. One aged female, who was at last entirely 
supported by the Rossdhu family, used to place five 
pounds, the savings of a frugal life, beneath her 
pillow every night, lest by any possibility she might 
be chargeable to the parish for the expenses of her 
funeral. And another, who in extremity had accepted 
some relief from the poor's money, by her latter will 
provided that her personal property should be dis- 
posed of, and the proceeds refunded to the Session, 
and as the sale of her effects realized near forty 
shillings, it is likely that in her case the parish was 
no great loser. But grotesque as might be the 
occasional manifestations of this spirit, Lady Col- 
quhoun respected and encouraged it. She was proud 
to know that her poor neighbours were not paupers ; 
and, " considering their case," she bestirred her 
ingenuity so as to relieve their wants, and save 
their independence. Amongst her pensioners was 
an aged and pious woman who formerly had charge 



82 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

of the poultry at Rossdhu. Her chief means of 
support was now derived from a humble class of 
lodgers, and the produce of a cow, the keep of which, 
along with her cottage, she had rent-free. She was 
also installed in the guardianship -general of the bee- 
hives, a post which entitled her to a small yearly 
stipend, and which only called for her attention in 
the pleasant hours of sunshine and summer. And 
when, at last, lingering infirmities left her long bed- 
ridden, her kind benefactress was constantly resorting 
to her cheerful but lowly chamber. There Lady 
Colquhoun confessed that she had learned many a 
lesson of gratitude and trust in God. Her joyful 
tribulation and patient hope were a visible sermon; 
and all the more instructive because derived from 
constant communion with heaven. Often when her 
visitor would draw near to her peaceful bedside and 
ask, " And what have you been doing, Nelly ? " her 
answer would be, " My leddy, I've been wussin'." * 
One day Nelly's cottage was full of smoke, and on 
her entrance, Lady Colquhoun was greeted with the 
exclamation, " Eh, my leddy ! ye canna come in here 
for the reek, siccan a fine leddy as you." " Hold 
your peace, Nelly," was the answer; " when you and 

* Wishing, i.e., praying. 



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I are in the grave, if any person takes up your dust 
in one hand, and mine in the other, he won't be 
able to tell which was the lady." But amidst all 
this consciousness of the common humanity and the 
common frailty, there was an obvious elevation which 
commanded the respect, whilst it did not lessen the 
affection of the poorest. There was in her words 
enough of fellow-feeling to assure them of the 
speaker's friendship ; but there was also that in her 
aspect which gave to these words the enforcement of 
a superior nature. And, surely, that is the truest 
grandeur which, even if station were lost or unsus- 
pected, would still be noble, in virtue of its own 
refinement ; just as that is the truest condescension 
which can lay aside everything except inherent 
dignity. So graceful were her manners, so delicate 
her cultured mind, and so lofty the homestead of 
her habitual thoughts, that, though she could forget 
or conceal the accidents of rank, she could never 
cease to be the Christian gentlewoman. 

One day walking in the beautiful grounds of Park- 
place,* a picturesque cottage was pointed out to the 
writer, and he was told how, in the minds of some of 

* The seat of E. Fuller Maitland, Esq., near Henley-on- 
Thames. One of Mr. Fuller Maitland's daughters was married 
to Lady Colquhoun's second son. 

G 2 



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the family, it was associated with Lady Colquhoun. 
In the course of her first visit, they were sauntering 
through the pleasure-grounds, when they came to 
that cottage, and she was asked if she would like to 
go in and see the aged gardener, then laid on his 
dying bed. She eagerly assented, and, after talking 
to him a little in her own sweet and engaging way, 
she begged her friends to continue their walk, for she 
could not speak so freely whilst they were present. 
By and by she joined them, radiant with that happiness 
which celestial natures feel when visits of mercy have 
been paid; and as the old man continually reverted 
to that interview, and the prayer with which it ended, 
as a sort of angelic episode in his homely history, 
we may hope that it was blessed to his everlasting 
benefit. And though it must be admitted that for 
such services she possessed a rare felicity, neither 
should it be forgotten that of that fitness the main 
element was her rare benevolence. Those who would 
fain be the benefactors of their brethren possess 
the main pre-requisites if they are blessed with 
warm hearts, and clear views of the Gospel; and 
for an open ear and a welcome they need not be 
anxious, if into the abodes of their neighbours they 
carry a bosom glowing with the Saviour's heavenly 
kindness. 



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In a tract, first published anonymously, Lady 
Colquhoun has supplied us with a specimen of her 
cottage conversations ; and, as illustrative of herself 
and of the blessing which sometimes crowned her 
labors, we may copy a few paragraphs : — 

" On my entrance I beheld an old man stretched 
upon a bed apparently in great pain, whose face was 
half eaten away by that dreadful disease, a cancer. 
Yet his countenance bore marks of intelligence, and 
of that cultivation of the mind, which, even among 
the lower orders, is so common in Scotland. His 
features were aquiline. He was pale and emaciated, 
and a certain wildness in his stare seemed to 
announce that he suffered greatly. The bed on 
which he lay was cased round with wood, excepting 
a space in front, by which to enter. The remaining 
furniture of the room consisted of another bed, a 
few wooden chairs, a table, and cupboard. The 
fire, which was of peat, burned upon the ground, 
without grate or chimney, the smoke seeking its 
exit through a small opening in the roof, which, 
however, seldom allowed of its entire escape. And 
a window, oft repaired, but dimly admitted the light 
of day. Yet this uncomfortable lodging, I am con- 
vinced, made no part of the misery of my new 
acquaintances ; they had never known a better, and 



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custom had completely reconciled them to the want 
of all the conveniences of life. 

" I advanced towards the poor man, and said, — 

" ' I am sorry to hear you are so unwell/ 

" ' Very bad/ was his reply. 

" ' Are you in great pain ? ' 

" ' Very great/ 

" l Does anything give you relief? ' 

" ' Nothing/ 

" ' Are you always equally distressed ? ' 

" ' No ; sometimes the pain is much more in- 
tolerable • I could not speak to you if the fit came 
on now ; but I shall never, never be better/ 

" This last answer reminded me of the hint his 
wife had given as to the state of his mind. 

" ' It is a consolation/ said I, ' to know that trials 
are sent for our benefit ; and this one, hard as it is 
to bear, may prove a great blessing to you/ 

" ' There is no blessing for me/ said he hastily ; 
' I am lost, undone, miserable here, and will be so, 
for ever/ 

" As I gazed upon him, I saw despair pictured in 
his ghastly and disfigured countenance. 

" ' I hope you are mistaken/ I replied. ' Do you 
not know that there is a Saviour for poor, lost, undone 
creatures ? that He is able to save to the uttermost 



LIEE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 87 

all who come unto God by Him ; that He came to 
seek and to save that which was lost ; and that He 
will in no wise cast out any who apply to Him for 
salvation ? ' 

" ' I know all you can tell me/ said John, ' for 
I am well acquainted with the Bible; but I know 
likewise that there is no salvation for me/ 

" ' Does any particular sin oppress your con- 
science ? ' I inquired. 

" ' No/ said he, ' I have lived a religious life. 
Unlike many of my neighbours, I have kept the 
Sabbath — prayed morning and evening — abstained 
from swearing — attended on ordinances — thought 
I was serving God; but He has rejected me; and 
this is a judgment sent from heaven; it is the 
beginning of those pains which will last eternally — 
it is hell begun/ 

" I listened with horror as he spoke, for from 
the expression of his countenance, his words, dread- 
ful as they were, seemed inadequate to convey his 
meaning/' 

Tor more than a year Lady Colquhoun continued 
to visit assiduously her afflicted neighbour without 
seeing any break in the gloomy cloud with which 
his soul was enveloped. It was on a day when a 
grievous accident had befallen his grand-daughter, 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 



who was the chief support of himself and his aged 
partner, that the following conversation occurred : — 

" ■ Is it not a judgment now ? ' said he, on seeing 
me : ' would stroke upon stroke thus follow me if 
I was not abandoned for ever — lost — going down to 
the pit ? Oh, the bottomless pit ! it has a chain and 
key none can escape. To be tormented day and 
night, for ever and ever ! ' — 

" He would have proceeded, but I interrupted him 
by saying, ' You have forgotten this text, " Whom 
the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every 
son whom he receiveth." ' 

" ' He will never receive me/ was the reply. 

" ' John,' said I, ' you certainly labour under an 
unfortunate delusion ; it is necessary that I should 
examine you a little more closely. Are you willing 
to accept of a full and of a free salvation ? I know 
you will say that you are; but let me explain the 
meaning of these expressions. 

" ' To receive a free salvation means, that you 
accept of it without respect to anything on your 
part ; that your past life has nothing to do with it, 
and that even your future life can have no effect in 
justifying you in the sight of God; that the life 
and the death of Christ are your only grounds of 
hope ; and that you expect an eternity of happiness 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 89 

from Hiin, as a gift for which you can give no 
return. 

" ' To receive a full salvation means, that you are 
willing to accept of the whole which Christ offers, 
salvation from the power of sin dwelling within you, 
as well as from hell. Jesus came to save his people 
from, not in their sins. Is there, then, anything 
which you know displeasing to God, but which 
you are unwilling to give up ? any right hand you 
would not cut off, or right eye you would not pluck 
out? Christ addresses you as He did the man at 
the pool at Bethesda, " Wilt thou be made whole ? " 
And the same Divine compassion is ready to be 
imparted to you that was exerted in his case. Any 
obstacle must be on your side ; for the Gospel offers 
are without limitation/ 

" Oh, God bless you ! and He will bless you, 5 said 
John. 

" ' I scarcely know any blessing/ I replied, ' that 
would afford me more satisfaction than to be useful 
to you. But consider what I have been saying; 
are you willing to accept of the salvation I have 
described ? ' 

" ' Ask a man/ he answered, ' on the rack, if he 
will accept of relief; he cannot feel more anxious to 
obtain it than I am for an interest in Christ. I 



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would do anything, everything, to know that I am 
His, and He mine/ 

" ' Can you consent, 5 said I, ' to what is still 
harder to our proud natures, to trust in nothing 
that you ever can do, or ever have done, for justifi- 
cation in the sight of God; to let Christ have the 
undivided glory ? His is a finished salvation ; our 
part is to accept of it/ 

" ' Oh, if I dared to hope ! ' said John. 

" ' And why not ? 5 I answered. ' Can any invita- 
tions be more universal than these, which are the 
words of our Lord himself? — "Ask, and ye shall 
receive ; seek, and ye shall find ; knock, and it shall 
be opened to you/ 5 " If any man thirst, let him 
come unto me and drink. 55 " Him that cometh unto 
me, I will in no wise cast out. 55 

" ' I think I am under the influence of temptation, 5 
said John, ' for I cannot hope/ 

" ' No doubt you are, 5 I replied ; ' but pray to 
Him who overcame the powers of darkness, and 
suffered being tempted, for strength to overcome 
the wicked one, — to Him who in a sense above 
our comprehension could say, " Thou shalt not 
tempt the Lord thy God. 55 I, too, will pray for 
you ; and I feel inclined to trust that the cloud will 
at length be dispelled, and the Sun of Righteous- 



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ness yet arise upon your soul, with healing under his 
wings/ 

" ' Never was any one thus interested for my 
salvation/ said the old man. 

" - Ah ! John/ said I, c there is One who has 
shown himself infinitely more interested for your 
salvation. If laying aside for a season the glories 
of divinity, living a life of persecution and distress, 
and dying a death of extreme anguish, both of soul 
and body, can prove it, the Son of God feels a 
solicitude to pluck sinners as brands out of the 
burning, to which no created being, in heaven or 
earth, is alive. And yet you fear to trust Him.' 

" Tears gushed from the hollow eyes of poor John ; 
he evidently felt the conclusiveness of my argument, 
and the impossibility of reply. His countenance 
brightened — it spoke volumes ; but he uttered not 
a word. He appeared for some time silently to 
feed upon the ray of hope which had imperceptibly 
entered his benighted mind; he seemed scarcely 
himself to credit that he entertained it, and yet 
afraid to lose the first dawning of joy, to which he 
had so long been a stranger. 

" Oh, blessed Spirit ! (I mentally prayed) enlighten 
his darkened soul, irradiate it with thy bright beams, 
purify it by thy benign influence ; lead him to Jesus, 



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teach him how universal are the offers of thy Word, 
and at length may he find peace and rest in thine 
everlasting arms." * 

The day had now dawned, and soon the remaining 
shadows fled away ; and it was the privilege of his 
kind instructress to know that his last days were 
irradiated with a joy unspeakable and full of glory. 

It was not till a later period that she was much 
in the habit of visiting the poor of Edinburgh ; but 
there was one forlorn invalid there in whose case 
she felt much interested. Bell Macintyre had been 
a housemaid at Rossdhu, and was then a good- 
looking and a very thoughtless girl. Prom Rossdhu 
she removed to a family near Edinburgh, and was 
glad to find herself in that gay neighbourhood ; but 
in consequence of having swallowed a needle, she was 
seized with an internal affection, acute and lingering, 
and was never fit for service any more. Her terrible 
suffering was aggravated by extreme penury; and 
hearing that her first kind mistress was in town, she 
sent her a message, which soon brought her to the 
poverty-stricken chamber. But Lady Colquhoun was 
not more affected by the sad alteration in her old 
servant's outward lot, than delighted with the mani- 

* " Despair and Hope." By Lady Colquhoun. 



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fest change in her character. In solitude, and often 
in great agony, the Gospel was now her constant 
support ; and, aided by a remarkable memory, she 
could repeat many long portions of Scripture, and 
turn to almost any passage, chapter and verse. 
Even accompanied by a servant, it needed some 
resolution to dive into the close, and climb the high 
and dirty stair at the top of which Bell usually 
lodged; but even into these repulsive abodes Lady 
Colquhoun was glad to find that philanthropy could 
penetrate. One day, while she was seated by Bell's 
bedside, two young ladies entered, smiled, placed 
sixpence on the table, and instantly withdrew. 
The sixpence appeared to be the stated gift of some 
kind benefactor, whose almoners these young ladies 
were; and their coming was a gleam of sunshine 
to which the poor sufferer could always look 
forward in her loneliness. And though Bell could 
never ascertain their names, for some time a young 
officer and his wife came daily from the Castle, and 
brought their sick neighbour her dinner, usually 
some delicacy in a covered dish, and waited till she 
ate it. But is it worth while to chronicle these little 
charities? It is worth while, inasmuch as Lady 
Colquhoun delighted to recount the kind deeds of 
other people. It is worth while, inasmuch as the 



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dainty dish carried to the pain-worn prisoner may 
be noted in that Book where even the cup of cold 
water is recorded. And inasmuch as little charities, 
done in the Redeemer's name, are twigs of healing 
in the Marah of humanity, — balm-drops on poverty's 
broken heart, — it will be worth while, dear reader, 
if you and the writer go and do likewise. Bell had 
an only brother ; he was a private in the forty-second 
Highlanders, and did not know of her distress. But 
as his detachment was under orders for Scotland, 
he sent his sister five pounds, that she might look 
smart and respectable when he arrived with his 
regiment. The letter was also accompanied with a 
present of his old military great-coat. When, at last, 
he arrived, he found her in a miserable lodging, and 
sitting up in bed, with his old great-coat wrapped 
round her. As long as he was quartered at the 
Castle he was very attentive to his sister ; but he 
was soon sent abroad on foreign service, and Bell 
heard no more of him till tidings of his death 
were brought to her, accompanied by his watch 
and Waterloo medal. The watch was a great 
comfort during the solitary days and nights of 
nearly twenty years. 

Every year on the estate of Luss an oak coppice 
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labourers are employed during a portion of each 
summer. These congregate from all quarters, many 
of them being natives of the sister isle. And this, 
as well as the harvest- season, was an opportunity 
which Lady Colquhoun always improved for dis- 
tributing tracts. Through the overseer, something 
could usually be ascertained regarding the previous 
history and character of each, and in this way he 
was presented with a word in season. The tracts 
were always received with avidity, and, besides being 
read on the Sabbath, they were usually carried away, 
perhaps to do good in distant places. 

The Southern reader may have some difficulty 
in realizing such a state of matters ; but many 
of our northern countrymen can still recal the 
period when the parish schools of Scotland com- 
prehended the entire population. Partially endowed 
by the landed proprietors, it was their boast 
that they offered an education so thorough that 
the opulent did not disdain it ; but withal so 
cheap, that the poorest could easily command it. 
Accordingly, with the exception of the principal 
gentry, who could afford a tutor, and the gipsies, 
to whose crepuscular habits day-schools were not 
congenial, the juvenility of the district all mustered 
at the same seat of learning, and in its play- 



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ground the sons of farmers and weavers and 
ploughmen, the minister's laddie, and the bell- 
man's heir-apparent, all kept their daily Saturnalia. 
Nor did any mischief result from this blending 
of various classes. Its chief tendency was to lay 
the foundation of a cordial and friendly feeling 
through subsequent life. And not only was this 
education unconscious of caste ; it was catholic. 
Although intensely scriptural, — within Presbyterian 
limits, at least, it was thoroughly unsectarian. The 
scholars were mighty in the Proverbs, and mar- 
vellous in the " proofs ; " but we never heard of 
a parish schoolmaster so misguided as to tamper 
with a denominational " testimony," or who taught 
young ideas to shoot in any ecclesiastical direction ; 
but, sitting at his feet, little Churchmen and 
incipient Dissenters were closely united in cate- 
chetical alliance. And to crown this comprehension, 
brothers and sisters went to school together, learned 
the same lessons, and competed for the same 
prizes ; so that traditions run of great authors, 
who, in their second lustrum, yielded the " writing 
medal " to some little dairy-maid ; and more romantic 
traditions of undeveloped East India directors, who 
vainly strove for arithmetical precedence with the 
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savoured of patriarchal simplicity, and tended to 
diffuse through the countryside a notable sense of 
neighbourhood, it was not without its drawbacks, 
and there was one which in her domiciliary visits, 
especially forced itself on Lady Colquhoun. She was 
sorry to remark the absence of neat arrangement and 
thrifty housekeeping in the surrounding cottages; 
and she felt that nothing effectual could be done for 
the in-door comfort of her neighbours till a girls' 
school was established. Opportunely for her object, 
a neat cottage, not far from Rossdhu, was accidentally 
burned to the ground, and the occupants being pro- 
vided with another abode, at considerable expense 
Lady Colquhoun rebuilt it, and fitted it up as a 
school-house. Neatly fenced, and the enclosure laid 
out in shrubbery, it became the type of that new 
order of things which she sought to introduce ■ and, 
attracted by a splendid fuschia, which nearly covered 
one gable, strangers and tourists often turned aside 
to visit the school. A suitable teacher was selected, 
and was sent to Edinburgh to perfect herself in 
needlework, and to learn the most approved methods 
of teaching. Lady Colquhoun herself visited the 
school almost daily, and the severest penalty for 
misconduct was exclusion from the class which her 
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soon perceptible in the district, and whilst the most 
casual observer could mark the softened manners and 
pleasing appearance of the scholars, the parents began 
to acknowledge their own advantage. Hitherto so 
little had the manual arts interfered with the abstract 
sciences in the education of their daughters, that few 
of them were able to sew, and consequently for the 
most rudimental essays in dressmaking they were 
obliged to call in professional assistance. It was, 
therefore, a great surprise and satisfaction when they 
found that they had sempstresses nearly as accom- 
plished in their own abodes. 

Of course with the day-school was associated a 
Sabbath-school. To Lady Colquhoun her class 
became an object of ever-deepening interest, and 
by studying appropriate passages, and searching for 
memorable anecdotes and illustrations, she success- 
fully laboured to make it attractive to her pupils. 
As a teacher she had many advantages. Her voice 
was sweet and well modulated, her countenance 
benevolent, and her whole manner was full of 
engaging earnestness; so that she gained entire 
ascendancy over her scholars, and by the accounts 
which they received of her proceedings, many of the 
parents were induced to attend. 

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instructions. She warned her youthful hearers 
against the sins to which they were actually exposed. 
And in many instances these affectionate persuasions 
succeeded. There was one bad custom in the West 
of Scotland at which she was especially grieved. It 
was the people's habit, after a marriage, a baptism, 
or a funeral, at the close of public worship, to invite 
their friends to the tavern, and there they regaled 
them with ardent spirits. Against this desecration 
of the Lord's-day, Lady Colquhoun set herself with 
all her might, and often alluded to it in her class. 
Her remonstrances were not without effect. Invete- 
rate as the custom was, at the time of their own 
marriage some of her former scholars had the courage 
to set it at nought, though others yielded ; and it 
is to be feared that nothing except the spread of intel- 
ligence and piety will extirpate the disgraceful usage. 

However, it is time that we allow the reader to 
return to that Journal in which Lady Colquhoun has 
undesignedly preserved her autobiography. 

"Saturday, July 18, 1818 (before the Communion). 
— In time of worship there was an awful thunder- 
storm. How easily could God crush us worms ! 
How shall we stand in that day when He shall be 
revealed in flaming fire? And how can any endure 
unless covered with the robe Himself hath wrought ? 

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Blessed Jesus ! though most unworthy, I feel a 
confidence that I am complete in thee. 

" Monday, 20 {after the Communion). — Mr. 
Gregor preached on 1 Thess. iv. 13, 14, — to me a 
most affecting subject. I never was so overcome 
in church before. Every word pictured my dear, 
dear saint to my imagination. Many a pang do I 
feel when I think of her. Yes, my Hannah, I 
cannot easily give thee up. Oh, that name ! How 
many times have I uttered it with delight ; and often 
now do 1 repeat it, — meet, sweet Hannah ! Dr. and 
Mrs. Buchanan were at church, and dined at the 
Manse, returning with us in the evening. 

" Aug. 16. — My spirits for this little while have been 
low, I can hardly say whether from my recent loss 
or not ; but the world appears dead to me, and my 
heavenly hopes less lively than within the last few 
weeks they were. I can hardly realize the thought 
of joy, even in heaven. Still, my beloved Lord lives, 
and my life is hid with him in God. Thinking of 
God is the only refreshment I experience. 

" Sept. 13. — This morning was much enlivened by 
Isaiah li. 11, — 'Therefore the redeemed of the Lord 
shall return, and come with singing unto Zion ; and 
everlasting joy shall be upon their head: they shall 
obtain gladness and joy; and sorrow and mourning 



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shall flee away.' Why have the redeemed this joy? 
It is because they ' obtain ' it from God. Oh, the 
perfect, the everlasting joy to which they are intro- 
duced ! May the thought of it make the trials of life 
sit lightly ! Methinks, could I always view the 
promised land, even through ever so thick a veil, 
these crosses would not be weighty. 

"Nov. 1. — Once more, within these few days, I 
have endeavoured to do every action only as I think 
God would have me. I have tried to ask myself, 
Is this what God at this time would desire me to 
do? 

" Wednesday, Bee. 2. — Attended another meeting 
of the Luss and Arrochar Bible Society. It flourishes 
beyond my hopes. Nearly 30/. have been collected ; 
and though there were not many present, there were 
more than formerly, and they seemed to enter into 
the spirit of it. All the office-bearers spoke ; Sir 
James twice, and he affected me much, in particular 
when alluding to our Lord's question to Peter, 
' Lovest thou me ? ' What could I have answered had 
it been addressed to me ? Strange, that in this I can 
never be decided; but if a desire to feed his sheep 
be a sign, of that I am confident. Oh, prosper, 
Lord, the means of spreading thy Gospel 1 ' Let the 
people praise thee ; let all the people praise thee. 



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Anien, and Amen. Then shall the earth yield 
her increase, and God, even our own God, shall 
bless us ! ' 

"March 28, 1819. — This day is memorable from 
two interesting conversations ; one with a dear friend, 
another with a servant, to whom, along with the rest, 
I had given tracts. Oh, for a blessing on my poor 
feeble endeavours ! 

"May 9. — Read in Scott's Commentary and a 
French Bible. One passage in the latter (John xvii. 
24) delighted my heart. It strikes me as more 
impressive than the English, — 'Pere, mon desir est 
touchant ceux que tu m'as donnes, que la ou je suis, 
ils y soient aussi avec moi.' Is this the desire of my 
Lord ? How much more should I desire to be with 
Him, and where He is ! And why, sweet Jesus, dost 
thou desire to have me with thee ? From love it must 
be — everlasting love ! From a delight, too, in the 
fruits of redemption ; from seeing the travail of thy 
soul; from the satisfaction of beholding pollution 
pure. And, doubtless, from the beneficent delight 
of carrying forward the saints, even in glory, to 
higher degrees of nearness to God, of holiness, of 
happiness. 

"May 23. — 'Tis now a year since my beloved 
sister has, I trust, been in glory. How differently 



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has it been spent from all her other years ! How 
contemptuously, perhaps, how wonderingly does she 
look down on the many earthly things which might 
once have agitated the mind ! How pure are her 
thoughts ! how delightful the taste she has got of 
seraphic employments and entertainments ! and how 
overjoying the thought that they shall never, never 
end ! Oh, that we poor earthly pilgrims could 
realize something of such scenes, and rejoice in the 
hope of the glory of God ! 

"June 20. — Yesterday my father in Christ, worthy 
Dr. Buchanan, arrived here, and to-day he preached 
to us from 1 John i. 7. It was a short but compre- 
hensive compendium of the Gospel. Was happy in 
hearing him, and also much struck with his heavenly 
temper and child-like confidence in God, combined 
with the largest charity. How rare are such graces 
even in Christians ! Had a long and interesting 
conversation with him. Among other things he 
exhorted me never to let slip an opportunity of 
declaring my sentiments, and endeavouring to do 
good even to strangers. He also related several 
instances where ejaculatory prayer had been remark- 
ably answered, and recommended its frequent use. 

"27. — I was struck with the trustfulness, I 
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and recollecting how much in every page of the 
Bible it is warranted to the believer in Jesus, 
I resolved to dismiss my childish fears, and trust 
in God as mine for evermore. It is wonderful 
what an influence this belief has on the heart, 
and how it prepares for the practice of those graces 
which appear so beautiful in Dr. Buchanan. Gave 
Boston's ' Fourfold State ' to the servants as part 
of their little library. 

"July 25. — Afterwards heard my children — all 
my children • and, I tremble to write it, our little 
circle may never again meet in such circumstances. 
My beloved J. and J. leave us this week for Mr. 
Grainger's academy in Lincolnshire, and if I am 
spared to see it, when they return they may be 
beyond this mode of instruction. The precious 
moments are gone when a mother's warning voice 
might be heard with most effect. I have, indeed, 
this happy assurance, that if I could in any way 
have led my lambs to Christ, joyfully would I 
have done so ; and that this was my first, and 
almost only ambition for them. And now would 
I commend them to God, and to the Word of 
His grace, which is able to build them up, and 
to give them an inheritance among them which are 
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"Sept. 19. — Am at this time happily situated 
in the society of my Lord's dear children, dear 
to Him and dear to me. Mr. Legh Richmond, 
who has been honoured to do so much good by 
his beautiful little tracts, came here last night, 
accompanied by one of his daughters, and another 
clergyman, Mr. Westoby. They came in answer 
to prayer; my Lord has been loading me with 
benefits. Oh, how I love the fruits of the Spirit ! 
there is nothing on earth can attract my regard 
half so much. With joy I beheld the image of 
my Lord shining brightly, and prayed fervently 
that these beauties may not only appear, but may 
flourish and abound in my whole life. Oh, that 
others might clearly discern that I had been with 
Jesus ! At present I feel much encouraged and 
elevated. God is near. Have had some little 
trials, and do think I acted with regard to them 
as He would have me ; and by prayer, and by 
trusting in Him alone, all was ordered for the 
very best. 

" Nov. 28. — Last week I was reading the Life 
of Mrs. Elizabeth Hamilton. She seems to have 
been amiable and religiously inclined ; but oh, 
I pity the person, of whatever talents possessed, 
who is not humbled at the foot of the Cross : 



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and this, I fear, she was not. She talks of the 
greatest enjoyment of this life as being the 
society of persons of genius. Ah no ! she knew 
not that other happiness, communion with God 
and his people. She speaks in raptures of Mr. 
Alison's Sermon on the Talents, where he distinctly 
assigns a reward to the use we make of our intel- 
lectual powers, &c. A reward ! For our services ! 
It must be of grace, not of debt. But these 
things are often hid from the wise and prudent, 
and revealed to babes. Dazzling genius, how little 
canst thou do for thy possessor ! 

"Edinburgh, March 12, 1820. — In the evening 
I had my children, and read the Life of Pearce. 
When reading the lives of eminent Christians, I 
am pleased, but humbled. 'Less than the least 
of all saints/ should be my motto. Without 
any affectation of humility, or the least intention 
of writing what is not strictly true, I see a very 
great disparity between the experience I read of, 
and what I feel. WTien believers complain, and 
mention how easily they yield to temptation, &c, 
I can say, This is my case ; but when they speak 
of their joys, their raptures, their willingness to do, 
to be, or to suffer anything for Christ, their great 
love to Him, &c, my hands hang down, and I 



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can only exclaim, Oh, that it were thus with me ! 
Yet will I, too, hope in the Lord my righteousness. 
Let me be content to sit down in the lowest room, 
for so has He appointed. 

" Rossdhu, Aug. 20, 1820. — My brother Alexander 
and sister Catherine are here. C. is to remain for 
some months. I prayed to be permitted to benefit 
her. What real delight it would give me ! She 
gave me to-day the manuscript of my Hannah's 
' Letter/ which I read over this forenoon, and could 
have thought I was conversing with my earliest 
friend. It is, indeed, a wonderful production, and 
has scarcely any corrections for the press. This 
forenoon I also read the first portion of my Diary, 
and was struck with the struggle against sin which 
appears in it • was comforted by observing it, but 
almost fearful that my watchfulness is not so great 
now. I do, however, think that I have attained 
to an easier victory over some sins, especially anger. 
Resolved and prayed to be enabled to scrutinize 
my heart and life, more as a Christian ought ; 
to pass no fault unnoticed, to consider no evil 
trifling. Spent this evening in reading, and hearing 
C. read. 

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c Walk of Faith.' He says that it is impossible to 
love God for his holiness, without loving Him as our 
reconciled Father. To myself it appears that I have 
done so; that the loveliness of his character was a 
great means of leading me to Christ. But probably 
I know not my own heart ; at least, I would with 
diffidence contradict so great a writer. 

" Royal Hotel, Edinburgh, Jan. 28, 1821. — I 
should be ashamed that any one of my fellow- 
Christians heard my prayers, or knew how cold and 
indifferent they usually are. And yet it truly does 
astonish me; God hears them. In very many 
instances they have been answered, and I hardly 
know an instance in which the rest may not be 
answered yet. I must indeed remember that it is 
through Christ, and I hope I feel that I have no 
other plea for acceptance. When begging for any 
blessing with a cold heart, I used to think, This 
prayer I cannot expect to be heard ; but now I can 
trust, wonderful as it is, that this lifeless petition 
will find acceptance before the Throne. Often have 
my prayers been brought to my remembrance by 
their fulfilment. 

"Fed. 11. — Heard Dr. Stewart, ol the Canongate, 
whom I have not heard since he was settled here. 



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Was much interested in the sermon, and in the 
preacher, who is in very delicate health. May God 
spare and bless his devoted servant ! " 

In the firmament of our Northern Church few 
names shine brighter than that of Dr. Alexander 
Stewart. Born in the Manse of Blair, and spending 
his boyhood amidst such romantic scenes as the Pass 
of Killicrankie, he received an early tincture of that 
enthusiasm and poetic fervor which make the 
Highlanders sublime ; and then, after a brilliant 
career in St. Andrew's University, by ducal patronage 
he was softly deposited in the Manse of Moulin. 
Just emerged from minority, and radiant with life and 
hope, he could scarcely credit the rare felicity which 
had landed him in this goodly preferment, all un- 
conscious of the probationer's usual fears and perils. 
The Living was ample, the scenery delectable, the 
very congregation was picturesque ; and in the quiet 
of a Scottish parsonage he could pursue those classical 
studies to which he was powerfully attracted, as in 
the society of an hospitable neighbourhood he could 
recreate his spirit with the mirth or the music in 
which he equally excelled. But all this while his 
heart was so little in his sacred calling that it was a 
great relief when few people came to his catechetical 



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meetings, and from the most solemn engagements he 
hurried away to the dance or the novel. However, it 
was his great happiness to have for his friend a 
minister so enlightened and fervent as Mr. Black, 
of St. Madoes. Impressed by his holy example, Mr. 
Stewart began to take more serious views of the 
pastoral office, and longed to possess that piety which 
so beautified his neighbour's character and so delight- 
fully inspired his labors. An affectionate intercourse 
commenced, and Mr. Black's letters and conversations 
had fully instructed in the way of God this young 
Apollos, when, in June of 1796, Mr. Simeon paid a 
short visit to Moulin. Sufficient knowledge and an 
evangelical bias he had already received, and the 
vivid words of his guest were employed by the Spirit 
of God to impart his first joyful emotions. And now 
that the gracious principle, slowly elaborated but 
hitherto invisible, had received the spark celestial, it 
blazed up, a burning and a shining light. The con- 
version of Mr. Stewart was followed by a remarkable 
awakening amongst his parishioners; and never did 
minister preach more powerfully than this ardent 
evangelist, never did hearers listen more wonderingly 
than these simple mountaineers. Its result was a 
revival, singular as occurring in the dullest age of the 
Scottish Church, and of which the many fruits are 



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now ripening in places as remote as Cromarty and 
Calcutta.* After a translation to Dingwall, Dr. 
Stew r art was brought for the last months of his life to 
labor in Edinburgh. His earnest and richly scriptural 
sermons derived much additional impressiveness from 
his enfeebled and death- stricken looks ; and during 
her remaining Sabbaths in town, Lady Colquhoun 
continued to w r ait on his ministry with • mournful 
affection. And when, next year, his friend Dr. 
Sieveright published his Life, it became her favorite 
book in Christian biography. 

" March 18. — Oh, with w T hat words of grateful 
acknowledgment shall I record the serious impression 
I have observed this day and lately in one very dear 
to me ! I was delighted in conversation, and my 
hopes rise almost to confidence. I think and wonder 
at my prayer-hearing God. I can hardly in strong 
enough terms express my astonishment, I dare not 
say my gratitude, though I do feel grateful, at the 
numberless answers to prayer I am daily receiving. 
Bless the Lord, O my soul ! 

" Rossdhu, April 22. — Felt much interested in a 

* Dr. Duff at Calcutta is a native of Moulin. Dr. Stewart's 
eldest son, in many respects the most remarkable preacher in 
Scotland, lately died the Minister of Cromarty. 



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plan which I this day began, — reading aloud and 
explaining Doddridge's Rise and Progress to two 
of my maids, Mrs. B. and G. Have long thought I 
neglected my duty towards them, in not myself ex- 
plaining to them the doctrines of the Bible. Want of 
courage was the hinderance ; but I resolved to begin 
with these two, who have been very long with me. 

" July 8. — Read and prayed with all my children. 
Since the return of my sons my heart has been much 
engaged in prayer for them all. I began a new plan 
with them to-day, — to get them to prove the various 
doctrines from the Bible direct. 

•" 15. — To my great joy heard this day that Dr. 
Chalmers will preach at Luss in September. May 
the Spirit of God bring home to my heart the truths 
he so forcibly preaches ! 

"Aug. 5. — The Sacrament Sabbath at Arrochar, 
and Sir James has gone there. May his heart be 
prepared according to the preparation of the sanc- 
tuary, and may he be benefited ! A few days ago 
I received Mr. Legh Richmond's Memoir of my 
Hannah, — my dear Hannah. The delineation of her 
character is very complete ; she was what is there 
described. I trust a blessing will attend it, and it 
gives me pleasure to think that I have had some 
hand in it. In many parts my words are retained, 



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and I may thus be honoured to be useful without 
being seen. 

" Sept. 9. — My God is gracious. I scarcely re- 
member to have been favoured with so much of the 

society of His people as at present. remained till 

Tuesday, and was succeeded by Mr. Legh Richmond, 
his daughter, &c, and we had much agreeable and 
spiritual conversation. Mr. Hamilton of Strathblane 
came here yesterday, and preached to-day. He is 
a faithful and able laborer in God's vineyard. I 
delight in the saints, the excellent of the earth, but it 
is out of their power to lead me to God. The best 
society will not do without much retirement. I find 
deficiency in all. I would listen to the lesson which 
I ought to deduce from these observations, to ' cease 
from man.' I would learn to look forward with 
outstretched affections, to uninterrupted communion 
with God, my God, my exceeding joy, and to inter- 
course with the blessed without any mixture of defect. 

"Sept. 16. — Again would I confirm what I wrote 
last Sabbath; it is deeply impressed upon my 
mind. Emptiness, insufficiency, is in the world, and 
in the world's inhabitants, and is even found in the 
people of God. Can we expect spiritual light from 
creatures who are only in the dawn of their spiritual 
existence? God may work, and often does work 



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by them ; but when disappointment occurs we need 
not wonder. Dr. Chalmers preached here to-day. 
In the pulpit his powers are certainly great, and his 
reasoning very clear ; but having heard that he is 
so extraordinary, I was, on the whole, disappointed. 
Mr. Simeon's deep devotion and beautiful style 
impressed me more. Though heard above twenty 
years ago, his sermons are still written on my heart. 
Thanks, Lord, that I ever heard them — that these 
affecting ordinances were afforded to me when I 
so much required them ! By the remarks now made 
on communion with the saints I may seem to con- 
tradict what I wrote Sept. 19, 1819. What I mean 
is this. God may draw near, as Jesus drew near the 
disciples going to Emmaus, and may bless intercourse 
with his children ; and then it becomes a delightful 
means of grace : but He often does not, to disappoint 
their hopes, and lead them from the streams to the 
Fountain/' 

This extract is printed for the sake of its true and 
important reflections, and all the rather, because 
these are connected with a name transcendent 
amongst modern preachers, and to which eventually 
none could pay more cordial homage than Lady 
Colquhoun. But if this first sermon did not fulfil 



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all her expectations, perhaps it was for a reason which, 
had she known it at the time, would have only 
made him, to her pious mind, appear more noble. 
His text was, "The common people heard him 
gladly ; " and, as was his wont on such occasions, he 
would lay aside his grand originalities, and labor 
after those obvious truths which common people are 
glad to hear. The doctor always adverted to this 
visit with peculiar pleasure ; nor must we forget to 
add the delight which it afforded to his new acquaint- 
ances at Rossdhu, from the boatmen who rowed him 
on the lake, and the little girl with whom he played 
at battledoor, up to the guests whom he one evening 
dazzled with an astronomical lecture, converting the 
dinner-table into an extempore orrery, with a d'oyley 
for the sun, decanters for the planets, and glasses for 
the moons. To Mr. Simeon's clear and vivacious 
sermons Lady Colquhoun had been deeply indebted 
at the outset of her Christian course. There was 
one particularly to which she often adverted. The 
text was, " Ye will not come unto me that ye might 
have life ; " and after reading it the preacher, in his 
own striking and peculiar manner, exclaimed, " Life ? 
blessed Lord! dost thou offer us life?" and in an 
instant enchaining the attention of his auditory, he 
kept it solemnly riveted to the close of his discourse. 

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"Nov. 18. — With much interest read and ex- 
plained to my maids. I have now had resolution 
to take them all, and cannot but hope from their 
apparent attention, that some benefit will accrue 
to them. 

"May 5, 1822.— This Sabbath the influences of 
the blessed Spirit appear to me more sensible and 
sweet ; genuine religion has more exercised its empire 
over my soul. I have lately been deeply humbled 
on account of heart sin, and last night in meditation 
had some realizing views of the necessity of salvation 
by Christ, and of his fitness to be a Saviour. To- 
day, in the morning prayed with sincerity and truth, 
and felt interested in church. Read three times 
aloud — to my young people, to my maids, and again 
at night, in the parlor. Felt pleasure in all, and 
longed and prayed for some fruit of my labor. Took 
a walk before tea, and spent an agreeable half-hour 
in meditation. Went to the family burying-place, 
and remembered those who are mouldering there, 
one of whom (Sir James's father) I had intimately 
known. Imagined my dear husband and myself 
consigned to this narrow cell, and tried to look 
forward to the resurrection, and consider what alone 
can make it a joyful day to me. For life and death 
commended myself to my Redeemer, whose pro- 



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tection alone can avail in the solemn scenes through 
which I must pass. 

"June 3. — Was led to remember my fellow- 
worshippers at Halkirk. Their new pastor, Mr. 
Munro, who has got the church from Sir James 
so much to the satisfaction of the parish, was 
to preach there for the first time to-day. May 
the Lord the Spirit descend on pastor and 
people ! " 

For more than a year anterior to this date the 
health of Lady Colquhoun had been very delicate, 
and her allusions are frequent to that event which 
the most skilful physicians told her was its 
probable issue. In the prospect her feelings were 
calm, humble, and, although solemn, full of con- 
fidence in God. 

" Oct 27, 1822.— Last week I have felt far from 
well, which has led me to consider the possibility of 
this complaint still finishing my earthly career. The 
thought has done me good, and the prospect has not 
been dark. I have been enabled to view Christ as 
my eternal portion, and nearly to give up all besides. 
I feel wonderfully reconciled to leaving my husband 
and children, and I know I shall die or live as 



118 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0TJN. 

God sees best for me. Dear Lord, thou art at all 
times managing for the best my little concerns. Last 
week, also, I had a most interesting private conversa- 
tion with Miss Jane Farrell, who now appears a true 
disciple. I have seen her to-day, probably for the 
last time in this world, as she leaves Camstraddan on 
Tuesday for Ireland, and is shortly going to India, to 
be married. Well, in a future state ' there shall be 
no more sea ; ' nothing to divide the blessed inha- 
bitants ; nothing to interrupt their communion. I 
hope I have been of some use to this interesting 
girl." 

Mr. Farrell was proprietor of an estate near the 
Giant's Causeway, in Ireland ; but his wife was 
in delicate health, and along with their three 
daughters they had resided for four or five summers 
at Camstraddan House, near Luss. Young ladies 
so well informed, and of manners so pleasing, were 
welcome visitors in most houses of that neighbour- 
hood, and they were very often at Rossdhu. Miss 
Jane especially drew towards herself the affectionate 
observation of Lady Colquhoun. A prepossessing 
appearance, good sense, a cultivated mind, a 
warm heart, and frank and lively manners, made 
her a universal favorite; but, beyond a weekly 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 119 

attendance at the parish church, she gave no evi- 
dence of an interest in the things of God. And 
even this church-going was a mere formality. 
" Have you remarked that picturesque old woman 
who on Sundays sits on the pulpit stairs ? " she one 
day asked her friends at Rossdhu. Of course they 
had. " Oh ! " said the amateur artist, " she is such 
a fine-looking old woman, I cannot take my eyes off 
her the whole time of the sermon, and I am painting 
her likeness from memory. I can carry away each 
Sunday an impression of her features sufficient to 
employ my pencil during the week/' But, in 
conjunction with other circumstances, the prospect 
of leaving home solemnized her mind, and led her 
to ask whether, separated from all the means of 
grace, her religion had strength to stand ? and this 
led to another question — whether she had any 
religion at all? A severe mental conflict ensued, 
and at a time when her thoughts were all engrossed 
with these anxious questions, at a dinner-party she 
met Lady Colquhoun. On leaving the dining-room 
the ladies went out to walk round the garden. 
Lady Colquhoun and Miss Jane Farrell having 
separated from the rest, in her own sweet and 
engaging manner Lady Colquhoun introduced the 
subject of religion, and her young companion opened 



120 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

to her all her mind. After this their interviews 
were frequent, and as they were the principal means 
of leading this interesting inquirer into the light of 
the Gospel, they originated an ardent and life-long 
attachment. " Her last visit," says our informant, " is 
still fresh on my memory. It was a bright autumnal 
morning, and I well remember her light and elegant 
form, as she glided along the avenue, after bidding 
farewell to her friend and adviser." In company 
with Sir Edward and Lady Barnes she sailed for 
Ceylon, and was married to her brother's partner, 
Charles Scott, Esq. From her home among the 
cinnamon-groves she wrote to her friend on Loch 
Lomond letters brimming over with the fulness of 
her own felicity, mingled with occasional misgivings 
as to her spiritual progress. " I possess great earthly 
happiness. I hear of my beloved family being in 
excellent health, and have the prospect of rejoining 
them in a very few years ; and I have one of the 
kindest and most indulgent husbands that ever lived. 
But all these blessings, instead of raising my heart in 
thankfulness to the Giver of every good, and leading 
me to devote myself more to his service, seem only 
to bind my thoughts more firmly to this world ; and 
I am often made to fear that I shall be deprived of 
some of those great mercies I am so unworthy of 



LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 121 

possessing. Yet no contrition seems to accompany 
the knowledge of my own sinfulness, and I have 
generally a gaiety and happiness of heart which 
should only be produced by the hope of daily 
advancing in meetness for the kingdom of heaven. 
When my prayers are cold and wandering, I feel 
I cannot deplore it as I ought, nor do I ask with 
sufficient earnestness for assistance to pray better; 
at the same time, I certainly do often feel the 
indescribable happiness of being able to trust in One 
mighty to save, and that it is not for our sakes 
that our prayers are accepted by God. I think I 
am gaining rather more knowledge of my sinfulness, 
and of -the waywardness of my heart; but, as I 
said before, it is unaccompanied by sorrow for 
my offences, and does not diminish that lightness 
of mind which is certainly gaining on me." It 
was thus that Lady Colquhoun's gentle and guile- 
less nature drew forth the confidence of her 
younger friends especially, and encouraged them to 
tell her " all that was in their heart ; " for they were 
as sure of kind sympathy as of wise advice. And, 
perhaps, the fears of her ingenuous correspondent 
were not without foundation. God may have seen 
what she herself suspected, and in order to bring 
the roaming spirit back into its quiet rest, He sent 



122 LIFE OE LADY COLQUHOUN. 

the windy storm and the tempest. Six weeks after 
these lines were written, Mr. Scott was seized by a 
fatal malady, and in a few hours it tore him from 
the arms of his distracted wife. A devoted mis- 
sionary, Mr. Mayor, heard of her distress, and along 
with Mrs. Mayor, the beloved sister of a man greatly 
beloved, — the late Rev. E. Bickersteth, prevailed on 
her to come for a season to their calm and secluded 
abode. There she gradually regained composure, — 
at least serenity enough to benefit by the conversa- 
tion and prayers of her deeply sympathizing friends ; 
and when, in 1828, she returned to her native land, 
although she brought with her a heavy load of sorrow, 
she also brought a mind uncommonly devoted to 
God. Prom Dublin, on February 13, 1829, she thus 
wrote to Lady Colquhoun : — 

" I have often intended writing to you. In the 
time of my deepest affliction, you were one of the 
very few my heart seemed to turn to, feeling that you 
would understand where consolation can alone be 
found. I have indeed been in a strong fire of afflic- 
tion since I last wrote to you. Oh ! that the fire 
had consumed more of the dross. Then I was at the 
height of earthly happiness. The fall was sudden 
and violent, and unless upheld by an Almighty arm, 
I must have perished in my affliction. On the first 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 123 

shock I was left to my own strength, and the mind 
wandered under the acuteness of anguish. It seemed 
as if I could not pray; yet even the first look to 
Him whose compassions fail not, was answered, and 
in a way I could not have conceived before. I was 
made to experience my own inability to have so much 
as one thought, except by the help of God, and his 
wondrous power to shed into the soul the richest 
spiritual consolations in the midst of nature's woe. 
Oh, the deep, deep, almost overpowering views then 
given me of the vastness of eternity ; and great in 
proportion was the consolation, when, by the tender 
mercy of God, there came back on the mind the 
transporting conviction that the soul, which seemed 
the dearer part of my own, was entered on an 
eternity of blessedness, — that, as surely as Christ 
died and rose again, even so them also that sleep in 
Jesus will God bring with Him. And the evidence 
that his state was such, was so abundant, as to raise 
my soul in wonder and gratitude. My earthly, back- 
sliding heart had been so satisfied with present happi- 
ness as to be comparatively forgetful of spiritual; 
but now I remember with indescribable comfort, these 
last seven or eight months in particular, the gradual, 
the beautiful change, that often made me exclaim 
to myself, ' I may have more of religion on my lips, 



124 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

but he has infinitely more of it in his heart/ The 
sting of my many omissions, in regard to his spiritual 
welfare, I thought at first could never be extracted; 
but my compassionate God has been pleased long to 
remove it, and even change it into an additional 
motive of gratitude to Him who did it all himself, 
and who did not allow my sinfulness to come in the 
way of the great work of his salvation." 

Then, after mentioning Mr. Mayor's providential 
visit to her dying husband, and her sojourn in the 
house of the missionary, and his " truly Christian 
wife," she concludes : — 

" My voyage was such as to keep faith in constant 
exercise, — many dangers, but a powerful, protecting 
God appearing through all. I may humbly say, 
' Hitherto hath the Lord helped me.' I am con- 
tinually made to feel my weakness. Were I trying 
to look to earth, in any shape, for comfort, the heart 
would yet entirely sink under sorrow. But, blessed 
be our faithful God, who will never leave nor forsake 
us ; who can give us faith to rest in his promises ; 
and who can show the blessed termination, when 
those sundered on earth shall unite for ever in praising 
redeeming love. My dear Lady Colquhoun, I have 
given you a letter filled about myself; but I know 
you will join with me in praising the mercy and love 



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of our Saviour God. Your letter was indeed most 
comfortable to me. I received one from you at 
Baddagama, written when you thought me in the 
midst of earthly happiness. I was struck by your 
saying in it : ' If we cannot give our hearts to God, 
let us pray that He will take them — by any means 
take them/ You had little idea then that it required 
my best earthly treasure to be taken to heaven before 
I could feel that my all was there.' ' 

The eighteen years of her widowhood were 
spent in a succession of ministrations to one invalid 
or afflicted relation after another, which in several 
instances appear to have been blessed to their ever- 
lasting salvation. At last, in the year 1845, and when 
she hoped to see again her spiritual parent, the Lord 
called her to himself. She said, when dying, "I 
laid too much stress on the ministry of man, and 
delighted in it. I cannot now converse but with 
difficulty. God is drawing me off from all earthly 
props that I may lean solely on himself. How 
abundantly I felt the promise fulfilled last night ! 
The Comforter, the Holy Ghost, was indeed sent, and 
abundant was the supply of Scripture brought to my 
remembrance. Not merely what I had committed to 
memory, but large portions that I had not, came 
pouring in to comfort me." And as God had taught 



126 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

her to live upon himself, so she was very fearful of 
being too highly exalted, or too much spoken of by 
others. A diary which she had kept she destroyed 
before her death, and when told that a friend 
had written to inquire how she was, and how 
she had felt supported, she said, "I can so well 
understand Mr. Simeon's feelings." * Like him, 
she for a moment or two waxed quite eloquent in 
extolling her Saviour, and disparaging herself; and 
like him also she silently departed, telling her 
attendant to keep the room quiet, for she was 
going to sleep. 

Thus, on earth they never met again, and in the 
many thoughts which followed her to her Indian 

* " He was evidently much hurt at the thought of even his 
-dearest friends coming round to disturb the privacy which he 
had always wished for in his dying hour. He had repeatedly 
charged me to keep every one away from him when that solemn 
season should arrive, and remain with him myself alone. * * * 
Next morning he referred to what had happened the previous 
night. * Now, I was much hurt at the scene last night : a 
scene ! a death-bed scene I abhor from my inmost soul. No ! ' 
he continued, smiting three times slowly on his breast, — 'no; 
I am, I know, the chief of sinners; and I hope for nothing 
but the mercy of God in Christ Jesus to life eternal ; and I 
shall be, if not the greatest monument of God's mercy in 
heaven, yet the very next to it ; for I know of none greater.' 
— Cams' Life of Simeon, p. 810. 



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bungalow, her Irish home, and her cottage on the 
brink of Niagara, in the fancy of her friend it was 
always the same Jane Farrell. And though the 
widow's garb was worn, and though many griefs and 
watchings by sick-beds had doubtless changed that 
pleasant countenance, no change came over that 
ardent, ingenuous, and self-devoting mind. And 
down to the close of life Mrs. Scott retained a 
fervent attachment to Lady Colquhoun, and in her 
letters fondly reverted to the happy days when " first 
she knew the Lord," and when they were wont to 
take sweet counsel together. " Dear, dear Lady 
Colquhoun, I have indeed often thanked God for 
having given me such a Christian friend. When 
my mind was awakening, you were the first that 
spoke home to me. You first directed me plainly 
to Jesus, and encouraged me with the assurance that 
He would carry on the work which He alone could 
commence. And, dear friend, what increasing com- 
fort there is in that view, grounded on God's own 
Word, that He will perfect that which concerneth 
us, and will not forsake the work of his own hands. 
What a God we have ! God in Christ. Truly you 
say, ' The end of our trials is to endear us to Jesus, 
and loose our hold of everything else.' ' Of these 
trials the meek writer had many, and one was the 



128 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

loss of the letters addressed to her by her endeared 
correspondent. During a sojourn at Kingston, Upper 
Canada, the house in which she was residing was 
burnt to the ground, and we cannot forbear inserting 
a portion of the letter in which she describes the 
calamity, April 8, 1837 : — 

" You kindly said you would send me ' The 
Kingdom of God.' All my efforts to procure it have 
been vain, and, alas ! its beautiful sister, which I 
prized so much, is gone. Where ? Like many other 
fair and lovely things, to dust and ashes. We were 
living in greater comfort than I ever expected to 
meet in Canada ; too much at ease, no doubt ; when 
one night a fire broke out below us. The flames 
spread rapidly, and all our worldly goods were 
consumed. It was night; the house, of course, in 
total darkness, and all sound asleep, till wakened 
by loud cries of ' Fire ! ' Our rooms were at the 
greatest distance from the hall, and worst situated 
for escape. The fire originated in a hardware store 
under the boarding-house, and when we got outside 
the house we heard there was gunpowder in the 
store sufficient to blow it up. Two explosions there 
were ; but they did no additional harm. So there 
we stood, in the snow, watching the fierce flames 
forking up from our rooms, so shortly before the 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 129 

picture of peace and comfort. Nothing could be 
done, and the whole of it was so ordered that one 
could only offer it up into his hands who can make 
all things work together for good, and pray that we 
might effectually learn the lessons it was meant to 
teach. Besides much valuable property, I have lost all 
my books and written papers and letters, my Indian 
things, with all mementoes of beloved friends and 
past times. Another hint to forget the things which 
are behind, and press forward. But why do I thus 
detail our little losses ? 1 meant not to do it. Rather 
let me speak of the great gain, the ever-increasing 
comfort of the promises, and of our Lord's love, who 
in every trial condescends to speak such peace as 
raises the heart to Himself in continual thankso-iving. 
When I think of what I deserve I can only wonder 
at his gentle dealings. He often says, ' What I do 
thou knowest not now, but thou shalt know^ here- 
after ; ' and He graciously lets so much of his hand 
of love be seen in every trial, that it is easy work to 
trust Him with the remainder. " 

Of the many letters which Lady Colquhoun 
addressed to this younger sister " in the kingdom 
and patience of Jesus Christ/' we are thus precluded 
from offering to the reader any specimen. But even 
this slight record of so dear a friend may reflect some 



130 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

light on the character of Lady Colquhoun. It 
shows, at least, how alert she was for opportunities 
of doing good, and how graciously God honoured 
her consistency and prospered her fidelity. Nor will 
it be a vain digression if it enkindle in the reader 
or the writer aspirations after that heavenly-minded- 
ness and holy skill which made the subject of this 
biography a living epistle, and which so frequently 
converted morning calls and evening visits into 
" walks of usefulness." 



CHAPTER IV. 

NO CHASTENING FOR THE PRESENT SEEMETH TO BE JOYOUS, 
BUT GRIEVOUS: NEVERTHELESS AFTERWARD IT YIELDETH 
THE PEACEABLE FRUIT OF RIGHTEOUSNESS UNTO THEM 
WHICH ARE EXERCISED THEREBY. HEB. XII. 11. 



What causes the freshness which gives the flower 

Its scent and its summer hue ? 
It came in the dark and midnight hour 

In drops of heavenly dew : 
So, often in sorrow the soul receives 

An influence from above, 
Which beauty, and sweetness, and freshness gives 

To patience, and faith, and love. 

EDMESTON. 



K 2 



The last extract from her Journal represented Lady 
Colquhoun as suffering from enfeebled health. This 
trial was of long continuance ; but it was sanctified. 
It turned her thoughts more stedfastly towards that 
world of which she thought it likely that she might 
so soon be an inhabitant, and it roused her to make 
more efforts for the good of that one which she was 
leaving. Amongst other plans of usefulness was one 
which, abruptly suggested, would have startled her 
diffident and retiring nature ; but the idea stole on 
her so gently, and the process went on so imper- 
ceptibly, that almost before she saw it formidable, 
she found it a fact accomplished. During those 
languid months when debarred from active employ- 
ments, she might often be observed seated on her 
camp-stool, beside the lake, or in some sheltered 
spot, and with her pencil tracing her meditation as 
it rose. And as such papers grew upon her hands, 



134 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

and she felt some pleasure in perusing them, the 
thought occurred that in a connected form other 
people might read them, and might haply derive 
some profit. And she liked the scheme all the 
rather when she thought how isolated she was, — 
how few, comparatively, came within her personal 
influence, and how seldom, even to those few, she 
could talk on the things importing their eternal 
peace. So that this expedient of addressing 
them anonymously in little books seemed quite the 
plan for doing all the good and shunning all the 
notoriety. 

Her first publication was the tract to which refer- 
ence has already been made.* With that scrupulosity 
which strikingly distinguished her character, it was 
entitled " A Narrative founded on Fact." Although 
every particular was stated with all the accuracy of 
an excellent memory, yet, as she had taken no notes 
at the time, and could not answer for every turn of 
expression which occurs in the dialogue, she thought 
it needful to insert this qualification. The story is 
not only essentially true, but it is an affecting record 
of God's grace. It will be read with much 
advantage by those who are in the habit of visiting 

* " Despair and Hope." See pp. 85—89. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 135 

their poor and afflicted neighbours, and we believe 
that it has been the means of conveying to some 
troubled spirits light and comfort. 

Next year, viz., in 1S23, appeared "Thoughts on 
the Religious Profession and Defective Practice of the 
Higher Classes of Society in Scotland. By a Lady." 
This little volume she wrote with an especial eye to 
her own personal acquaintances ; and though it did 
not excite general attention, under her incognita she 
was frequently cheered by knowing that it had fallen 
into the very hands for which she designed it, and 
that in some cases beneficial results had followed. 

This encouraged her to give to the world, in 1825, 
" Impressions of the Heart, relative to the Nature 
and Excellence of Genuine Religion/' Even in its 
nameless disguise this work was widely circulated, 
and from its good sense and high-toned spirituality, 
along with the refinement of taste and delicacy 
of feeling which it everywhere betokened, many of 
her personal friends suspected the authoress. And 
its popularity has not exceeded its merits. Of that 
artistic skill which makes the most of materials, and 
which, in the pages of some celebrated female 
essayists, brings out effects so brilliant, Lady Col- 
quhoun was nowise ambitious ; and here and there 
it would be easy for an ordinary critic to balance the 



136 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

antithesis more nicely, or nib into a sharper paradox 
the pungent aphorism. But to a higher order of 
readers these beautiful essays bear a special charm, 
by reason of their graceful ease and natural truthful- 
ness. Like the conversation of the compiler, they 
are genuine and inartificial, spontaneous and heart- 
felt ; but still the utterance of a mind whose every 
tendency is upward, whose every association is with 
things pure and good and elevated. And in such 
chapters as " The Invisible Mark," " Cease ye from 
Man," " The Ascent of the Mountain," " The 
Celestial Visitant," and " The Multitude before 
the Throne," we are persuaded that all congenial 
minds will eagerly respond to the devotional fervor, 
the bright but chastened fancy, and the holy 
fidelity in which the gifted authoress has so well 
transcribed herself. Calm, cheerful, Christ-loving, 
no book could be more rightly named than these 
" Impressions of the Heart ; " for, according to the 
Indian's definition of writing, she who penned them 
has " pressed her soul on paper." 

"Edinburgh, 117, George-street, Jan. 19, 1823. — 
After dinner, being unable to read aloud from my 
cough, I had a most interesting conversation with a 
very dear friend, for whom I prayed with tears and 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 137 

faith. Since last Sabbath, and indeed before it, I 
have been remarkably happy in my devotional exer- 
cises. I have secured more time for them, and have 
been confined at home, my cold hindering me from 
going to several parties. I have also been busily 
employed in a work that seems strange to myself. 
Early last summer my little book was published, and 
has met with acceptance; I even heard one instance 
in which it had been beneficial ; praised be God ! 
And I am now attempting something on a larger 
scale, though whether or not it will see the light, I 
cannot tell. But I have been earnest in my prayers 
for direction and assistance, which encourages me 
to hope it may be blessed. Amen. 

" March 2. — Again detained at home by a cough, 
which has never entirely left me since coming 
here. My frame has been far from lively ; but I 
have had some feeling thoughts of my wants. Read 
Traill's Works with great pleasure ; they are full of 
spiritual food. My booh came out last week. I have 
prayed to be kept out of sight, and to be honoured 
as an instrument in the hand of God. Who knows 
what good may be done ? I have also prayed to be 
kept humble if it should meet with any approbation, 
and I am not sensible of any elation regarding it. If 
it should pass with little notice it could do me no harm. 



138 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

" 23. — Attended in the Canongate and in St. 
George's, and heard two excellent sermons. Mr. 
Thomson's, on the value of the Scriptures, was very 
striking. The duties of the evening were performed 
as usual, and at night I really prayed. This day has 
been comfortable ; but last week I was much in 
company, and I seem as unable as ever to withstand 
its influence. I am almost weary of repeating my 
conviction of guilt, of weakness, of earthliness ; but 
each day proves it, and every period of my life. In 
town I fancy I should be better in the country ; in 
the country I imagine a change of means would 
enliven me. No. It is myself I would fly from. 

wretched being, who shall deliver me ! I thank 
God, through Jesus Christ, my Lord. 

" Rossdhii, June 1. — One great cause of complaint 
with regard to myself I think is, that I live too 
little upon Christ. I could not live without Him ; but 

1 forget my need of daily and hourly supplies from 
his hand of support and grace. I forget to ask his 
aid, not merely formally in the morning, but often, 
and as my necessities arise. I forget to hold with 
Him continual intercourse of prayer and praise ; in 
short, to live by his constant bounty, as the Israelites 
lived by the heavenly manna. — It has given me no 
small concern to find that I am suspected by some 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 139 

as the author of my last little work ; but I have 
entreated my Lord to manage for me everything 
concerning it, and I am confident He will. 

" 8. — No sermon at Luss, being the Sacrament 
at Bonhill. Have during the forenoon been very 
happy in reading and prayer, and in conversation 
with Sir James on the great and glorious events 
which we are led by prophecy to anticipate as very 
near. In all probability we shall be laid in the 
grave before the time is fulfilled ; but still the 
prospect is cheering, that the kingdoms of this world 
shall become the kingdoms of the Lord and his 
Christ. 

" 22. — Thanks be to his mercy, the love of Christ — 
that long-wished-for grace — of late has dawned upon 
my heart. I have been more alive to my Saviour's 
beauty, and have felt my dependance upon Him for 
everything, alike for one moment's comfort, and for 
the happiness of a whole eternity. My intercourse 
and communion with Him have been sweeter, and I 
can cast on his care myself and all my concerns. I 
feel the inferiority of creature love. Amen ; thus be 
it to thy poor worthless child more and more, dear 
Lord ! 

"July 13. — Since last Sabbath a powerful tempta- 
tion has occurred to my mind, and damped my joy. 



140 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

It was first impressed upon me that our Lord is 
not equal with God the Father ; but after searching 
my Bible, this text set me at rest regarding that 
point, 'Making himself equal with God/ an in- 
ference which He does not deny, John v. 18. 
But here my spiritual adversary did not rest ; for 
being relieved as to that point I was next tempted 
to doubt the truth of revelation. Sad was my heart 
for some days as I labored to recollect the evidences 
that the Scriptures are divinely inspired. I felt that 
Satan was envious of my hope in God, and strove to 
destroy it ; and yet doubt would force itself on my 
mind. If I had no God on whom to rest, all was 
lost. Among other books, ' Watson's Apology ' 
has been of use in leading me to see the reasonable- 
ness of belief in Jesus. That the facts recorded in 
the Bible are true, profane as well as sacred 
history testifies ; and*if these are true, Christianity is 
true. O Lord, confirm my weak and wavering faith ! 

" 13. — My faith is confirmed. The proofs from 
prophecy, from miracles, from the life of Christ, from 
the tendency of the Gospel, and many others, are 
indeed satisfactory. And now, O Lord, what wait I 
for ? my hope is in thy Word. 

" 20. — Communion Sabbath. — When I consider the 
price paid for our redemption, how marvellous is the 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 141 

theme ! So familiar to our thoughts has it become 
that we can scarcely reflect on the amazing truth that 
God suffered to save us. may I for ever live to 
praise Him ! He suffered in no slight measure, but 
intensely, and with the natural dread and aversion from 
agony that we all feel ; yet calmly, resolutely, and with 
the dignity which his divinity alone could inspire. 

'■'■Aug. 31. — Death has made an inroad on my 
real friends. My old and faithful servant, Morris,* 
has gone to her eternal rest, full of days, at the age of 
eighty. She brought up my beloved Hannah and 
me, not only with care and affection, but with an 
endeavour to lead us in the paths of piety. I rejoice 
to think that we were a comfort to her in her 
declining years. And now I alone am left of our 
nursery circle. Both the departed have gone, I trust, 
to glory. Oh may I follow ! 

" Oct. 5. — Have to complain to-day of a lifeless 
heart. What a difference is there between the duties 
of religion as performed when the blessed Spirit 
enlightens, warms, and purifies, and when all is the 
outward act ! I hope, however, I am not wrong in 
relying on the Saviour for acceptance, even in per- 
forming duties such as these. He is perfect, and 
through his sacrifice and righteousness my poor 
* See p. 9. 



142 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

services will, I trust, be pardoned and received. In 
going to church I saw a melancholy scene. The 
excessive rain of last night had flooded whole fields of 
corn, and in some places the sheaves had floated into 
the lake, and the poor people were trying to save 
them. 

"117, George-street, Edinburgh, Feb. 15, 1824. — 
Oh how shall I praise the Lord for his goodness ! 
Last week I was much in company, and alas, alas ! I 
much forgot my God. But hearing that this was 
the communion Sabbath in the Canongate Chapel, 
though without the possibility of devoting any time 
to preparation, I resolved to attend, and never did 
I enjoy more of the presence of God at his table. 
Oh ! He is kind, He is gracious to a poor, weak, 
inconsistent, lifeless creature. Every word of Mr. 
Tait's exhortation reached my heart. He exhorted 
us, first to remember our transgressions, our short- 
comings in duty, our un worthiness. I thought, I 
am sure, this is for me. But having wounded he 
healed, and next pronounced the mourner 'blessed/ 
He then exhorted us to expect largely, for here God 
smells a sweet savour in Christ crucified; and he 
concluded by enforcing holiness, — yea, to shine with 
the lustre of holiness, while we exhibit the depth of 
humility. Returning home, I prayed to my exalted 



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High Priest with very much feeling, giving myself 
entirely up to him, and imploring his blessing on 
me and my family for evermore. In the evening I 
read to my young people and servant with pleasure, 
and all the day have felt near to God, united to Him 
in covenant, complete in Christ. 

" Rossdhu, Sept. 5. — Last Lord's-day I was in 
Edinburgh, having gone for medical advice. . . . 
Attended St. George's with benefit ; but, alas ! I have 
to record an act of transgression in return for the 
Lord's mercy towards me. I was living at the 

British Hotel, and Mrs. asked me to dine with 

her after sermon. We never accept invitations on 
Sabbath; but somehow I agreed, as we were to 
remain only two days in Edinburgh, and the follow- 
ing one was to be spent with my father's family. It 
did not occur to me that I had done wrong, till 
I found how the evening was employed, and then 
all the objections to my going occurred in full force ; 
my own loss of spiritual feeling ; example to others ; 
the remark of one asked to meet me, but who did 
not come, and which stung me to the quick, — ' 1 am 
sure I may do what Lady C. does ; ' besides the 
employment of servants in preparation, &c. O Lord, 
pardon this wilful offence, and may I never thus 
spend thy holy day again ! 



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" Oct. 17. — Being employed last week in some 
deeds of mercy, rejoiced to think that such was the 
frequent employment of my Lord. Was delighted in 
reviewing his character, and longed for greater assi- 
milation to it. 

" Nov. 21. — Have been again in Edinburgh. 
Went with Sir James to witness my sister Julia's 
.marriage to Lord Glasgow, an event which gives 
satisfaction to the whole family. May it be blessed 
to their everlasting good ! It was the time of the 
Edinburgh sacrament. I attended in St. George's, 
and was pleased, but I fear not much edified. This 
day, at home, with no means but my book, my heart 
has been with God. 

"4, Charlotte-square, Edinburgh, Jan. 16, 1825. — 
I have been weak and low, and prevented last 
Sabbath from writing here ; but I cried unto the 
Lord and showed before Him my trouble, and He 
listened to my supplication. To-day have been twice 
to St. George's, and particularly blessed in the 
afternoon : the sermon upon ' abounding more and 
more in religion.' My intended work, ' Impressions 
of the Heart,' is in the press. Oh for a blessing 
upon it ! Lord, hear my many prayers for this ! Let 
it find acceptance with the world. Give it access, 
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people. It is indeed much to ask from a means so 
inconsiderable ; but, Lord, make it extensively useful. 
" Feb. 6. — On Friday, accompanied by Sir James, 
my brother George, Mrs. Sinclair, &c, drank tea 
with Dr. Colquhoun of Leith. It was truly affecting 
to hear the venerable man discourse on prayer and 
other religious topics. He gave me and mine his 
fullest blessing, and I was refreshed by the visit." 

As has already been noticed, Dr. Colquhoun was a 
native of Luss, and, of course, a member of the 
clan. For nearly fifty years he was minister of the 
New Kirk, Leith ; and to his solid and systematic ex- 
positions of Scripture hearers resorted not only from 
the city of Edinburgh, but from places as remote 
as Dalkeith and Newbattle. Besides Boston and 
the Erskines, his theological models were Witsius and 
Msestricht, Voetius and Cloppenburg, and his own 
mind had all the system and precision of a Dutch 
Divine. No modern better merited the title so often 
bestowed on the Puritans, — " a painful preacher of 
the holy Gospel." His expositions were ready-made 
commentaries, and every sermon was a chapter in a 
forthcoming treatise ; whilst his deliberate enuncia- 
tion, like an audible typography, rendered ample 
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however, be a great mistake to fancy that he was 
a mere systematise Much as they valued his 
methodical arrangement and exhaustive copiousness, 
the best of his hearers prized still more his affec- 
tionate applications of the truth, and the singular 
judgment with which he handled questions of con- 
science. And in the midst of his mild catholicity, to 
many there was a peculiar charm in his covenanting 
fervor. Some of them can still remember with what 
pathos he used to pray that the Most High " would 
revive the credit of a covenanted work of reforma- 
tion, that he would repair the carved work of the 
sanctuary, which had been broken down, and build 
up the breaches of Zion, which are wide as the sea ; " 
and they can tell how, in concluding an exposition of 
the Psalms which had lasted seventeen years, he 
remarked, "I have much reason to bless the Lord 
that I have never, like many of my brethren, been so 
far left to myself as to use in the public worship 
of God hymns of human composition." * 

* It must be regretted that, in common with so many dis- 
tinguished ministers of the Church of Scotland, Dr. Colquhoun 
has passed away without any tribute to his memory. The 
natural repositories — the religious magazines of the country, 
are vainly searched for fuller notices. In the " Christian 
Instructor," vol. xxvi., p. 860, two of the most remarkable 
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Except in theological soundness, the minister 
named in the next paragraph was a great contrast to 
Dr. Colquhoun. The fair, soft countenance, sur- 
mounted by its sleek, yellow wig, the measured tones 
and quiet air of the outer man, were in true keeping 
with the phlegmatic temper of the South-Leith divine ; 
and as true an index of his lofty idealism and san- 
guine thorough-going, were the tall form, the brilliant 
but pensive eye, the nervous gait, and the impas- 
sioned address which marked the pastor of Strath - 
blane. By nature a recluse, and rejoicing in a 
splendid library, his philanthropy and his love of 
freedom drew him frequently into public life, and 
eventually health and life were lavished in efforts to 
break up the religious apathy of a singularly callous 
neighbourhood. With peculiar emotion the writer 
sometimes recals those magnificent exhibitions of 
redeeming love with which his own boyhood was 

"Died, 28th Oct. (1827), the Rev. Dr. Thomas Davidson, 
of Muirhouse, one of the ministers of Tolbooth Church, Edin- 
burgh, in the 81st year of his age, and 57th of his ministry. 

"27th November, the Rev. Dr. John Colquhoun, Minister 
of the Chapel of Ease, Leith, in the 80th year of his age and 
46th of his ministry." 

For the above notice of Dr. Colquhoun the Editor is 
indebted to his esteemed friend, Mr. Rowan, of the Free 
College Library, Edinburgh. 

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familiar, and wonders how, like his fellow- 
parishioners, he was so little thrilled by their 
grandeur, so little softened by their tenderness. To 
Lady Colquhoun, however, these attributes of the 
ardent evangelist were a sufficient attraction; and, 
after the death of Dr. Buchanan, the minister who 
enjoyed most of her friendship was Dr. Hamilton. 
And it is only because her fittest biographer died before 
her, that another pays to her Ladyship's memory this 
tribute of inherited respect and attachment. 

"March 13. — Have been much in the society of 
the pious during the past week, and it has been 
blessed to me. I had an unexpected call from Dr. 
Hamilton of Strathblane, which gave me great 
pleasure. He wishes that I should give my name 
to the next edition. Oh ! what shall I, what should 
I do ? Lord, take it or not as thou wilt, and may 
my fears, or perhaps vanity, be quite excluded. I 
would stand by, as having nothing to say in the 
decision. Let thy glory and thy pleasure be the 
rule, and influence my mind according to these. On 
Tuesday was at a delightful meeting for the Irish. 
On Thursday heard Dr. Gordon preach a charity 
sermon for diffusing religious knowledge among the 
poor. Friday dined with my brother George, and 



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met Mr. Wynne, and some others ; and yesterday 
George took me to call for Lady Carnegie. All these 
advantages have not been entirely lost upon me, but 
have been the means of raising my heart to God. 
Oh, how delightful will be the society of heaven, ever 
with one another, and ever with the Lord ! 

" Bossdhu, July 17. — Our communion. My mercies 
are new and my feelings varied. In the first place, I 
have been greatly hindered in heart-work by bodily 
weakness. When I would pray, I incline to sleep; 
and I have been greatly exhausted both to-day and 
yesterday. Surely my Lord, my own Lord Jesus, 
who was himself united to humanity, knows this. 
Would a kind father say to a worn-out child, Get up 
and work? May I not rather hope that the Re- 
deemer's language to me is, ' the spirit is willing, but 
the flesh is weak ? ' Nevertheless, I did come to 
Christ, and I did hope in Him ; and I do feel some 
love to my adorable Saviour. With something of 
joyful anticipation I look forward to being with Him 
for ever. Here, I am laboring to catch a spark 
or two of celestial fire ; but oh ! to have it blazing 
around me, enlightening and warming my whole 
affections in the paradise above ! 

"Mat/ 28, 1826. — (Beginning a new volume of 
the MS. journal.) My life wears apace 1 My 



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appointed time is running on, years roll over and 
are gone. Where are those with the occurrences of 
which I filled my last little volume ? They have fled ; 
but the remembrance of them lives not only in that 
little book, but in the mind of the eternal God. 
Each thought and every action is present with him, 
even as if it were only passing now. Then what 
a poor creature do I appear ! and how rich is his 
mercy in compassionating and blessing such ! I 
commence this book : shall I finish it ? or shall this 
hand be arrested by death, and shall these fingers 
be consigned to the grave to mix with their native 
earth? Lord, thou knowest. But whatever awaits 
thy child, be present, my God, to cheer, to support, 
to strengthen, to sanctify, to glorify. Amen. Sir 
James has been absent about a fortnight, attending 
the General Assembly, of which he is for the first 
time a member. 

"■July 9. — Oh how great is thy goodness towards 
them that fear thee ! towards them that hope in thy 
mercy ! Thou hast refreshed the soul of thy poor 
weak servant, my God ! Last week we had the 
happiness of a visit for some days from Mr. Malan 
of Geneva, with whom James resided for a year.* 

* Nine years before this visit to Scotland, Dr. Malan had 
withdrawn from the Socinianised National Church of Geneva ; 



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He is a most devoted servant of God, and has been 

the instrument of arousing, and I hope confirming, 

my too wavering faith. He dwells much on the 

necessity of assurance, and even appears to think 

it essential to saving faith. In this last I cannot 

agree with him ; but I am convinced we doubt when 

we ought not. Wherefore doubt? Is it not the 

truth of God that we doubt? Perhaps our sins 

are the cause. Well, cleave the closer to the Saviour ; 

we shall not fall away if he upholds us. Or, we are 

not sure that we have come to Christ. Then come 

now. To-day I am unable to attend the house of 

prayer ; but oh ! how sweet were my morning hours, 

when all the family were at church. Surely, Lord, 

thy dear servant who was lately here cried mightily 

unto thee for me, and thou hast heard his petitions. 

Present thou wast, even as if I had seen thee with 

me. I read the eighty-sixth and eighty-ninth 

and had opened a place of worship in his own garden outside of 
the city. But, such was the enmity to the Gospel on the part 
of the magistracy, that he was subjected to every sort of annoy- 
ance ; and, amongst other vexations, he had reason to fear that 
he would be compelled to serve as a soldier. In order to secure 
to him an ecclesiastical character, through the influence of Sir 
James Colquhoun, the University of Glasgow conferred on him 
a theological diploma. It answered the purpose, and the pastor 
of Pre l'Eveque was saved from enlistment under the protec- 
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Psalms. In the latter I read that ' in thy righteous- 
ness I am exalted/ The righteousness of God ! 
noble thought ! clothed with this, how perfect am I ! 
where can blemish be found ? I read that ' Thou, 
Lord, art my strength.' Then I shall never, never 
forsake thee, but go on from strength to strength. 
I read that ' Thou, Lord, art my defence.' Then 
evil cannot assail me. No, what I think evil is good ; 
God stands between me and all harm. Let that 
barrier be broken, if it be possible ! I read, ' The 
Holy One of Israel is my King, and help is laid on 
One that is mighty.' Oh ! what a King ! Dear Lord, 
thou art mighty, thou art holy ; I will fight under thy 
banner ; I will rejoice in thy name all the day long. 

"Edinburgh, Feb. 11, 1827. — Have once more 
heard good Dr. Marshman preach from Romans xii. 1. 
Had likewise the pleasure of meeting him at my 
brother's house last week. With my heart I gave 
him the right hand of fellowship. We may never 
meet again on earth, as he is going very soon again 
to India, to live and die in his Master's service there ; 
but I trust we shall meet in the multitude of the 
redeemed around the throne. My prayers ascend for 
him that he may be supported in whatever trials he 
is called to endure, and that after turning many to 
righteousness he may shine as the stars for ever and ever. 



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" Rossdhu, July 22, 1827. — A sweet day this, for 
though not in his temple, I saw the beauty of my 
King. I was prevented going from indisposition, 
which however did not prevent enjoying myself at 
home. I sat by the water's edge, and in my little 
summer-house, with the Bible ; and the loveliness of 
Jesus never appeared to me more apparent. How 
kind, how gracious his words ! I have been thinking 
a good deal on the doctrine of assurance, of which 
much is said since Dr. Malan's visit to Scotland. It 
appears to me plain that assurance is perfectly war- 
rantable in any sincere believer, and ought perhaps to 
be more pressed upon such, than is often done ; but 
I cannot exclude all who have it not. It is a grace, a 
gift, and is not given to all; and I do believe 
that saving faith exists without it. Does not our 
Lord himself speak of weak faith, accompanied by 
doubting? (Matt. xiv. 31.) I feel, however, that 
unbelief is sinful, and do indeed hope, and am confi- 
dent of being myself accepted, freely, for His name's 
sake. Mrs. Baillie and my sister M. are here. 

"Edinburgh, Feb. 3, 1828.— Mr. Tait's sermon 
was from these words, ' O Israel, thou shalt not be 
forgotten of me,' and it did me good. Oh, the 
height and the depth of the love of God ! I have not 
been forgotten of Him ; not forgotten in youth, not 



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forgotten in trial, in care, in sickness ; not forgotten 
when sinning, and forgetting God. Nor shall my 
little unimportant concerns be forgotten while I live ; 
nor shall I be forgotten to eternity ! Precious pro- 
mise ! for days of sore trial may come, but if God 
remembers his poor child they shall be mitigated. 
And none of my prayers are forgotten. Lord, I 
would acknowledge when I have myself forgotten 
them, thou hast often brought them to my recollec- 
tion by granting their petitions. 

" March 30. — In the evening went to my brother 
George's, where Mr. Mejanel discoursed on the type 
of the Brazen Serpent. We had a little conversation 
on prayer, and he is almost the only person I have 
found who seems completely to have my own views 
on the subject ; that ' all things whatsoever we ask in 
prayer, believing, we shall receive.' I know not what 
words to use stronger or clearer than the language of 
this delightful promise ; and why is it not credited ? 
Mr. M. said that real Christians are warranted to 
expect assuredly an answer to every prayer which 
they can offer without doubting of its success ; 
because this confidence is given by the Spirit of God ; 
because his Word declares that when they pray 
believing, they receive their petitions ; and because 
they will not be permitted by God thus to ask and 



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yet ask amiss. By many this would be thought pre- 
sumption or enthusiasm ; but it has long been my 
belief, founded on experience and the promises." 

Here we interrupt the Diary to make room for a 
letter written to the Rev. A. Westoby, of Emberton, 
Bucks. The man of God to whom it chiefly relates 
imparts to it a peculiar interest. 

" Bossdhu, Sept. 4, 1828. 

" Dear Sir, — I am happy to say that Mr. Rich- 
mond's ' Memoirs [ have at length arrived safely. I 
was anxious about them, feeling responsible to those 
who subscribed through me. As you asked my 
opinion of the work, I delayed writing till I had read 
it. I have been very much pleased, and I think 
edified, by the perusal of it. 

"It is well written throughout, and Mr. Rich- 
mond's character I have no doubt is justly portrayed. 
Indeed, from what I knew of him, I could see the 
man in every page, which led me to take a deeper 
interest in all that he said and did. He was blessed 
with a heart of no ordinary dimensions, which was 
his principal characteristic, and which, when sanctified 
by grace, made no ordinary Christian. 

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156 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

1 Memoir and Letter ' having been useful, is of course 
gratifying to me. It has been so, I have reason to 
hope, in very many instances. My introduction to 
Mr. Richmond, at Rossdhu House, when you were 
present, for the purpose of writing an account of her 
life, seems now like a curious dream, and is one of 
those unforeseen events which Providence is often 
bringing to pass for His own glory. 

" I cannot help noticing how much I was pleased 
with Mr. Grimshawe's observations on the Apocryphal 
question. Oh, that there was more of ' the dove-like 
spirit ' diffused among us ! To me it appears clear 
that our friends on this side of the Tweed are in the 
right, but I exceedingly lament the acrimonious spirit 
on both sides. 

" The Rev. Dr. Thomson of Edinburgh has, I 
think, made a noble stand for the diffusion of the 
pure Bible, and his name will probably be handed 
down to posterity in this connexion. What a pity 
that there should be anything to regret in his manner 
of urging that the Word of God should keep its 
exalted station, distinct and separated from all human 
composition ! He is in private life most amiable, and 
any heat of temper is, I am told, never seen at home. 

" The doubts Mr. Richmond seemed to experience, 
as he drew near his end, are likewise, I think, an 



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additional refutation of a doctrine on which a few, 
and but a few, of our northern clergy have lately 
insisted, viz., that assurance is a test of faith. If we 
exclude such a man as lie was, we shall make the 
boundaries of the Redeemer's kingdom narrow indeed. 
It is, however, certain that faith for the time is weak 
when doubts exist. I was reminded of a conversa- 
tion I heard between Mr. Proudfoot of Arrochar and 
Mr. Richmond. The fifth chapter of Romans had 
been read at family worship. Mr. P. asked Mr. R. 
what he would say to one who there was every reason 
to think was justified by faith, but who had not peace 
with God ? * I would search a little deeper,' said 
Mr. R. ' There must be a defect in faith, if it does 
not produce peace. Paith when in exercise always 
does.' The approach of death will, no doubt, lead us 
to sift the reality of our hopes to the foundation. 
May that foundation be Christ ! How true that most 
of us while we live are but ' half awake ! ' 
" My paper leaves me no room to say more. 

" I remain truly yours, 

" J. COLQUHOUN." 

" 18, Circus, Edinburgh, April 5, 1829. — This is 
the last Sabbath previous to my beloved Helen's 
leaving me. I feel strangely in the prospect of her 
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158 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

I think of the days that are past, her infant years, 
as well as those when she has been my sweet and 
cheerful companion. This marriage is the subject of 
my ardent prayer; therefore it is well, it is right. 
I know the Lord hears his poor ungrateful servant, 
and this completely satisfies me as to the result.* 

" Bossdhu, April 26.— My beloved H. and Mr. R. 
are now in London. They have been peculiarly on 
my mind to-day, and I have again and again prayed 
importunately for them. I rejoice in this ; for I know 
that prayer, real prayer, is heard; and, therefore, I 
believe that spiritual and eternal blessings await my 
children. I am happy to add that since my return 
home I have felt spiritually minded, which is life 
and peace. I feel confidence in God, and commit all 

* Lady Colquhoun's daughter was married to John Page 
Reade, Esq., of Stutton, Suffolk, April 9, 1829. Her fine fea- 
tures and commanding figure were the appropriate cognizance 
of a mind calm and elevated, noble in its gentleness and 
" unspotted from the world." Soon after the death of her 
endeared mother her own health declined ; and at Florence on 
the morning of Sabbath, October 17, 1852, she peacefully- 
departed to the presence of that Saviour whom not having 
seen she loved, — leaving to mourn their loss and to cherish 
her memory an affectionate husband and an only son. Her 
resting-place in the Protestant burying-ground at Florence is 
marked by a marble tablet, with a short inscription and the 
text, — " Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord." 



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my concerns into his hand, believing that He will 
manage for me, what might seem immaterial to a 
fellow- worm, but which is not beneath the notice of 
the Eternal. I expect to have more tokens of his 
faithfulness yet to write of. 

"Edinburgh, March 20, 1831.— I feel that I am 
not living for God solely and exclusively, as I ought 
to do, and as his people do. I feel a worldly, carnal 
spirit, and a sort of put-off religion which quiets 
the conscience, but which does me little good, and 
is not the radical principle influencing every thought. 
I know it is worldly care which has hurt me, and 
that Satan has found out a point in which I am 
indeed vulnerable, my anxiety respecting my family ; 
and he tempts me to forsake the fountain of living 
water and hew out broken cisterns, which can hold 
no water. 

" Bossdhu, June 12. — Another happy Sabbath 
spent at home. This being Bonhill sacrament there 
is no sermon at Luss. The influences of the Spirit 
were certainly visible this day in leading my heart 
to God. The character of Christ appeared to me in 
something of its genuine loveliness. I could pray 
with fervor, and feel what I read. Dr. Hamilton's 
' Mourner in Zion Comforted,' I found in many 
parts in unison with my own experience, and I read 



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it with pleasure. Thus, when God is pleased to 
breathe on these dry bones, they live. It may be 
needless to repeat that I am nothing, and can do 
nothing, but I am deeply sensible of the truth of 
it. My family having grown up, their various 
interests, and connexions, and plans have certainly 
led me in heart more into the world than I ever 
expected to be ; but the Lord is faithful ! He will 
find a method of escape, and surely I shall enter 
glory, shouting, ' Grace, grace' 

" Regency -square, Brighton, Nov. 27. — Last Lord's- 
day was little like the Sabbath to me. I was in the 
steam-vessel, and unable to sit up at all from sickness. 
But in my little berth I remembered my God, and was 
enabled to confide in Him. Some repairs necessary to 
the safety of the ship, which had encountered a storm 
in coming from London, rendered a delay of two 
days necessary, and thus I was compelled to be at 
sea on Sunday, which I had particularly planned to 
avoid. Our passage was perfectly safe, and my 
prayers respecting it all heard. Was one day in 
London. How affecting to see that place ! so many 
interesting years have elapsed since I was there 
before, and two of my dearest friends there, my 
much-loved sister and excellent nurse, Morris, are 
gone to glory. On my way here I saw Mr. Maitland, 



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of Clapliam ; — Oh ! how changed ! He is quite help- 
less from palsy ; but he is one of the Lord's people, 
and all is well. Nothing could be better ordered 
than everything has been respecting this journey. 
Sarah and James have accompanied me, and Sir 
James is to follow in January. Mr. Reade * and 
Helen we found well, and they are to be with us 
here. The Lord has fixed the bounds of our habita- 
tion in a good and cheerful house, and to crown all, 
my heart has been much with Him in prayer and 
praise. Went to St. James's, and heard an excellent 
sermon. — ' The name of the Lord is a strong tower.' 
What a tower of strength that name has been to me ! 
And shall it not continue to be so till death, in 
judgment, and throughout eternity ? 

" Jan. 1, 183:2. — Have again been twice at church, 
first in the Chapel Royal, where I saw their Majesties, 

and heard the Bishop of preach. I trust the 

truths of the Gospel may sometimes bless the 
Royal party, but certainly it was not so to-day. I 
felt interested in our Queen, who seems religiously 
inclined. 

" Jan. 15. — Have again listened with much plea- 
sure twice to Mr. Elliott. Sir James arrived here 
in perfect safety last week, and my brother George 
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is also with us. He gave a noble proof to-day of 
devotedness to the King of kings. When an invitation 
from the palace came for him to dine with our 
monarch on this sacred day, he did not hesitate a 
moment to send a refusal, which he did in most 
respectful and affectionate terms. How this will be 
taken it is impossible to say; but I rejoice that an 
opportunity has been afforded my brother of shewing 
his sincerity at the Court, and that I have a brother 
capable of acting thus. May the Almighty bless 
and preserve him ! " 

The incident to which the foregoing extract relates 
afforded great delight to Lady Colquhoun. Her 
brother was staying with her at the time, and as 
valued relics she preserved the card of invitation, 
dated, "Pavilion, Jan. 15, 1832," and a copy of the 
answer, which she sought leave to transcribe. And 
we are sure that Sir George Sinclair will forgive 
the publication of that letter if it contribute, 
however remotely, to a cause which he has much 
at heart. 

" Sire, — No one can value more highly than I do the 
honour and privilege of being at any time permitted 
to enjoy that social intercourse with which your 
Majesty has, on so many occasions, been pleased 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 163 

to indulge me for so many years. But I am fully 
aware with how much consideration your Majesty 
enters into the feelings and sympathizes with the 
wishes of those whom you honour with your friend- 
ship. I have for some time past been led to entertain 
very different notions from those which I once 
cherished as to the observance of this day, and sub- 
scribe fully to the views which the Church, and I 
may add, the Legislature, have laid down with respect 
to its importance. Encouraged by the latitude of 
discussion which your Majesty has so long and so 
kindly vouchsafed, I lately took the liberty, though in 
opposition to your Majesty's opinion, to maintain that 
not merely a part but the whole of this day should 
be devoted to those great purposes for which divine 
authority has set it apart. I may be permitted to 
add, from grateful experience, that this decision has 
its reward even here. I have found that God honors 
those who honor Him, and though encompassed with 
sin and infirmity, T can testify, that He is not an 
austere Master, that He has strength for all our 
weaknesses, indemnity for all our sacrifices, and 
consolation for all our troubles. 

" I feel bound, on principle of conscience, to deny 
myself, what is always one of my most valued grati- 
fications, that of paying my humble and most affec- 

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164 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

tionate respects this day, and must rest satisfied with 
renewing in my retirement those earnest supplications 
for your Majesty's health and happiness which are 
equally dictated by regard for the public welfare and 
by a thankfully cherished remembrance of much 
distinguished and unmerited kindness. 

" I have the honor," &c. 

The sequel was no less worthy of the King. Next 
morning, whilst they were seated round the breakfast 
table, a royal messenger arrived charged with an 
invitation to the Pavilion that evening. His Majesty 
made no allusion to the letter; but to show how 
perfectly he appreciated the motives of his guest, 
he went beyond even his usual urbanity and kind- 
ness ; and to the close of his reign no interruption 
occurred in a friendship equally honorable to the 
accomplished commoner and to the frank and warm- 
hearted monarch, — a circumstance to which Lady 
Colquhoun refers in the Journal of the following 
Sabbath : — 

" The manner in which my dear brother acted last 
Lord's-day turned out well, and much to the credit 
of the King, who asked him to dinner on Monday, 
and paid him marked attention. Thus, 'them that 
honor Him, God will honor.' " 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 165 

To every pious subject it must also be a source 
of lively satisfaction to know that in the Pavilion 
itself originated measures which have materially 
tended to promote the better observance of the 
Sabbath in Brighton. It is said that there were 
certain arrangements in the Royal household which 
undesignedly entailed a large amount of Sunday 
labor ; but when the facts were represented to Queen 
Adelaide, she immediately commanded that the 
orders in question should be given on Monday 
instead of Saturday as heretofore • and this act of 
Christian consideration has been extensively copied, to 
the great relief of many a laundress who formerly could 
not "remember the Sabbath-day to keep it holy." 
In unison with this tribute to the divine command 
was the injunction of our present Queen, forbidding 
the exhibition on the Lord's-day, of the state-apart- 
ments at Windsor Castle ; an act which, along with 
Her Majesty's patronage of the Sabbath-observance 
movement among the working classes, has given a 
much-loved Sovereign an additional claim to the 
gratitude and attachment of a Christian people. 

And here we may notice the loyalty of Lady 
Colquhoun's religion. She had no ambition to 
" dwell in kings' houses," and notwithstanding the 
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166 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

successive sovereigns, her biographer is not sure that 
she was ever presented at Court. And when on the 
occasion of the Royal visit to Edinburgh in 1822, her 
husband went to do homage to George IV., from 
aversion to scenes of gaiety and grandeur she forbore 
to accompany him. But frequent allusions in her 
diary show how eagerly she hailed every indication 
of piety in high places, and how mindful she was 
to make intercession for kings and all in authority. 
She had links of attachment to the throne which gave 
to her loyalty a sentiment more affectionate than the 
duteous feeling of an ordinary subject ; and it would 
be well for the land if the same personal and 
prayerful interest in its rulers were shared by a 
larger portion of the religious community. 

"London, March 25, 1832.— We returned here 
last night, after spending a few days pleasantly at Mr. 
Puller Maitland's. We are on our way to Stutton, 
where we intend being to-morrow. At Kingston I 
went with Miss Massie and saw my beloved sister's 
grave; it is in a pretty and peaceful resting-place. 
The chancel of the church where she is laid is 
venerable and very spacious ; there she will arise at 
the resurrection of the just. I have felt animated 
and invigorated by intercourse with the pious. Oh 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 167 

for grace to follow the footsteps of the flock ! To-day 
I again had the privilege of hearing Mr. Howells, and 
having a pencil I wrote down a few of his striking 
observations. From the first lesson for the day 
(Gen. xxxix.) he noticed the superiority which God's 
people may acquire over temptation ; that our best 
security from it is in flight ; that the reality of our 
principles is generally in some way or other tried; 
and that we may learn from this chapter tenderness 
to delinquents, which Potiphar showed to Joseph, 
believing him guilty. The second lesson was in John 
xii. ; from which he observed that our Lord's humilia- 
tion was real, and not like man's, who is often proud 
of it; that Christ's death was as necessary for our 
salvation as that wheat must be put into the ground 
before it springs again ; that the beauty of God is 
holiness, and how can we hope to attain beauty in 
anything else? The sermon was from Jeremiah 
xxxii. 40. He said, God puts his fear in the heart 
and keeps it there. The will of God is all holy and 
good, and when we shall know all his counsel we shall 
rejoice in it for ever. His fear is in the believer's heart ; 
his whole heart is changed to love what God loves. 
He has motives to fear and love God that angels have 
not. They were not redeemed from sin and saved by 
Christ's death as he is. Believers fear God from his 



168 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

moral perfections. They fear Him in his providence. 
Have we then seen the beauty of God in his holi- 
ness ? Have we experienced the pleasure of religion ? 
And do we rejoice in the appointments of God? 
He concluded thus : God appoints everything for 
me ; I know it is best for me ; I have nothing to do 
with it, but rest satisfied with his will. Everything 
is welcome that God wills. I shall rejoice in it 
hereafter, and I will rejoice in it now. I need have 
no anxiety, for all is arranged by infinite wisdom, and 
by my Father. 

" Bossdhu, June 10, 1832.— There is again no 
sermon in this parish, and again I am spending the 
day happily and profitably. Enjoyed much trust and 
confidence in prayer. Read over a year or two of this 
book,- — the latter part of it ; and with thankfulness and 
pleasure I trace that religion has advanced during the 
last twelve months. Before this there was a season of 
declension. I know well by whose power the good 
seed is preserved ; and I thank God and take courage. 
I was much gratified to observe more attention to 
religious reading in my family than common. I went 
out with the Bible and read at the side of the lake, 
with much pleasure, the last chapter of St. Luke. I 
have also satisfaction in the instruction of my maids, 
who were all attentive and interested. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 169 

" Sept. 16, 1832. — I hope I continue in a frame 
of mind more like a Christian, than I sometimes 
experience, but I am far from meaning that any high 
degree of devotional feeling is my attainment. My 
best days are thus spent; — in prayer I feel that I 
address an exalted Friend, who, I believe, listens to 
and answers my supplications. I feel a greater sense 
of the reality of the being and presence of God. I 
go from prayer, like Hannah, ' with my countenance 
no more sad/ I feel a greater solicitude that myself 
and others should do the will of God. I feel a 
greater satisfaction in thinking of God and a future 
state, and I am more reconciled to the thoughts of 
leaving the world. And then all seems bright and 
cheering, for I commit my present and future con- 
cerns to the guidance of Almighty power and wisdom. 
Such as this, is the most I know of experimental 
religion ; ecstasies or any rapturous emotions were 
never mine. Perfect, Lord, that which concerneth 
me ! 

"Leamington, Boy at Hotel, March 3, 1833. — I 
have been here more than a week, and have reason 
to bless God for many things regarding my removal 
from home, and the state of health in which I found 
my dear Helen. We are comfortably settled here, 
and I commit my way to the Lord, trusting in him. 



170 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

My religious feeling has been very low of late, but 
seems to revive in some degree to-day. I have not 
been able to attend public worship, having caught a 
bad cold on the journey. 

" March 17. — I certainly have to lament (yet how 
little, in truth, do I feel it !) that religion is at a very 
low ebb with me at present. I have been twice at 
church to-day, and in the morning heard a scriptural 
sermon from Mr. Pope ; but I have little feeling of 
the truths of the Gospel. In the evening I had the 
chambermaids of the Hotel up, as I had last Lord's- 
day, to read and explain to them from the Bible, 
and I was interested and did my best to make the 
way of salvation plain to them. I have also been 
distributing tracts here." 

It would be a disastrous winter which should 
surprise us in midsummer; but the great Creator 
has a way of bringing it so gently on that the world 
is ready for its arrival, and all the better for its visit. 
The day shortens ; the forest seres ; and the world 
is warned. The air cools ; the fervors of the solstice 
are forgotten, and before the frost appears the world 
is acclimatized. And by a process somewhat similar, 
when grief is coming our Heavenly Father often fore- 
warns and fortifies his children. So was it with the 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 171 

subject of this biography. In her serene and happy- 
domestic life the summer was now past and the 
harvest ending ; but God forewarned her. She saw 
with steps progressive, though not startling, that 
disease advancing which was to summon from beside 
her the husband of her youth ; and the impression of 
approaching widowhood was strengthened by a dream 
which so fastened in her memory that she could not 
shake it out. But she had a still better preparation. 
There is no fence against the storm so effectual as 
vigorous health and a pulse firmly bounding; and 
God gave her the preparation of soul-prosperity. 
The last quotation from her journal complains of 
languor ; the next extracts will show how delectation 
and trust in God revived, and how by beneficent 
labors she was regaining spiritual tone and elasticity. 
Nor, in connexion with the sequel, will the reader 
fail to observe that special Providence which called 
her attention so seasonably to the treatise of the good 
old Puritan. 

" Bossdhu, April 28. — When thinking over the 
ways of Providence, I saw in a bookseller's shop 
Havel's ' Divine Conduct of Providence.' Struck with 
the title I bought it. Every word came home to my 
heart and to my experience. Oh let me praise the 
Lord for wonderful compassion to a poor sinful worm ! 



172 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

I feel safe in his everlasting arms, and in believing 
that He will perform all things for me. 

" May 5. — To-day I am at home, having a cold, or 
probably influenza, which is all over the kingdom at 
present. I bless God that my frame of mind, 
although not particularly lively in religious duty, is 
settled, calm, and not without interest in the subject. 
I have been enabled to pray in reality and to commit 
every concern to God, and to view Him ordering all 
my little affairs as if there were no other being to 
care for in the universe. It is thus only that we 
can bring it home to our hearts that the great 
God careth for us; for we are apt to imagine that, 
like man, He cannot manage so much at once, and 
will be forgetful of what is infinitely interesting to 
his creatures. Havel's book on Providence con- 
tinues to charm me, being completely in unison with 
all my experience. All that he says I have known 
and felt. 

" June 2. — Since writing the above I have been in 
Edinburgh, with Sir James. His medical attendant 
there (Dr. Wood) has prescribed various remedies, 
but evidently thinks seriously of his complaints. O 
Lord, fit and prepare him and me for whatever may 
be thy will respecting him. I feel assured that God 
is ordering everything for the very best as regards 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 173 

him ; and one thing gives me the greatest pleasure, 
— the religious impressions my dear husband seems 
to feel. 

" July 30. — I was at church and taught the school. 
Oh ! for ever blessed be the Lord ! I now feel as if 
on a rock, as if God will assuredly so manage every 
concern for good that no evil shall ever befal me. I 
do commit my way to Him and trust also in Him. 
The children whom I teach at the school appear 
interested, and I am encouraged to hope for a 
spiritual blessing to them. Amen. 

" October 27.— To-day I took leave of the Sabbath- 
school, the days being too short to admit of teaching 
it. I spoke to the girls as impressively as I could, 
and was happy to observe the greatest interest in 
most of them. The regular scholars, after a short 
vacation, will meet for religious instruction on 
Mondays. I rejoiced this Sabbath in the Lord, 
who performeth all things for me, and in whom I 
am complete. Nothing beside Him have I to trust 
to for temporal or spiritual benefits, — yet what more 
would I desire than a Divine Redeemer ? 

"Jan. 12, 1834. — Have heard of the death of my 
dear Christian sister-in-law, Mrs. Campbell, of Stone- 
field. She died at Pau, full of peace and hope. She 
will be an irreparable loss to her family, and a real 



174 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

loss to me. May I be enabled to follow her steps, 
for they lead to glory. 

"Edinburgh, April 6. — Was much gratified last 
week by finding that my little work, ' Impressions of 
the Heart/ is completely sold off and out of print, 
and that another edition is called for. To me it is 
a very pleasing thought that it is now in the hands of 
so many. I feel a hope that the Lord will use me for 
his glory. I thank God and take courage in the 
prosecution of the work I am now writing. Neither 
will be published till next winter, as this town will 
soon empty now. 

" Rossdhu, Jpril 20. — Once more settled in our 
beautiful abode, where nature, or rather nature's 
God, has done so much to charm the eye. I have 
much reason for gratitude that my dear husband has 
been so much benefited by medical advice while in 
Edinburgh. We have all returned in prosperous 
circumstances ; but I am detained at home to-day 
by a rheumatic pain in the face, which has been 
troublesome for more than a week. This forenoon 
it is easier : and, along with the Bible, I have been 
reading NefPs interesting ' Memoir.' Have felt 
rather stupid and sleepy; but our merciful 
High Priest is touched with a feeling of our 
infirmities. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 175 

"May 18. — I was enlivened in religions respects 
last week by a visit, for a single night, from good 
Dr. Malan, of Geneva. It is now eight years since 
he was here before ; and although I was not so mnch 
impressed by his conversation as I then was, still 
I think I was sensibly benefited by it. I am led 
at present to live nearer to God, with a more simple 
dependence npon Him for everything. This day I 
was more spiritually minded than last Sabbath, and 
employed myself as usual. 

"Dec. 7. — Experienced real joy this morning in 
considering that some works of mercy I lately per- 
formed are acceptable and pleasing to God. This 
was no self-righteous feeling; for I well know with 
how much sin all I do is mingled: but it was 
delight in thinking I had pleased my best Friend. 
I continue happy in communion with Him, and 
trusting in his grace. 

"May 3, 1835.— My kind Christian friend, Dr. 
Hamilton, of Strathblane, is, alas ! no more. He 
died, after a short illness, a fortnight ago. Last week 
I paid my first visit to the prison at Dumbarton. I 
have undertaken to superintend the female prisoners. 
May a blessing rest on my poor endeavours ! " 

It was by the excellent Mrs. Fry that Lady Col- 



176 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

quhoun was first enlisted in the arduous business of 
prison-visitation. In a letter written to Mrs. Reade, 
about this period, she alludes to these labors : — 

" I was very much interested in the poor depraved 
boy, and have succeeded in obtaining permission 
to have him taught to read, about which I was very 
anxious, as in this way access would be got to his 
mind. And much to my gratification I have got a 
very fit person to teach him. He is a schoolmaster 
in the place, and enters zealously into the business. 
He went to see his scholar when I was there, and 
said he had never met with such deplorable ignorance. 
The youth had never seen a Bible, had never heard 
of a God, excepting to hear his name taken in vain, 
and had never entered a church. His master is to 
strive to instruct him in religion along with the 
A, B, C. I also visited the poor woman the day 
before she was liberated. She received me with great 
pleasure, said she ' had been through the book I gave 
her, three times/ and expressed much gratitude for 
some tracts I left with her. I asked if she would read 
them. ' Yes, ma'am, that I will,' said she, ' and take 
them wi' me wherever I go.' She is poor ; and after 
thinking whether I ought to give her money or not, 
as she is rather too covetous ! I ventured to give her 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 177 

half-a-crown, thinking she might have nothing when 
she left the prison. This quite overcame her, and she 
only said, ' Ma'am, I do not deserve it/ with tears in 
her eyes." 

" July 12. — I have seen much since last I wrote 
here," the journal resumes, " having been with Sir 
James and Sarah in Ireland. I spent two Sabbaths 
very happily there, — the first in Dublin, where I 
heard Mr. Matthias, of Bethesda Chapel, preach, 
and Mr. Stewart, of Union Chapel, both dear 
servants of God. The sermon of the latter, on 
the influences of the Spirit, came home to my 
heart; and the whole service which was in the 
Presbyterian form seemed to do me good. The 
next Sabbath we were at Cushendall, on our way to 
the Giant's Causeway, — a sweet little village, and 
where there is a Gospel ministry. I enjoyed the 
whole day, and my heart seemed alive and happy. 
I distributed some tracts in poor Ireland, which were 
gladly received, even by the Catholics. On our 
return to Belfast, I was gratified to meet some 
apparently very serious Christians, in a shop of the 

name of M' . One of the sisters gave me a 

phial of their lavender water as a remembrance. 

" Sept. 13. — Have been in Edinburgh, where my 
dear husband's health called me. He consulted 



178 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

Dr. Abercrombie and Dr. Wood. The opinion of 
both seems to be, that his complaints are alarming. 
I have long thought so. Oh ! may the Almighty 
fit him for death, if such is His will, and give 
me strength of body and mind for whatever scenes 
await me. 

" Sept. 20. — My dear Sir James having been worse 
than usual, we have fixed on going to Edinburgh 
to reside on Tuesday next. This is, therefore, my 
last Sabbath here for the present ; and, alas ! it 
appears to me probable that the term when I 
inhabited this retired and beautiful abode is now 
about to end. If so, the Almighty will again fix the 
bounds of my habitation, and I shall be where it 
is best I should. I have endeavoured to call my 
beloved husband's attention to what I conceive to be 
his real state, and I have the heartfelt satisfaction to 
see him anxious to prepare for life or death. To-day 
I remained at home with him. Everything regard- 
ing our removal to Edinburgh seems providentially 
arranged. My God continues good. 

" 110, Princes-street, Edinburgh, Sept. 27. — We 
have been here for some days, and all has been 
mercifully ordered respecting our removal. My dear 
husband is, on the whole, better, and has been able 
to-day to attend in a small chapel in Young-street, 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 179 

where we have got seats, and where a truly pious 
young man, of the name of Moody, preaches. I 
have felt rather enlivened from his preaching and 
prayers, for I have been dull and dead in a great 
measure to spiritual things. One thought has 
cheered me, — that it appears to me I could give up 
everything here for God, were I called to it, and did 
I see Him as He is. I think I shall soon require all 
the consolation the Gospel affords, and I shall not 
need without enjoying it. He who has brought me 
hitherto, and supported me in every emergency, will 
continue to do so to the end. 

" Sunday, Nov. 1 . — Since writing here this day 
fortnight, there is no very material change in my dear 
charge. I am still passing through the dark scene of 
my nearest earthly relation's death, or rather its 
forerunners. He has talked to me frequently of his 
religious hopes. He lies like a little child at the 
foot of the cross. He says he is willing to be saved 
in Christ's own way, and to serve God to all eternity, 
and to cast his crown at the foot of the Lamb, as 
humbly as any in heaven. I have always prayed, at 
least to see him die in the Lord, and trust my 
merciful, forgiving Saviour has received him into the 
number of his own. This is the sacrament Sabbath 
here. I am unable to leave Sir James long, but 

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180 LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 

mean to attend a table service in St. George's, and 
perhaps the evening sermon. 

" Stk. — I am now at the \ post of observation, 
darker every hour.' Since last Sabbath my beloved 
husband has visibly declined. To-day and yesterday 
he has spent in bed, and I have been unable to leave 
him to attend the house of God. He enters on no 
subject of conversation now. The only one that 
seems to interest him is religion, and he will lift his 
hand in supplication when I have finished praying 
with him. 

"\Wi. — Still my nearest earthly relative lives, and 
is better in body than last Sabbath. I read to him a 
few verses of the Bible from time to time, to which 
he listens with interest. He sat up several times 
to-day. I was able to attend Mr. Moody's chapel in 
the afternoon. I feel safe in Almighty care and 
protection. My temporal mercies overflow. I have 
everything I can want for myself and Sir James ; 
and I trust that every step regarding us both is 
ordered for good. 

"Jan. 3, 1836. — This new year has come mourn- 
fully in to me, — my father just dead, my husband 
without hope of recovery ! But still the Lord liveth ! 
Blessed, said the Psalmist, be my Hock ! God is 
indeed a Befuge from the storm. O that I could 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOITN. 181 

lean more on a Foundation so sure ! There is no risk 
that it will totter, or fail nie. 

" 24it/i. — Still my dear Sir James lives. He is the 
shadow of what he was. His medical attendants 
give me no hope that he will long survive. Perhaps 
ere this hallowed day returns, he may be gone to the 
house appointed for all living, and his spirit may be 
rejoicing among the blessed. I wait the sovereign 
will of my Lord, and believe that He is doing well. 
Last night, in reading a sermon of my late worthy 
pastor, Dr. Buchanan, I was reminded of his prac- 
tical piety; and the beauty of the Gospel precepts 
captivated me. I remembered former days, when the 
purity of the lessons of God's Word was so much 
my delight. I felt as if I had lost ground, and 
earnestly prayed to grow and shine in universal 
holiness." 

Mournfully passed that long winter; nor were 
their toils who watched over the sufferer cheered by 
any hope of recovery. And to affection it made the 
trial greater that the mental faculties at last partook 
of the body's extreme exhaustion, and left little 
power of intercourse. But to Lady Colquhoun it 
was a ceaseless comfort, and it helped to inspire her 
fervent prayers, that up to the last hour of conscious- 



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LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 



ness her beloved husband listened with meek earnest- 
ness to every portion of Scripture which she read, 
and joined devoutly in every petition offered in his 
hearing; whilst in prospect of his coming change, 
he uniformly declared that the Saviour was his only 
hope. During these silent watchings, word was 
brought that her venerable father was laid aside from 
his long and patriotic labors ; and, throughout his 
brief decline, Sir James found a melancholy source of 
interest in the communications which daily went and 
came betwixt their sick-rooms. 

On the 21st of December Lady Colquhoun spent 
some time with her father, and in the course of con- 
versation he expressed a wish that she would affix 
her name to her publications. Two hours afterwards 
the tidings of his death gave touching import to the 
interview, and added to the request the solemnity of 
a dying charge. Sir John was gathered to his fathers 
from the midst of a hale old age and its cheerful 
occupations ; and in a few weeks some of the 
mourners who encircled his grave in Holyrood 
Chapel were called to join the sable procession which, 
up the Vale of Leven > and through the solemnized 
hamlets, conveyed to the ancestral cemetery the dust 
of his son-in-law, As it passed, one aged clansman 
was propped up in bed, and when he saw the hearse 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 183 

containing the lifeless form of his much-loved land- 
lord, the old man fainted away ; and everywhere was 
manifested the emotion of a people reverential to old 
lineage, and grateful to the proprietor whom constant 
residence had converted into their friend and pro- 
tector. It was a fine winter's day, and the sunshine 
had suspended the frost, when, round the old 
" chapel," were congregated the tenantry of Luss, 
Row, and Arrochar, as well as many friends, and the 
gentlemen of the county, and, borne on the shoulders 
of three Grants and three Colquhouns, the coffin was 
lowered into its appropriate resting-place.* Soon 
after, the sanctuary where so many generations sleep 
was set in order, and in its roofless solitude, or 
beneath the shadow of its coeval evergreens, the 
widowed survivor often lingered ; and there she often 
mused on the day when, in the rising of His re- 
deemed, the Saviour shall complete His own resur- 
rection, and consummate their felicity. 

The following is the passage in the journal which 

* Sir John Sinclair died Dec. 21, 1835, aged eighty-one. 
Sir James Colquhoun died Feb. 3, 1836, aged sixty-one. The 
usage above mentioned has obtained since the time of Sir 
James Grant. He married Anne Colquhoun, heiress of Luss. 
Their eldest son succeeded to the Grant estate, and was an 
ancestor of the Earl of Seafield ; their second son succeeded 
to the estate and baronetage of Colquhoun. 



184 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

records this most solemn occurrence in her personal 
history : — 

" Feb. 7, 1836. — At length my fears are realized! 
He to whom I was related by the nearest earthly tie, 
departed this life on Wednesday the 3d, and has left 
me to mourn his loss. I was indeed long prepared for 
the blow ; yet nature will feel, nor are we forbidden 
to weep. I dread being more sensible to the afflic- 
tion hereafter, as there is a bustle incident to such a 
time which has a tendency to divert the mind, and, 
alas ! to rob us of the improvement we might derive 
from it. Apparently my beloved husband suffered 
for fourteen hours before rather severely; but his 
medical attendants assured me that from want of 
consciousness he was not sensible of pain. Yesterday 
the dear remains were deposited in the coffin ; I loved 
to look at them, and feel grieved that they must be 
removed from my care. The key of the room I 
kept, and many times I had looked on the coun- 
tenance, which fully retained the likeness, and was 
placid and serene. O Lord, I would trust that he 
is justified freely by thy grace, that he is accepted 
without money and without price. This was all his 
hope and all his desire. And now be to me a 
husband, a father, a sanctifier, a strong tower to 






LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 185 

which I may continually resort. All my hope centres 
in thee, my God, my all ! " 

It was during this sad and anxious winter that the 
new edition of her " Impressions " was published, as 
well as a companion-volume, entitled " The Kingdom 
of God." In obedience to both her father and 
husband she now overcame her natural sensitiveness 
and placed her name on the title-page ; and there can 
be no doubt that this authentication added weight 
and interest to works which the religious community 
had already learned to appreciate. How little of 
literary vanity mingled with what was truly a 
Christian sacrifice may be seen from the following 
extract : — 

" Jan. 10, 1836. — Last week I did what I never 
expected to do. I gave my name to the public as 
the authoress of my books ! Not two hours before 
he died, my father requested that I should do so, and 
my dear husband always wished it; so that, from 
concurring circumstances, I have thought it the will 
of God. And now, O my God ! for thy honor and 
the good of men I have made some sacrifice ; there- 
fore in mercy use my works to promote these glorious 
purposes." 



186 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

Amidst many communications received from sym- 
pathizing friends during that sorrowful spring, none 
was more welcome than the letter of her true-hearted 
correspondent in Canada, Mrs. Charles Scott. It is 
dated from the " Cottage of the Palls, U. C, April 
25, 1836:— 

" Need I tell you with what deep interest I read 
your letter from Edinburgh, my very dear Lady 
Colquhoun. It was ]ong on the way, but the sight 
of your handwriting gladdened my heart in this 
distant land, when it did arrive. It tells me of 
affliction, of the Lord's hand being at work, but 
shows me, at the same time, a mind resting on the 
Rock of Ages, a heart supported by the everlasting 
arms, and much, very much sweetness mingled in the 
cup administered by the hand of Love. I cannot 
tell you, dear Lady C, how much I long for further 
accounts of you. Your venerable father's death 
I had seen an account of in the newspapers. 
But your threatened affliction in Sir James's 
illness I had not heard of, and do not now know 
if it may have pleased our Lord to give an unex- 
pected turn to his illness, or if you are a ' widow 
indeed.' If such is the case, I have not the slightest 
doubt that you continue to find our faithful God 



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very present with you, leading you to experience 
the fulness of many promises, which before you 
read and believed, but had no opportunity experi- 
mentally to prove. He who has been precious 
to you, and present with you so long, who gave 
you quietness of soul in the midst of outward 
trouble, will, I doubt not, continue unceasingly 
so to the end. This I know, but yet I long 
much to hear particulars from yourself. What a 
strong foundation the Christian stands upon, for 
time, as well as for eternity ! God in Christ 
includes all that can be desired; and though our 
sins may appear deeper and darker each year 
that passes over, yet it does not seem to depress, 
but to raise the heart in increased thankfulness 
to Him who pardons them all, who ' blots out, 
as a thick cloud, our transgressions, and as a cloud 
our sins/ .... This situation, so far as temporal 
matters are concerned, is most desirable for a 
summer residence. Nothing can exceed the gran- 
deur of the Palls, and no pen could give the 
least idea of them. We are within about ten 
minutes' walk of the upper bank, and the view 
from this cottage is very beautiful ! the rapids of 
the Niagara river just above the Palls, dashing 
on in continued foam, till lost in the dense body 



188 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

of spray, generally ascending from the Falls. The 
winter has been the most severe experienced for 
twenty years, the thermometer varying from zero to 
16° below it. Extremely unpleasant such cold is to 
the feeling, but it has pleased God to continue us all 
in good health." 



CHAPTER V. 

FORGETTING THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE BEHIND, AND REACHING 
FORTH UNTO THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE BEFORE, I PRESS 
TOWARD THE MARK FOR THE PRIZE OF THE HIGH CALLING 
OF GOD IN CHRIST JESUS. — PHILIPPIANS HI. 13, 14. 



Since the dear hour that brought me to thy foot, 

And cut up all my follies by the root, 

I never trusted in an arm bat thine, 

Nor hoped but in thy righteousness divine. 

My prayers and alms, — 

Forgive their evil, and accept their good ; 

I cast them at thy feet — my only plea 

Is what it was, dependence upon thee : 

While struggling in the vale of tears below, 

That never fail'd, nor shall it fail me now. 

COWPER'S " TRUTH. 



Gently as Lady Colquhoun woke up to her bereave- 
ment, and notwithstanding the redoubled assiduities 
of an affectionate family, the desolate reality some- 
times overpowered her; and, though still able to 
regard it as her home, her return to Rossdhu next 
spring revived in all its anguish the woful conscious- 
ness of widowhood. And it was many a day before 
the bright landscape shone again through that thick 
crape in which grief had veiled it. Long afterwards 
we find her recording, — " I feel the loss of my very 
dear husband's society more than I did shortly after 
his death. To me there is an inexpressible blank 
in this house, and I would gladly leave it. However, 
I ought to be thankful for the many mercies which 
still surround me, and should cast my care on my 
covenant God, believing that He does right." Nor 
did her covenant God forsake her. Mournfully 
released from her long ministrations in the sick-room, 



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and no longer called to discharge those multifarious 
duties which she had so thoroughly and gracefully 
fulfilled, " her Maker was her husband/' and she gave 
herself to the Lord's work with new consecration. In 
Sept. of that year she writes to her married daughter: — 

" I should have particularly liked to be more alone 
when Mr. Moody was here; but who knows but a 
blessing might be sent to others through his visit? 
He came very opportunely to help me about my 
favorite plan — the chapel at Helensburgh. Mr. M. 
got quite interested in the subject, and in Glas- 
gow went to different influential clergymen to 
state the matter to them. They said, so liberal 
a proposal should never be rejected, though it 
were only to set an example to other landed pro- 
prietors ; and one said that for a long time he had 
heard of nothing which gave him so great pleasure. 
So I trust yet to make it out. Another church also 
interests me much at present. One of James's, in 

Caithness (W n), has become vacant. The son 

of the late incumbent seems so very superior a young 
man, that however much I am opposed to this 
* hereditary succession,' I think he will be the minis- 
ter. J. appears to leave it entirely to me to decide, 
and, thanks be to God for so great a blessing, as the 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 193 

power of placing in this parish a devoted pastor. 
This is a long story abont churches ; bat, oh, dear 
H., my heart is full of the subject. The interest I 
feel in religion deepens, and fain would I impart 
somewhat of it to those who are dear to me. I feel 
that the time to improve for this purpose is short ; 
that ' the night cometh when no man can work ;' and 
earnestly do I pray that my H. may be brought to the 
foot of the cross, there to seek and to find that satis- 
faction of spirit which she will find in nothing else." 

Helensburgh is a much-frequented watering-place 
on the estuary of the Clyde, and within the Luss 
estate ; and the scheme for providing it with a chapel 
of its own was the first of several Church- extension 
movements to which Lady Colquhoun largely con- 
tributed. The chapel of her Edinburgh pastor, Mr. 
Moody, was another, and though these erections were 
soon forfeited to a very different ministry from that 
which the pious donors contemplated — nowise dis- 
heartened, with the new emergency she redoubled 
her munificence ; and after this she was so impressed 
with the spiritual destitution of overgrown towns and 
manufacturing villages, that it became a ruling 
object in her life to provide more Christian teachers 
and more sanctuaries. Like the father of church- 



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builders,* she could not ' give sleep to her eyes/ till she 
' found out habitations for the mighty God ; ' and, like 
the projector of the temple, her devout intentions and 
se]f-denying gifts were requited with soul-prosperity. 

In her Sabbath-school she now formed an adult 
class, and adopted a system, which she thus announces 
to Mrs. Reade ■ — 

" I have begun a new plan at our school on Sun- 
days — a class for grown-up girls. They commit 
nothing to memory, but I explain the Bible and 
Catechism. I adopted it in consequence of seeing 
Mr. Moody's on Monday evenings. The class is 
flourishing and always increasing. Several old people 
attend regularly, and I hope to have more. My own 
maids also asked leave to go ; so, with the children, I 
have a pretty large congregation, and it needs some 
nerve. But I hope to be enabled to go on, and I 
hear it is much Kked. May God send a blessing ! " 

These " Horse Sabbaticse " were not only very 
popular, but became extremely useful. During the 
week, her Ladyship studied with much care the 
passage which she intended to explain, and exerted 
herself in finding anecdotes and illustrations which 
might render it more interesting and memorable. 
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Her manner was full of calm benevolence and mild 
persuasion ; and whatever nervousness she might feel, 
her address was so fluent, natural, and dignified, that 
the thoughts of the audience were solely directed to 
the subject. In unison with that devout and holy life 
which they all knew that their kind instructor led, 
these exhortations were singularly impressive. On a 
dying bed more than one of her young hearers gave 
evidence of having been by this means brought to 
the Saviour; and from the grateful tenderness in 
which many of the survivors hold their teacher's 
memory, it may be hoped that all her " works " have 
not yet " followed " her. It is to these Sabbath- 
evening exercises that the following entries in her 
Journal refer : — 

" Bossdhu, July 30, 1837. — My Sabbaths are now 
much occupied in preparing to address my class, 
which I do at some length. Every week it has 
increased, and though we had two additional benches 
to-day, there was scarcely room enough for them. I 
am much encouraged, and this morning prayed so 
earnestly for a blessing, that I feel confident it shall 
be given. Earnest prayer is a gift, and is bestowed 
when God designs to hear. I always feel fagged in 
the evening afterwards, and can do little. 

o 2 



196 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

" August 6. — Being Arrochar sacrament, no sermon 
at Luss. I was, as usual, occupied with the school. 
There were fewer this evening, as many of them had 
gone to Arrochar. My God was present in prayer 
at night. Last week my son James was elected 
Member for the county. John and his family leave 
us to-morrow. 

" Sept. 3. — Have little to say to-day but that I 
was much gratified by a very large attendance at the 
school. There was scarcely room for any more, and 
there must have been about sixty present. I likewise 
observe with great pleasure the appearance of interest 
in some who attend ■ in one or two I think I can 
scarcely be mistaken. Have been much assisted in 
preparation for my class, and, at the time, in speaking 
to them and in prayer. To-night feel inspirited, yet 
cannot say that devotional feeling is strong. 

" 17. — Lady Sinclair, and Diana and Catherine are 
here. They went with me to the school and appeared 
much pleased. The children proved a number of 
doctrines very well. 

" October 8. — Have prayed very earnestly to-day, 
and with great pleasure have read the ' Life of 
Brainerd.' At the school had a good attendance. 
Went to bed joyful, the words, ' He that believeth 
on the Son hath everlasting life,' being delightfully 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 197 

impressed on my mind. The freeness of redemption 
and the simplicity of believing came to me with clear- 
ness, so that I could not but say, I do believe, I have 
everlasting life. 

" 15. — Penitence was in exercise this morning. 
It was the last day of my class, which I have been 
enabled to continue for four months without a Sab- 
bath's intermission. Now it darkens too soon after 
church to admit of its being kept up any longer. A 
great many were present. I felt affected in speaking 
to them, and thought they appeared so too. Lord, 
bless this attempt to save souls and glorify thy name ! 
It is a pleasure to me to think it has been made, and 
God has wonderfully assisted me." 

Should any one be moved by this example to make 
an effort in his own locality, he may find instruction 
in her Ladyship's procedure, as well as an incentive 
in her Ladyship's success. Allowing something for 
the rank, and something more for the talent of the 
teacher, her usefulness was mainly owing to her 
affection, her pray erf ulness, her diligence, and her 
hopefulness. She loved her humble neighbours, and 
instead of coming forth to dispense a weekly lecture 
or reproof, she re-appeared amongst them from week 
to week, with the law of kindness on her lips and 



198 LIRE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

cordiality in every feature, and in each earnest state- 
ment and solemn entreaty they recognised their 
friend and well-wisher. But before she came to 
them she had been to God, and upon her labor 
of love she had implored her Heavenly Father's 
blessing. And, then, to show that her prayers were 
sincere and sanguine, she grudged no labor, and she 
betrayed no gloom. Her assiduous preparation, and 
her cheerful, encouraging address, were the natural 
sequel to fervent and believing petitions. " In tes- 
timony of desire and assurance to be heard, she had 
said, Amen ■"* but she not only said it in the closet, 
she lived it throughout the day. Her diligent study 
of the subject was a prolonged Amen in the ear of 
God, and showed how desirous was her prayer ; her 
radiant and expectant look was to her little congrega- 
tion a visible Amen, and told them how assured she 
was that God had heard her, and how hopeful she 
was that God had mercy in reserve for them. And 
we know no other path to eminent usefulness, except 
like perseverance in affectionate industry and hopeful 
prayer. Perhaps, dear reader, you are disappointed 
by some previous failure. Once on a time you 
gathered a few poor people, or an adult class, 
into a cottage or the servants 5 hall ; but it was with 
* Westminster " Shorter Catechism," Q, 107. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 199 

difficulty you filled up the hour, and next evening, 
instead of a double attendance, only nine of the 
dozen returned; and instead of multiplying to fifty 
or sixty, as in the present case, in six weeks the last 
straggler had stolen away. Nor can you blame 
yourself; for your motive was good, and you prayed 
for a blessing. True; but allow us respectfully to 
ask, What was your style of address ? Was it kind 
and endearing ? or was it not rather magisterial, 
preceptive, reprimanding? The eloquence which at 
once wins and commands unlettered hearers, is like 
His whom " the common people heard so gladly," — 
it is the sympathetic effusion of a superior nature ; 
the utterance of a mind so elevated that it need take 
no thought for its own dignity, but withal so cordial 
and compassionate, that it creates or catches emotion 
in every countenance it looks upon. The Cottage 
Readings of Lady Colquhoun possessed this double 
charm : her hearers could never forget the Christian 
lady, and she never forgot her fellow-sinners and 
fellow-candidates for an immortal crown ; so that a 
sweet benignity pervaded her exhortations and 
remonstrances, and her gentleness was full of 
" authority.' ' And did you make your hearers feel 
not only that you wished them well, but that you 
were full of hope regarding them ? Lady Colquhoun 



200 LIFE OE LADY COLQUHOUN. 

knew that the Gospel is the " power of God unto 
salvation/' and she announced it with a joyful 
confidence; and although the listlessness of her 
servants or scholars might send an occasional pang 
through her spirit, it never tinged her words with 
resentment; but, in the exercise of that love which 
" hopeth all things," she persisted, till love and hope 
together created their own reward. And before your 
experiment was abandoned, did you take sufficient 
pains to warrant its success ? It is not enough to 
gather an expectant group, and assume that you shall 
be able to address them. No multitude of guests 
will conjure a banquet from an empty board ; nor will 
the largest congregation elicit an interesting discourse 
from an unfurnished mind. But many imagine that 
a pocket Bible is a magician's mirror, and needs only 
to be opened in order to summon up forgotten facts, 
appropriate similitudes, and powerful arguments j and 
they are mortified if they do not find in every text a 
talisman. None could depend on Divine assistance 
more devoutly, nor court the influences of the 
Comforter with more ardent aspirations, than did the 
subject of this memorial; but she sought them in 
her study as well as in her school-room ; and then, 
when her mind was matured as to the meaning of 
the passage, and replenished with materials for 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 201 

expounding and enforcing it, she was able to look up 
for the promised help with calm and undistracted 
confidence. So deeply interested was she in this 
employment, and so persuaded that God would bless 
it, that her leisure was delightfully occupied in 
searching the Scriptures, and in preparatory medita- 
tions ; and till her health gave way she was never 
daunted by the frequent sensation of fatigue. May 
we not hope that her modest labors will afford some 
encouragement or guidance to that growing number 
among the refined and the leisurely who "have 
compassion on the multitude ? " 

She now paid frequent visits to her son-in-law and 
daughter, in Suffolk. She delighted in the primitive 
nooks, the bosky dells, the winding lanes, and little 
corn-clad hills which make up one of the most 
picturesque and sequestered of Old England's coun- 
ties ; and many a musing walk she took, when the 
tide was full, along the grass-girdled creek which 
stretches away from the grounds of Stutton to the 
ancient seaport of Harwich. But beyond the beau- 
tiful landscape, she found materials of much interest 
in the homely villagers. At first, when she stepped 
into their cottages, as she had been accustomed to do 
at Luss, and in her district of St. Luke's, in Edin- 
burgh, they could scarcely comprehend her errand. 



202 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

But when from her conversation and the tracts which 
she gave them, they found that her motive was pure 
benevolence, their gratitude was as great as their 
surprise. She found amongst them not a few mem- 
bers of the Wesleyan Society, and they begged that 
she would return to their houses in the evenings, and 
explain the Scriptures when the work of the day was 
ended. With such requests she gladly complied ; 
but so many of the neighbors came together, that 
she was obliged to place restrictions on their zeal, and 
limit the attendants to a certain number. The im- 
pressive way in which she read the Word of God, 
and her enforcement of its truths so clear and 
earnest, are still vividly remembered among them ; 
and there is reason to believe that some got real 
benefit. To these engagements there are a few inci- 
dental allusions in her Diary. Thus : — 

" Stutton House, June 21, 1840. — I feel that I 
have been sent here with a message to many. The 
people gladly receive my books and tracts, and I have 
seen some Christians among the Methodists. 

" July 12. — On Thursday I met with a number of 
the villagers in a cottage. I read the second chapter 
of Ephesians, with explanation, and prayed with 
them. And now we are to separate, perhaps never 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 203 

to meet in this world : Oh ! to meet on the right hand 
of the Judge ! 

"Aug. 27. — Yesterday was greatly interested in 
speaking to one of the villagers, who said that she 
had backslidden from God. May I have been sent to 
her with a blessing 1 " 

Among the Church of England Clergymen with 
whom she became acquainted in Suffolk, she was 
much pleased with the active benevolence of the Rev. 
J. B. Wilkinson, of Holbrook, and the missionary zeal 
of the late Mr. Nottidge, of Ipswich; and, with all 
her preference for the simple worship of the Scottish 
Church, nothing more delighted her than to find 
affectionate preaching and devotional fervour else- 
where. 

" Oct. 1. — We went to church at Ipswich to-day, 

to hear Mr. R , a young minister, who is doing 

much good there. I was much pleased and cheered 
to hear the truth plainly, ably, and judiciously 
preached; and he read the service beautifully. My 
heart unites with all in every denomination in whom 
I see the Spirit's impress. This is truly a magnet to 
me. Spent some hours in my room agreeably after- 
wards, and read, as usual, to the servants." 



204 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

Prom the same place she thus wrote to a very dear 
invalid friend : — 

"1839. I have gone into a few of the cottages 
with my little messengers of peace — the tracts, and 
they give me a hearty welcome : but I scarcely know 
what to say to them, they seem to have so few ideas 
in common. It appears to me that they comprehend 
little, while they assent to everything. However, 
they take the tracts with thanks, and sometimes the 
cheering thought occurs that I have not come so far 
for nothing. Who knows what God may bless? 

But, my dear young friend, as well in our 

winters as our summers the foundation standeth sure ; 
■' Christ is all/ With Him is no variableness, neither 
shadow of turning. Precious truth ! Let us rest 
upon it, and cease from the vain endeavor to find 
anything in us that can give the shadow of hope. 
Abiding hope must be fixed on an object that 
changeth not : we change daily, hourly : He remains 
glorious in holiness eternally. And this Perfection 
is in the Court of Heaven our representative. Can 
we want more? Shall we say, I will add a few of 
my virtues and graces to the account ? When we are 
guilty of this folly, we weary ourselves seeking for 
them, for they cannot be found, and our harp hangs 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 205 

upon the willows. But we resume the songs of Zion 
when we look entirely from ourselves to ' the Lord 
our Righteousness/ How is it with you, dear A. ? 
Can you rejoice in the Lord always? If not, 
experience will teach you that living on frames and 
feelings will not do ; that comfort ebbs and flows 
with these; and that you equally delude yourself 
when you take comfort from the feeling of nearness 
to God, or when you lose it because you lack that 
joy in devotional exercises, which is nevertheless 
extremely desirable and much to be prized. This, 
however, is distinct from joy in Christ crucified, and 
in Christ our Righteousness ; and it is very possible 
to feel little heart for prayer and to niourn an absent 
God, and yet to stand firm on the sure Foundation, 
rejoicing in Christ, and never doubting that we are 
complete in Him." 

" Stutton House, June 10, 1840. — My dearest A., 
I received your letter with mixed feelings of pleasure 
and pain. I was glad to hear from yourself, and 
thankful to find that the Lord is still at your right 
hand; but I was disappointed at the account you 
give of your health. Dearest A., I do fear your wish 
will be granted, and that God intends to take you 
shortly to himself. But when God wills it so, and 
you are willing, shall I say Nay ? I trust not. 



206 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

' His infinite wisdom can never mistake/ As thou 
wilt, I desire to say, both regarding myself and all 
who are dear to me. Difficult the duty is, but God 
can impart the ability to perform it. I rejoice in the 
grace given to you, dear young friend ; and I must 
repeat, Oh, to be a partaker of it ! I know God 
will never leave, never forsake you. Through life, 
through death, throughout eternity, that same God 
will be your All who now cheers you in the trying 
hours of sickness. 

" Much, very much mercy follows me. I only 
lack greater nearness to God, a sense of his presence 
and love, and greater joy in Him as my chief Good 
and only Portion. If He is pleased to deny me these 
inestimable privileges, I have no right to expect 
them : and even then I cleave to the covenant, and 
to Him who ' of God is made to me Righteousness.' 
You see I have not forgotten Mr. Smeaton's text. 
It often comes to my remembrance with power, still. 
No other righteousness have I ; no better can I want, 
nor do I desire." 

" Jvne 30. — I am still at Stutton, but expect soon 
to move to London, — not exactly the place I should 
have chosen ; but all is well. God, my God, can be 
with me there, or anywhere, as He has been here. 
He has been present lately without any outward 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 207 

means save books, and I have enjoyed many a stroll 
by the river side with my Bible, more than I have 
often enjoyed in the house of God with the greatest 
spiritual advantages. I feel, too, that I am sent to 
others, and think I see some fruit ; and when, where, 
how Thou wilt, is what I desire to say, regarding any 
change of residence.' ' 

The years 1839 and 1840 are years much to be 
remembered in Scotland's spiritual history. God was 
not then " a stranger in the land ; " and at Kilsyth, 
in Dundee and Perth, in Roxburghshire, and in 
Breadalbane, such immediate and unwonted effects 
accompanied the preaching of the Gospel, that 
nothing seemed impossible to faith and prayer. Nor 
were they only ministers who preached with assurance 
of success ; elders of the Church and private Chris- 
tians were roused to fresh exertions on behalf of their 
neighbours. In conjunction with some others, Lady 
Colquhoun spent a considerable portion of her time 
in visiting a neglected district of the New Town of 
Edinburgh ; and from the transparent sanctity of her 
character, and the commanding sweetness of her 
manners, few visitors were more welcome or more 
impressive. The resumption of these labors is thus 
recorded in her Diary : — 



208 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

" 4, Moray -place, Nov. 24. — I have on hand much 
new duty, having undertaken to visit, as before, the 
poor in Thistle-street, and also to visit weekly, in turn 
with some others, the school there. And I have 
joined a prayer-meeting of ladies, who meet every 
Thursday. Lord, grant thy blessing and assistance ! 
Without thee I can do nothing. Strengthen for 
thine own work a poor helpless creature. Last week 
I was much encouraged by hearing that one I had 
visited, and whom I found in a very careless state, 
had died hopefully." 

In letters to her like-minded correspondent, she 
occasionally notices the more interesting cases ; and 
although it would be premature to publish what she 
says regarding hopeful individuals till they have given 
that most decisive evidence, " perseverance to the 
end," the reader may obtain a glimpse of the home 
missionary in the following extracts ; — ■ 

" I have seen . It seems the old Highland 

woman next door is her sister, and by her account 
(for she has so little English that I cannot judge of 
her), the sister is in the same state of anxiety in which 
she herself was formerly, praying night and day 
for her soul's salvation. — — ■ told her, ' Perhaps 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 209 

ye '11 get peace in a moment/ The old woman has a 
son and daughter-in-law who have come from Glasgow 
to stay with her. They were notorious drunkards, 

but are keeping sober. 's great anxiety was 

that I should speak to them all. ' Oh, will you speak 
to them? they think I'm by mysel Y* So, to secure 
the young man's being in, I went at their dinner- 
hour, but said to , ' I fear I shall interrupt their 

dinner.' ' Oh ! ' said she, ■ if they were to want their 
dinner for a twelvemonth, what does that matter ? ' 
I thought they all seemed affected, especially in 
prayer, when I earnestly pled for sinners, and the 
young pair promised to go and hear Mr. M. I gave 
the old woman some Gaelic tracts, and she began 

to read them instantly. told me of a very 

interesting case opposite : a poor woman with five 
children, whose husband is a perfect reprobate. She 
is interested for her soul, but he will not let her attend 
on ordinances ; and the last communion he scolded her 
so, because she was dressed to go, that she was quite 
unfitted for the Lord's table, and stayed at home." 

" Friday. — I made out a visit to the poor perse- 
cuted woman I wrote you of, and she was telling me 
some of her grievances, when in came her husband, 
a forbidding-looking hackney-coachman. He started 
* Beside myself. 



210 LIFE Otf LADY COLQTJHOTJN. 

back, and went to another room. I sent her for him, 
saying, if he liked to hear it, I was going to read the 
Bible. He came in, and I chatted a little first, and 
he related a long story, how ill he had been used by 
a man whom he had once befriended. I took the 
opportunity and said, ' You may often meet with 
ingratitude from man, because we are sinful crea- 
tures; but go to God and trust Him, and He will 
never forsake you ; ' and then I read my little portion 
as usual, with prayer; and certainly my hardened 
acquaintance looked softened, for I saw him wipe his 
eyes." 

Writing to the same friend, August 27, 1838, she 
says : — 

" The few words, ' God is love/ have been delight- 
fully on my mind lately. I cannot give you the 
impression that has been given me ; for I feel that it 
is by the Holy Ghost (the reality of whose influences 
I am more and more convinced of), and that in 
speaking to others or they to us, of what this blessed 
Agent teaches, we have no power to bring to the 
mind of another what we ourselves experience. I 
should like much to know Mr. M'Cheyne. -Your 
account of his pretty idea regarding the wilderness 
is so like him, I think I could have told who said it." 



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The diary of August 19 alludes to the same 
text : — 

" For some days ' God is love ' has been delight- 
fully impressed upon my mind, and I have been 
enabled very much to give up the creature. I saw 
the greatness of God's love to me, and from his being 
love — the essence of it — I conceived how he could 
love multitudes, even as we do one or two. We have 
not love enough to give to many, but God's love is to 
all his children equally strong to that which we have 
to a very few, and probably much greater. How 
sweet I " 

Under the same date she apprises her friend of a 
new volume which she was preparing, " The World's 
Religion as contrasted with genuine Christianity." 
It appeared in the following winter, and in 1835 had 
been preceded by " The Kingdom of God." " The 
World's Religion " was Lady Colquhoun's last pub- 
lication, and though in its structure and contents 
wholly distinct, its title will remind the reader of that 
book which she had reason to prize beyond all human 
authorship, the " Practical Christianity." This fond- 
ness for a first love is an interesting feature of advanc- 
ing years; and though the shadows are reversed, it 
is pleasant to know that "the light of evening-tide" 
is often richer and warmer, yes, and more radiant 

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with, hope, than the morning spread upon the moun- 
tains. In broken health and in life's decline she penned 
this wisest and happiest of all her works, to teach her 
youthful friends where to look for happiness. She 
there mentions an incident which her father once 
told her. It was the time when Lord Melville was 
so high in office as to be the envy, or the idol, of his 
Scottish countrymen. He had asked Sir John Sinclair 
to spend New Year's Day with him at "Wimbledon, 
and having slept in the house the previous night, Sir 
John repaired in the morning to the chamber of 
his host, to wish him a happy new year. " It had 
need be happier than the last," was the statesman's 
answer, "for I cannot recollect a single happy day 
in it." And though the pious authoress does not 
obtrude her own experience, it is right that it should 
now be known. Under the date February 3, 1839, 
we find her recording in her diary : — 

" This day three years ago, my dear husband 
departed from me. These years have been years of 
mercy. No misfortune has befallen me; I have 
wanted for nothing, and grace, I trust, has grown." 
And all throughout there predominates a cheerful 
and confiding love, as of one in whose future there 
could be no real evil, and who had found a Friend 
possessed of all-sufficiency. 



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The following year commences : — 

" Edinburgh, Jan. 5, 1840. — A precious Sabbath, 
with something of the Spirit's influence in public and 
private. Mr. Moody preached twice from ' Redeem- 
ing the time because the days are evil.' He began 
with a striking observation, that time has risen in 
price, as every commodity does when it grows 
scarcer. He had heard of a heathen monarch to 
whom a sorceress brought nine volumes of a book, 
demanding a high price for them. Thinking it too 
much he refused, and she burned three, demanding 
for the six the price of the nine. He still declined 
to give it, and she burned three more, asking the full 
sum for the remaining three. He began to think 
there must be something extraordinary in the books, 
and fearing to lose them all, he gave for the three the 
price he had refused for nine. So time, as it dwindles, 
grows more valuable. 5 ' 

And now we gladly avail ourselves of a few 
extracts from letters to her endeared correspondent, 

Miss S. :— 

"13, Cumberland-street, Hyde Park, 
" London, Aug., 1840. 
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prayed for me last Sabbath. I was detained at home 
by my cold, and spent most of the day in my own 
room ; yet God was very present, and my heart was 
with Him. It was impressed upon me, Some one 
prays for me, — perhaps my dear A. One verse I 
met with in the course of reading was sweetly con- 
solatory ; I think it is Watts' s : — 

" ' Jesus ! I throw my arms around, 
And hang upon thy breast ; 
For I have sought no other home, 
And found no other rest.' 

This rest, dearest A., abides. You are about to move 
where you would not go (to Madeira), but your home 
— your rest, goes with you. Strive to cast away 
all anxiety, just as if you saw the Saviour's arms 
around you. I need not remind you, Be careful for 
nothing, but make known your requests. He would 
have you without carefulness. Trust Him — try Him ; 
I know it will go well with you. I had a letter 
lately from my dear friend in Canada, Mrs. Scott. 
She relates what is to me very interesting : that she 
had read an account of Kilsyth which I gave her to 
a man from Glasgow who was working there, but 
who, with his wife, had become much addicted to 
drinking. He was so much struck as to change his 
conduct ever since, and she has hopes of the con- 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 215 

version of both. I have just read in the newspapers 
that there has been a tremendous hurricane at Liver- 
pool, and not over on Tuesday, when I meant to have 
been there. Thus, by this cold I have been spared 
the inconvenience of remaining there, or of sailing 
for Scotland, when neither safe nor pleasant. * Trust 
in the Lord for ever. 5 " 

TO THE SAME. 

" Rossdhu, Oct. 6, 1840. 
" Whether life or death be in your cup, I cannot 
tell. My impression certainly is, that He has thus 
early ripened you for glory with the view of taking 
you to himself. And is it not a blessed thing that 
I can tell you this without the fear of agitating or 
distressing you ? — that while to you ' to live is 
Christ, to die is gain ? ' But, it may be, years of 
usefulness await you; and I, who am old in years, 
and who, having long known the preciousness of 
salvation by grace, ought to be also ready, may be 
taken first, and may welcome you as you ' enter in 
through the gates into the city.' I often think 
of this passage. Two gates seem evident : Christ 
the door, and the gate of death. There is no admis- 
sion but through these gates, and, when these are 
passed, no impediment. Oh, the joy of the entrance 



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when the gates are passed, and the poor doubtful 
believer finds himself safe in the city ! " 

TO THE SAME. 

" Bossdhu, Nov. 11, 1840. 
"You ask me for texts. The eleventh chapter of 
John, with all the particulars, as explained in Henry's 
Commentary, has been much blessed to me lately, — 
particularly what is said of our Lord's love. ' He 
whom thou lovest is sick.' No doubt upon the 
subject ; Christ's love must have been evident to all. 
' Now Jesus loved Martha, and her sister, and 
Lazarus.' It is simply told ; yet carries the convic- 
tion that the apostle saw this love. I have been apt 
to think too much of Jesus' love as pity and bene- 
volence ; its reality never struck me so much as lately 
in reading this passage. And if we had an apostle 
to tell our story, he might say with equal truth, 
' Now Jesus loved A. and her friend, and that other, 
and each of his redeemed ones on earth.' I know 
this truth has been brought home to my mind by 
the Holy Ghost; and, dear young friend, I cannot 
convey my meaning to you unless He is pleased to 
reveal it. Perhaps you knew it long ago." 



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TO THE SAME. 

" BossdJtu, Sept. 8, 1841. 

" The proposed union for prayer is interesting, and 
I shall try and not forget Madeira. I feel, also, some 
anxiety for our dear Scotch Church. We used to 
agree not to talk of it; but it now appears as if 
its downfall were approaching. The Moderate party 
push on the decision as to which side shall constitute 
the Establishment ; and if they are to constitute our 
Church, woe to many a destitute district which can 
have access to no other preachers. Yet God reigns, 
and is ' Head of the body — the Church. 5 There will 
still be Christ's Church, and possibly there may be a 
great reviving among us. Amen. 

" I heard lately from my dear friend in Canada, 
Mrs. Scott, and she asks with much interest about 
you. She is a ' sister,' and you will meet in glory. 
How many will be there whom we shall love as much 
as those who are dearest to us now ! Love is the 
fulfilling of the law, and there will be no scarcity of 
love in heaven, — ' beloved, and loving all t' embrace.' 
Often do I think, could I perfectly love God I should 
be quite happy; but here again, I see no hope till 
taken to a better world. I can no more excite this 
love than I can fly. I can only say, Lord, let me 



218 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

love Thee; permit me to love Thee; enable me to 
love Thee. And if there be the faintest commence- 
ment of this love, it is himself hath done it. ' You 
hath He quickened who were dead ; ' He will perfect 
what concerns us, and will not forsake the work of 
his own hands. This is my hope — my only hope, 
but it is a noble hope ; ' God's workmanship created 
in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath 
before ordained that we should walk in them.' " 

TO THE SAME. 

" 20, Charlotte-square, March 9, 1842. 

" Mr. Burns' preaching has much power accom- 
panying it; he is truly in earnest, and I hear his 
ministrations are blessed. Mr. M'Cheyne adminis- 
tered the sacrament beautifully, and, oh, how he 
prayed for our dear pastor ! * It must have reached 
many hearts. He also read to us one evening Mr. 
Moody Stuart's second Pastoral Letter, and inter- 
spersed it with remarks of his own, very sweet and 
apposite. It seemed like the two friends speaking 
to us together. I never saw Mr. M'Cheyne so solemn 
and spiritual. One great loss in Mr. Burns is, that 
he takes no superintendence of the parish; he is 
always preaching elsewhere. But the elders are 

* Then in impaired health, and also residing at Madeira. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 219 

exerting themselves, and seem to feel their responsi- 
bility. — And now, how joyful to know that all these 
things are under God's control, and not beneath his 
notice ! A verse in Psalm civ. has often been food 
for me. Here it is, dear A., you shall partake of my 
bread : — 

" ' Of Him my meditation shall 
Sweet thoughts to me afford ; 
And as for me, I will rejoice 
In God my only Lord.' " 

It was in this year that a new system of Sabbath- 
desecration was introduced in Scotland, and with 
deep sorrow Lady Colquhoun in her diary records : — 

"March 13. — The day when the Sabbath trains 
begin to run on the Edinburgh and Glasgow Rail- 
way." 

On this point so strongly did she feel, that the 
next time she had occasion to travel betwixt the two 
cities, she hired post-horses, rather than employ a 
conveyance which systematically violated the Divine 
command. She was then in feeble health, and the 
journey consumed two days instead of as many hours ; 
but in carrying out a strong conviction of duty, few 
thought so lightly of personal convenience or comfort 
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220 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

We shall close this chapter with a few additional 
extracts from her Journal, as further illustrations of 
the state of her mind during the period which it 
embraces : — 

"Edinburgh, Dec. 3, 1837.— I had an affecting 
request sent me this evening, to pray for Mrs. Mac- 
donald, of Clanranald, who is thought dying. I did 
so repeatedly and truly. This whole day has been 
more entirely spent in religious exercises than I some- 
times can manage. O Lord, bless me with life. I 
desire spiritual, eternal life. No outside work, but 
inward, enlightening, enlivening grace. For this I 
thirst. 

" \Qth. — And in a measure this has been bestowed 
to-day. I arose early, and prayed fully and earnestly, 
with something of God's presence. I feel the love 
of God strongly, and more especially for what He 
is — yes, Lord, I do, I cannot but love Thee. I 
see a glimpse of Thy beauty. I am constrained to 
say, ' Whom have I in heaven but Thee ? and there 
is none upon earth I desire beside Thee/ I delight 
to repeat that I love Thee, for Thou only art holy. 
Oh, how captivating is perfect holiness ! f My soul 
doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit hath rejoiced 
in God my Saviour.' These feelings continued with 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 221 

me at times the whole day, and partly for some days 
after. Mrs. Maedonald is wonderfully better. 

" Ylth. — I have been tried the end of last week by 
something distressing, which was evidently removed 
by prayer to-day. I have the pleasure to hope I am 
useful to some young people here. 

"Feb. 18, 1838.— The Spirit's influence was with 
me, particularly after dinner, and at prayer at night. 
How sweet it is to feel God's presence, and to pour 
out the heart before Him ! How marvellous that He 
hears, and has many times heard, me! Oh, the 
praise of the glory of His grace ! I do exceedingly 
rejoice in the thought that it shines brightly in what 
He has done for me. God shall be glorified in me, 
even eternally ! So would I have it. Even so, Lord, 
for so it seems good in Thy sight. 

" 25^. — Tolerably spent, but I was enabled to 
pray with my whole heart at night. This is indeed 
cause of much joy to me. I rejoice in this communion 
with Jehovah. It is my joy. I prayed most 
earnestly for the Spirit's influence, and feel it shall 
be given me, for God hath said so. Oh, the 
preciousness of the promises ! 

"March 18. — To-day I feed upon the bread of 
life, God gave Mr. Moody to give me. The after- 
noon sermon, upon Christ suffering the just for the 



222 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

unjust, was truly impressive. Oh, to think that He 
suffered! We forget the meaning of the word ; and 
that it was the just, the only just and holy One. For 
this blessed purpose, to bring us to God ! Bring me, 
blessed Saviour, to God, even very near to God. I 
am afar off, make me nigh. And now I delight in 
approaching unto God. 

" * When shall I near 
Unto thy countenance approach, 
And in God's sight appear ? ' " 

"May 20. — To-night I prayed with the most 
intense desire for the influences of the Spirit. Oh, 
my God, such prayer must be heard ! I know it. 
I believe it. Thou hast said it. Prayer like this is 
from the Spirit's influence. It is given. I could not 
pray for grace once. Thanks, O my God, for the 
desire, the earnest, longing desire. I believe that I 
receive the Spirit, and I shall have it. No presump- 
tion here, it is only crediting the promises. 

" Bossdhu, July 15. — I hoped to be well enough to 
go out to-day, and would have been able had the day 
been favorable. But as it is, I could not venture to 
church, or to the school. I grieve on account of the 
school. Prayed in earnest, and was led delightfully 
to meditate on the freeness of redemption ; gave up 
faith as a work; leant on the promise irrespective 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 223 

of anything, and prayed, receiving Christ as all, for 
justification, sanctification, and eternal life. Pelt 
strengthened. 

" Sept. 23d. — Something of the Spirit's influence 
seemed apparent to-day. I prayed and spoke and 
read with comfort, and feel as if some of God's 
children were interceding for me. 

" Edinburgh, Feb. 24th. — Another day when the 
Spirit was given me. I was much interested last 
night in reading a little book, c Successive Bereave- 
ments,' being an account of the death of four children 
who died in the Lord, by their father, Mr. Beith. 
The simplicity and the strength of the faith of these 
lambs of Christ's flock struck me forcibly, and I 
thought, Why may not I confide just as simply, 
as strongly? My visits to the poor in Thistle-street 
interest me. Some look anxious for instruction. 

"March 10th. — Joy in God and confidence in 
Christ have been in some degree my experience. A 
mission, which is about to be undertaken by the 
Church of Scotland, to inquire into the state of the 
Jews, interests me. I have given £50 towards 
defraying its expense. Mr. M'Cheyne and Mr. Bonar 
are going. Lord, bless and prosper this undertaking, 
and gather in thine Israel. 

" Rossdhu, Sept. 22d. — This morning I found God 



224 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

in prayer. Was at church and the school, where 
I read an account of the recent revivals which have 
taken place, not only in Scotland, but in many other 
places. Oh ! for a plenteous rain to refresh the weary 
heritage. 

"Edinburgh, Sutherland's Hotel, Nov. 2d. — I feel 
gratified at the reception I have met with from many 
Christian friends. I trust for a blessing on the 
approaching communion, and that God has not 
brought me here to be quite alone without some good 
end in view. I have had great enjoyment in hearing 
Mr. Wm. Burns twice — that young man who has 
lately been made the instrument of doing so much 
good by awakening hundreds at Kilsyth and Dundee. 
I sought God in several ordinances this week; but 
listening to Mr. B., I did find Him. The Spirit 
accompanies the word from his lips. Lord, I praise 
thy name for raising up such an instrument, so 
spiritual and so young. I earnestly pray for a 
blessing to-morrow. Lord, many cry unto thee for 
the outpouring of thy Spirit : Lord, hear ! 

" 4, Moray -place, Nov. 24tth. — To-day I seemed to 
arise with God's blessing. He was present in prayer 
in the morning, which I could not but particularly 
notice, as I slept too long, and was hurried. I 
enjoyed also the morning service, when Mr. Moody 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 225 

lectured from the 14th chapter of Proverbs. I have 
much new duty on hand, having undertaken to visit, 
as formerly, the poor in Thistle-street, and also to 
take charge with some others of the school there, 
by weekly visiting in turn. I have joined a prayer- 
meeting of ladies, who meet every Thursday. O 
Lord, grant thy blessing and assistance. Without 
Thee I can do nothing : strengthen a poor helpless 
creature for thine own work. I was much encouraged 
by hearing last week that one I had visited, and whom 
I found in a very dead state, had died hopefully. 

" Dec. l&t/i. — I have witnessed to-day the im- 
pressive service of the baptism of a Jew. He was 
baptized by Mr. Moody. His name is Philips. The 
sermon preparatory was very interesting, from Gala- 
tians hi. 7, 14. 

" 29th. — The peace of God is with me. An 
invitation from Christians in Glasgow to join with 
those here on the morning of the Sabbath in prayer 
for the outpouring of the Spirit everywhere has been 
useful to me. I feel as if it must be granted, and 
rejoice. I rest on Christ this evening, leaning on 
Him helpless, and out of Him hopeless. 

" Wednesday, Jan. 1, 1840.— Upon a review of the 
past " year, compared with the preceding one, I think 
there is less religious feeling in it, and yet I cannot 

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226 LIFE OP LADY COLQUHOUN. 

complain of much deadness either. I have a sweet 
sense that God has been with me wherever I went, 
and I have seen his providence conspicuously. 

" Feb. 2d. — Prayed in truth, but I was not so 
much impressed as last Sabbath. The accounts of 
religious revivals from many places are most encourag- 
ing. Every week we hear of some new one, where 
those before dead are earnestly seeking after God. 
Glasgow, Perth, Dundee, Cupar, St. Andrew's, Dun- 
fermline, Ancrum, Kilsyth, Pintry, Kelso, Lewis, are 
among the number. Bless the Lord, O my soul ! 

" April 1.0/1. — Since writing here I have been laid 
up with influenza, and have been four Sabbaths out 
of church. I have great cause for thankfulness that 
everything has been amply bestowed upon me which 
I could want in this illness, and that my mind has 
not been dark. I have felt the presence of God, 
have been enabled to pray to Him, and I have seen 
the preciousness of the Saviour, and been enabled to 
cast myself on Him, for time and for eternity. My 
Sabbaths have been happily spent. To-day I am out 
of bed, though weak, and I am resting on the Rock 
of my salvation fully and joyfully. An account of 
the last hours of Mr. Simeon, that eminent servant 
of God, has been blessed to me, and I have been 
brought nigh to God in prayer. This is the Sacra- 



LIFE OE LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 227 

ment week. I anxiously wish to be enabled to attend 
during the services. 

" April 23d. — I have been able to go once to 
church to-day, and was greatly blessed through Mr. 
M'Cheyne's ministrations. 

" Bossdhu, Sept. 6. — I have felt the presence of 
God since coming here, and still feel it. I met the 
grown-up people at our school to-day, and read to 
them as formerly, but with less interruption to my 
own devotional feelings than often before. There was 
a good attendance. Oh, that God would bless my 
poor attempts to do them good ! This week I expect 
much company. God can prevent my losing by it 
in spiritual things. 

" Oct. 11. — A clergyman from America preached 
at Luss to-day, and very well, from ' He must 
increase. 5 Joyful news ! Oh, for the increase of the 
latter days ! I have earnestly prayed and longed, 
since returning here, for a spiritual blessing on this 
parish and neighbourhood, and do hope to be heard 
in God's good time. 

" Nov. 1. — Another Sabbath detained at home by 
the weather, and being afraid of bringing back 
my cold, I am spending my sacred hours as I 
can, and have lately found much nearness to God, 
accompanied by realizing conceptions of the love of 

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228 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

Christ, which seemed to arise from the frequent men- 
tion in the Evangelists of Christ's love to his disciples, 
who were with Him on earth, particularly Mary, 
Martha, and Lazarus. We think often of Christ's 
love more as if it were pity and benevolence, than 
the real feeling of Love. 

"Jan. 3, 1841. — Another year is gone. Last 
year and the one preceding it have been wonderful, 
from the increase in our Church of vital godliness. 
In many places the Word has been remarkably 
blessed to the conversion of sinners. It is generally 
thought that a time of distress approaches. Oh ! to 
have ' my loins girt about, and my lamp burning.' I 
am again at home, but though debarred from God's 
house, have received more of the Spirit's influence. 
I feel a great emptiness of self, and I delight to feel 
it. I would hide myself altogether in the unspotted 
robe that Christ hath bought for me and all His. 

" 20, Charlotte-square, Thursday, Feb. 4, 1842.— 
The fast-day at St. Luke's. I have been striving 
truly to humble myself. I feel grieved that my sins 
and shortcomings are so many, and that I am so little 
what I would be. Looking at myself as an aged 
disciple of Christ, and for so many years His, what 
can I cry but ' Lord, forgive ? ' I feel this day very 
low in God's sight, but ' leaning on the Beloved.' 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 229 

" Rossclhu, July 10. — I found my God in reading, 
meditation, and prayer. My prayers have been lately 
more devotional, and to-day I pled as on last Sabbath, 
and frequently during the week most earnestly for 
the Spirit on myself, my family, this neighbourhood, 
Edinburgh, Mr. Burns in connexion with this, the 
Jews, the continent, the world, &c. Oh ! Lord, hear, 
hearken, and do. Amen. 

"Aug. 7. — No service at Luss, being Arrochar 
Sacrament. At first my frame was dull and stupid, 
but I was revived in reading the Word and prayer ; 
and Traill's Sermons were again blessed to me. Two 
observations of his struck me, that death is the way 
to life, as by the death of Christ we live, and it is 
by our own death we enter life. Another was, that 
Christ in the soul is eternal life — ' This is the true 
God, and eternal life.' 

"132, George-street, March 12, 1843. — This 
morning I had strong desires that the services 
of this day, in St. Luke's particularly, should be 
blessed to many, and could scarcely give up praying 
for this ; and once was led to conclude that it would 
be so, for prayer, when real, is an index of the mind 
of God. These thoughts have come to me — That as 
God will glorify His Son, so if we are His children, 
glory naturally follows; that there is an identity of 



230 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

feeling in the Church below and above, respecting the 
conversion of sinners, joy in heaven and on earth over 
one that repenteth. And likewise much in ' Howe's 
Blessedness/ upon the joy oi feeling the soul in health, 
and the disease of sin completely cured in a future 
state, has been refreshing to me. 

"March 26. — To-day I have been fed in the 
Sanctuary, and in private God has been near. Christ 
very precious. I read with delight this evening 
' Dyer on following the Lamb.' I feel my relation 
to Him ; I exult in it. I prayed at night with my 
whole soul, and just as a man would converse with 
his friend. Blessed privilege ! I heard this morning 
of the death of Mr. M'Cheyne, of Dundee, which I 
deeply lament for the Church's sake. Lord, raise 
up many such laborers, and O bless spiritually the 
afflicted Church of Scotland. 

" April 29. — The eve of a Communion Sabbath. 
I have just prayed in truth, and have hopes of 
■ joyful communion.' It will probably be the last in 
connexion with the old Establishment. Oh ! for a 
blessing on ministers and people ! " 



CHAPTER VI. 



FAVOUR IS DECEITFUL, AND BEAUTY IS VAIN ; BUT A WOMAN 

THAT FEARETH THE LORD, SHE SHALL BE PRAISED. 

PROVERBS XXXI. 30. 



Christ leads me through no darker rooms 

Than He went through before : 
He that into God's kingdom comes 

Must enter by this door. 

Come, Lord, when grace hath made me meet 

Thy blessed face to see ; 
For if thy work on earth be sweet, 

What will thy glory be ! 

My knowledge of that life is small, 

The eye of faith is dim ; 
But 'tis enough that Christ knows all ; 

And I shall be with Him. 

RICHARD BAXTER. 



The year 1843 saw the Church of Scotland split 
in sunder. Prom no dislike to state connexion, but 
in avoidance of secular control, two-fifths of the 
clergy and half the population withdrew from the 
old Establishment. Hot controversy and strong 
excitement preceded this event, as every one would 
expect, who knows the national temperament, and 
who, when her religion is concerned, remembers 
how polemical the history of Scotland has ever been. 
But just as a glowing summer will occasionally 
elicit some lovely plant, of which the soil has long 
contained the dormant germ, or as a volcanic out- 
burst will condense into crystalline beauty the 
elements which have been hitherto crudely diffused 
through the strata, — so, those who are careful to 
collect the finest specimens of human excellence must 
look for them in periods when the public mind has 
been stimulated, or when the apathy of ages has been 



234 LIEE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

startled by some powerful revolution. Apart altogether 
from the lightness of their cause, it will be conceded 
that more munificence, self-sacrifice, and missionary 
enthusiasm were developed by the day of the Disruption 
than by a century of tame church-going and tranquil 
sermonizing ; nor, until they learned it in the furnace 
of affliction, did ministers and people know how dear 
they were to one another, nor how intense was that 
relation which bound them to their common Lord 
and Lawgiver. 

It so happened that in their capacity as members 
of the Indian Female Education Society, Lady Col- 
quhoun and her friends were constrained to a 
miniature rehearsal of the Disruption, some time 
before the greater event transpired ; and this first 
step, like the final one, she took with her accustomed 
conscientiousness, irrespective of fashion, and— which 
alone was painful — in some instances, irrespective of 
personal friendship. But her calm and independent 
mind had fully considered the question ; and, dear as 
the Scotch Establishment had ever been to her, it was 
only dear so long as in sacred things it owned itself 
amenable to none except its heavenly Head. In 
following the cause of spiritual freedom, she believed 
that she was only following the Guiding Pillar • and 
though well aware that the ministers and elders 






LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 235 

whom she chiefly esteemed would follow it also, it 
was a joyful surprise to find such a multitude of the 
people prepared for the movement. By giving im- 
pulse and outlet to the piety of her remaining years, 
the Disruption is entitled to form a date in her 
biography, as well as in many a private history.* 

The first notice of this memorable day occurs in 
her journal : — 

" Bossdhu, May 28, 1843. — I have been here up- 
wards of a week ; but neither this Sabbath nor the 
last have I enjoyed public ordinances. As was 
expected, the Disruption of our Church took place 
[May 18], when between four and five hundred of 
our devoted pastors gave up all for Christ, and rather 
than belong to an Erastian Church, left their homes 
and benefices. May a blessing, a great blessing, rest 
on themselves and their labors in ' the Free Presby- 
terian Church of Scotland, 5 to which with them I 
now belong ! Nothing is yet organized as to a 
stated ministry, and I did not think it right to 

* The history of the whole event has lately been published 
by Dr. Robert Buchanan, in his interesting narrative, " The 
Ten Years' Conflict." The case has also been stated with 
singular perspicuity and force by members of other Churches ; 
e.g., by the Hon. and Rev. W. B. Noel ; by Mr. Sydow, the 
King of Prussia's Chaplain ; and by Dr. Merle D'Aubigne, in 
his " Germany, England, and Scotland." 



236 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

attend in the old Establishment. Both last Sunday 
and to-day I have been enabled to read to my servants, 
and, though feeling the deprivation, have spent the 
day tolerably. 

"June 11. — Mr. Somerville came to Luss, and 
delightfully and very freely preached Christ, on 
Monday, at Arnburn, and on Tuesday in the village, 
in the open air, close to the church. Both times 
there was a good attendance, and many of the people 
seemed affected and struck. I myself felt much 
strengthened and invigorated." 

For many years Lady Colquhoun had been praying 
for the parish of Luss, and her Journals show how 
confident she was that God would arise and have 
mercy upon that neighbourhood. In her own modest 
but useful labors, her prayer was partly answered; 
and in the plantation of the Free Church, she was 
spared to see it answered yet more fully. A congre- 
gation was organized; the Bev. Neil Stewart was 
ordained its minister; and on sites granted by her 
son, there now " stand most beautiful " the manse of 
the minister and the Church of the people. To some 
of these occurrences she thus alludes : — 

" Station, Sept. 10, 1843.— Have lately found 



LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 237 

prayer answered in several particulars, which might 
be termed trifling, yet which cost me anxiety. Read 
this morning what I wrote here on prayer for Luss 
and its neighbourhood, Oct. 11, 1840; and may I 
not hope that these prayers are now answering ? 

" Bossd7m, Nov. 19. — Had the great joy to hear 
Christ fully and freely preached by our new young 
minister at the Arnburn, where the Free Church 
congregation meet. How many times have I prayed 
for a living, life-giving ministry at Luss ! What a 
difference it makes to me living here ! 

" June 30, 1844. — Again at the Arnburn, and heard 
Mr. Stewart with great pleasure. There seemed an 
impression among the people. Oh, that God may 
appear in his glory among us ! For this I long and 
pray. It is expected that the new church at Bandry 
will be opened next Lord's-day. These are great 
privileges. Lord, give the blessing ! What can men 
do, even thine own dear children? They are alto- 
gether powerless. 

"July 14. — Last Lord's-day our Free Church was 
opened. I was nearly the whole day there. The 
services were impressive, and a great many from 
neighboring parishes attended. Lord, bless this 
place, now set apart for thy worship ! May many 
sons and daughters be born unto Thee there ! " 



238 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

One day, during the building of the Free Church, 
she went in to see how the work was proceeding, 
and observing that one of the pews had a private 
door, and was also much larger and more elevated 
than the rest, she asked for whom it was intended. 
The carpenter said, " For your Ladyship and family." 
She immediately directed that the private door should 
be built up, and the pew made like its neighbors ; 
" for," as she remarked, " there ought to be no 
distinctions in the house of God." 

However, it was not only in procuring ministers 
for the parishes along the shores of Loch Lomond 
that the Disruption taxed the energy of Lady Col- 
quhoun. For many years she had been the patroness 
and an influential director of various benevolent 
Societies in Edinburgh. One was an Association, 
already mentioned, for promoting Female Education 
in India, in connexion with the Scottish Missions 
there. Commenced by the pious and talented Mrs. 
Wilson, of Bombay, the system soon ramified into all 
the eastern Presidencies ; and, as opening the simplest 
and surest access to the homes of the Hindoos, it 
promises to be a most powerful instrument in India's 
moral regeneration. Lady Colquhoun set on it great 
value, and besides keeping in her own hand the 
minutes of the Society, with eminent wisdom and 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 239 

kindness she conducted the correspondence with its 
several agents. We think the two following letters to 
Miss Laing, at Calcutta, will be read with interest : — 

" Rossdhu, My llth, 1844. 
" My dear Miss Laing, — I have very many times in- 
tended replying to your last acceptable letter, received 
some time ago ; but I have had much to think of and 
to occupy me, from domestic trial, and other sources. 
Without adding any more on the subject, therefore, 
but that I hope you will believe it is not from any 
want of interest in the cause, I proceed to say that the 
ladies of our Society and myself were deeply affected 
with the account of the distressing scenes through 
which you have been called to pass in your separation 
from the Established Church. We, however, praise 
the Lord for the support and direction afforded to you 
in this time of need ; and, now it is past, we think it 
may be the means of enabling you to trust more sted- 
fastly and implicitly in time to come on that Almighty 
arm which is full of power, and on that God whose 
name is ' Love.' We immediately set to work to 
finish the articles you mention as those which you are 
most in want of, and I hope before this comes to hand, 
one box with many useful articles will have readied 
you. Its value, I heard, was about £40. 



240 LIEE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

" I am happy to find you are gathering again a few 
orphans around you, and that your school increases. 
It is precious work to teach a heathen child anything; 
but, oh ! my dear Miss Laing, could you implant 
the knowledge of God, that is work of which an angel 
could be proud. You may justly say you cannot. 
It is most true. — But you can pray, and labor, and 
wait, and we have ground to hope it shall not be alto- 
gether in vain. May God multiply the fruit of your 
seed sown abundantly. Wait on the Lord, be of 
good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. 
It also gave us pleasure to learn that you had received 
the present of a horse. All these things are encourag- 
ing tokens for good. Our new Society promises to do 
well. — Many of the auxiliaries have joined us. Dr. 
Wilson is a great assistance to us. Pray remember 
me to Dr. and Mrs. Duff when you see them. And 
with every Christian wish that the presence and bless- 
ing of God may be with you, 

" I remain, your sincere friend, 

"Janet Colquhoun. 

"I answered your former letter — I hope you re- 
ceived mine. We were glad to hear of the formation 
of your clothing society. " 

" Rossdhu, Jan. IWi, 1846. 

" My dear Miss Laing, — I had the pleasure to 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 241 

receive your letter a short time ago, and it is gratifying 
to hear that the Lord is in any way blessing your 
efforts in the barren soil of India. Before much good 
is effected, unless by a miracle of divine working, 
there must be time, and patience, and perseverance, 
here a little, and there a little. Yet it is very en- 
couraging that there are hopeful symptoms among 
your little group, that they are, many of them, teach- 
able and docile. And I often think that those whom 
you lost at the Disruption may do great things yet, 
and that, perhaps, what you then suffered may turn 
out for the furtherance of the Gospel, as it turned 
your work into a new field, when possibly the seed 
was sown in the others. It is delightful to know that 
God worketh for His own glory whatever comes to 
pass. What times are these in which we live ! 
Strange indeed to one like myself, who can remember 
such a different state of things. There was in my 
young days a death-like apathy towards religion in 
most of those I was acquainted with. A few bright 
examples both in clergy and laity shone as lights in 
the darkness, but they were generally despised, con- 
sidered fanatics, and, I think, often wanted sufficient 
boldness in their Master's work. They however, I 
mean the clergy, labored very assiduously, saw little 
fruit and expected little. A single conversion was 



242 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

thought a great thing and much spoken of. Now the 
fields everywhere seem ripe for the harvest. There is 
a shaking among the dry bones. How interesting is 
the intelligence from Switzerland, from France, from 
Germany, from Madeira, and many other districts and 
distant places. Surely God works, and who shall let 
it? I write thus to you, my dear young friend, 
because I would wish to encourage the hope that there 
is a blessing in store for India. The windows of 
heaven seem opening ; put in your claim for a share 
of the refreshing shower. Oh ! so I do, you say, but 
little has fallen yet. Well, hope on, wait on, aye, and 
work on. To use a homely simile, we make hay when 
the sun shines ; so now appears to me the time when 
the Sun of Righteousness is about to arise with healing 
under his wings. It is a laborious life you lead, with 
the entire charge of so many young immortals ; but 
after toil rest is sweet, and the rest that remains for 
the people of God will be most welcome to those who 
have borne the burden and heat of the day. 

" It seems to me singular that a word of mine in 
my last letter should travel so far as India, and come 
wrapped up in that piece of paper with power to your 
mind, as you tell me ' Lean firmly on your Rock ' 
did. But it shows who sent it. Oh ! if we could act 
up to our professed belief, what different sort of 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 243 

Christians we should be ! Happy, fearless beings, 
relying, resting, leaning on Him whose arm is power. 
But, no ; we think He may fail us in the time of need, 
and so, like Peter, we begin to sink, till Jesus 
stretches forth his hand, and says, ' O thou of little 
faith, wherefore dost thou doubt ? ' I am not yet in 
Edinburgh, and so know less of the Society's opera- 
tions ; but, God willing, I expect to be there in about 
a fortnight. You had better, however, always address 
to this place, as it is sure of finding me. The concert 
for prayer is just over. I did not forget you, and 
indeed all missionaries, both in private and in the 
family. It lasted from Sabbath to Sabbath, and was 
well observed by the Free Church in daily meetings. 
Oh ! for the blessing ! that outpouring of the Spirit 
for which we wait. How is your little Jewess ? does 
she learn quickly ? Her people are in an interesting 
state. I hope the set time to favor Zion approaches. 
Remember me to Dr. Duff when you see him. I had 
the pleasure of knowing him in Scotland. And with 
every good wish that the Great Head of the Church 
may own your efforts more and more, 

" I remain, your sincere friend, 

" Janet Colquhoun." 

Then there was the Ladies' Society in Aid of the 

B 2 



244 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

Home Mission of the Presbyterian Church in Ireland. 
In his providence God had opened to that Church a 
peculiar opportunity of preaching the Gospel to the 
Irish -speaking inhabitants of the west and south, and 
at a time when few felt any interest in the subject, 
Lady Colquhoun recognised in the tidings which she 
heard an opening towards boundless usefulness. She 
succeeded in communicating to half-a-dozen friends 
something of her own ardor, and founded an Insti- 
tution which successive years have only rendered 
more imperiously urgent. To her fellow -laborers in 
this cause she set a noble example, by educating one 
of the converts, at her own expense, for the Christian 
ministry ; and by personal communication with mem- 
bers of the Ulster Assembly, she kept alive the zeal 
of herself and her colleagues. But to her patriotic 
and practical spirit, still dearer, perhaps, was the 
Gaelic School Society. Like her venerable father, 
whose last thoughts were for the moral and religious 
welfare of the Highlands, she had a warm attachment 
to that people ; and, knowing how many regions had 
been spiritually enlightened, and how many thousands 
had been scripturally instructed by this Society's 
godly teachers, she gave it her most cordial and liberal 
support. But each of these Societies was more or less 
shaken in that explosion which rent in twain the 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 245 

Established Church ; and, though many statistics were 
long debated, two points were soon conceded : it was 
plain that the Free Church had all the missionaries, 
and equally plain that the Established Church had 
most of the moneyed men. And then it was that on 
the adherents of the new and scripless Institution was 
poured out that spirit of joyful contribution which, 
besides covering Scotland with a new system of 
schools and sanctuaries, augmented its mission-staff, 
and invented schemes of pious enterprise as costly as 
they were original. Amongst the foremost in the 
ranks of liberal givers and instant doers, was Lady 
Colquhoun. Eully persuaded in her own mind, and 
alive to the peerless exigency, she commenced that 
series of sumptuous offerings so helpful to the cause, 
and so inspiring to its friends. Apart from local 
objects which mainly devolved upon her, if a High- 
land minister wrote for help to his people who had 
carted the stones and the timber, but who could not 
build the church • if a lowland minister represented 
the case of some clever and pious youth who would 
fain go to college, but who could not pay the fees ; if 
— as, alas 1 such tales were too frequent and too 
true — she heard of sufferings for conscience' sake, 
her wonderful purse was always open, and she so 
contrived to give that her gifts never hinted the 



246 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

self-denial of the sender. To herself money had now 
become a talent, and its right bestowment a means of 
grace; and, radiant with the bountiful spirit of this 
new dispensation, there was contagion in her cheerful 
offerings, as well as comfort in her calm and 
sagacious counsels. Inevitably she became the centre 
of those Societies of which she had been formerly the 
supporter; and on the other hand, she rejoiced to 
find that her favorite schemes for India and Ireland 
had not suffered from the unwonted claims of Scot- 
land. 

Perhaps a manly gratitude is as rare as a princely 
munificence ; but to the affectionate memory of one 
too high-minded to forget a favor, and too devout 
to regard Lady Colquhoun as his only benefactor, 
her biographer is indebted for an instance of 
her seasonable and discriminating kindness. It was 
in the summer of the Disruption, and when looking 
out for a Free Church minister for Luss, that the 
name of a young licentiate was mentioned to 
her. Though apprised that through excessive indul- 
gence in study, — for he had been reading eighteen 
hours a day, — his health was broken, she sent for 
him. With some reluctance he came ; but instead of 
the sturdy athlete which a country minister had need 
to be, there stood before her a spectral invalid. Two 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 247 

eminent physicians had told him that in less than 
nine months he must be in his grave, and the faithful 
warning had made him eager to work while it was 
day. Prom some cause or other, however, Lady 
Colquhoun was prepossessed with a sanguine hope 
that if rightly treated he would recover. She thought 
and prayed over his case, and sending for him again, 
propounded a scheme which she had devised for his 
benefit. She stipulated that he would put himself 
entirely in her hands, be guided by her advice, and 
use all means for convalescence at her cost. Of 
course, all preaching was strictly prohibited; the 
shattered student was ordered off to drink a famous 
mineral water; and after a year of rest and rustica- 
tion he was ready to accept a cordial call to go 
and minister in a Highland congregation, amongst 
whom he has labored ever since, a vigorous and 
successful pastor. Having been favored with a 
perusal of the letters which Lady Colquhoun 
addressed to her young friend, if the" following 
extracts strike the reader as the entire correspond- 
ence struck us, they will convey some idea of that 
delicacy and good sense, that piety and kindness 
which were so beautifully combined in her cha- 
racter. 



248 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

"Sutherland's Hotel, July 1, 1843. 

"Dear Mr. , — On thinking over what I said 

to you yesterday, I fear I was not sufficiently explicit. 
I wish you to promise that after the two Sabbaths for 
which you are engaged, you will preach no more for 
some months, and save yourself in every way as much 
as possible. Nothing short of this will be of any 
avail, and it would be folly to deny yourself the 
satisfaction of doing much in the long-run, for the 
sake of perhaps one sermon. Therefore, be firm in this 
respect, and be silent for the present. Depend upon 
it, to put steadily in force this resolution requires 
more grace and strength from above than to follow 
your own inclination and preach the Word. 

" Do not be very long in writing to me, as I shall 
be anxious to hear how the Almighty prospers our 
scheme, and trusting it may be his pleasure to grant 
you a long life of usefulness and many souls for your 
hire, 

" I remain, your sincere friend," &c. 

41 Stutton House, Ipsivich, Sept. 6, 1843. 

" I received your letter this morning with real 

thankfulness; for I much feared my last had not 

reached you. I inclose — , which I can assure you 

I give without any difficulty or deprivation to myself, 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 249 

and I am sure I may say with heartfelt pleasure. 
Could I be instrumental in perfecting your recovery, 
so that you may live to the glory of God and bring 
souls to the Saviour, how rich would be the blessing 
on this poor mammon of unrighteousness ! For this 
I pray, and not without the hope that my prayer is 
heard. You shall not sell your books if I can keep 
them for you. God has brought your case under my 
notice most providentially. I praise his name for it. 
It is only an answer to many prayers that He would 
point out what He would have me to do. 

" I am beginning to look to loved Scotland now, 
and think I shall not remain many weeks longer 
in England. I am living with a daughter and her 
family, in a pretty county, and where the air is 
delightfully clear and salubrious. But all will not 
make up for the want of those precious means of 
grace with which our favored land is blessed. May 
our afflicted Church have a double portion of the dew 
of Hermon descend upon her in her present afflicted 
and yet exalted state ! She goes on prosperously, 
and ' with Christ in the vessel, may smile at the 
storm.' " 

" Stutton House, Sept. 25, 1843. 

"Your last letter, gloomy although it is in some 
respects, gave me the sincerest pleasure, as it tells me 



250 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

you were beginning to derive benefit from the waters. 
May the Almighty continue to you their healing 
virtue, sending you health and cure ! One thing 
I would with much earnestness entreat, that you will 
not think of leaving the place till medical men say 
there is no use in your remaining. I have a great 
fear of your but half- doing matters, and then all will 
be thrown away. One timely and persevering effort 
saves much. T know there will be somewhat more 
expense in your present residence; but to what 
better purpose can money be expended than in pro- 
moting the glory of God in the salvation of* men ? 
And do you not see that with your recovery this, 
by his blessing, may be intimately connected? My 
stock is not exhausted. God has given me means 
which many others do not possess ; and in your case 
He has plainly said to me, ' Do this/ The debt is not 
to you; along with all I am and all I have, it is 
claimed by Him who loved me and gave himself for 
me. Take, therefore, without scruple, what our Lord 
appoints as yours, and give Him the praise. 

" And now, as to the state of your mind. I read 
what you say with much sympathy. Oh ! that God 
would enable me to send you a word form Himself ! 
And, first, I think it highly probable that the dis- 
ordered state of the body has more or less connexion 



LIFE OP LADY COLQUHOUN. 251 

with it ; and of this you will judge as the body 
recovers strength and tone. But from what you have 
written, as well as from what you said when we met, 
I should think there is something like impatience 
at the total inactivity, —what you term uselessness, 
to which you are reduced. The desire of usefulness 

is good in itself; but dear Mr, , remember it 

is not for us to allot the times and the seasons 
when God shall employ our services. There is often 
a waiting time as well as a working time, and, if I 
mistake not, you will work ? double tides ' shortly. 
Your present duty is to bear his will in silence, saying, 
When, — where, — how thou wilt. But e the face of 
God seems hid, and the Saviour less present and less 
precious.' Ah ! this is indeed a bitter cup, and God 
alone can remove it. I have often thought that 
ministers must taste such things ; or how should they 
know how to pity and console ? This may be part 
of your education for the ministry ; but such deser- 
tion shall not always last, (Isai. liv. 7, 8, 10,) and 
perhaps it shall be succeeded by bright and cloudless 
sunshine. In the meantime I would say, place 
yourself in the everlasting arms, whether God smiles 
or hides his countenance. Let faith supply the lack 
of feeling. He will not, He cannot cast you from 
himself. 



252 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

" Continue, dear Mr. , to pray for Luss. It 

has been very dead and barren since I have known 
it, and is just beginning to show symptoms of life. 
I hear that Mr. Stewart is gaining beyond the most 
sanguine expectations, and that there is a party much 
interested in his success. I am very glad my son has 
given them the most convenient site for a church/' 

"25, Charlotte-square, Feb. 19, 1845. 
" My clear Mr. — — , — My last letters seem, by 
God's blessing, to have been sent in season. May 
He give me a word in this one ! Ah ! let us never 
forget, God gives the word, whoever publishes it. It 
was cheering to me to hear such pleasing accounts 
from — — . There is enough to encourage faith and 
prayer. Seldom, if ever, does the servant of the 
Lord spend his strength for nought. It is wonderful 
to hear of your returning health. It is surely true 
what you say, ' the Lord is the author of this, and 
what language can express the gratitude due ? ' Let 
us magnify His name together. How many tales of 
wonder have God's people to tell ! And I have mine, 
even since I last wrote to you. You say you daily 
pray for my health of body and soul. I heartily 
thank you ; nor was the liberty you experienced 
delusive, although you little thought of the circum- 






LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 253 

stances I was placed in. Between two and three 
months ago I fell down stairs from a great height. 

O DO 

It was about thirteen steps, and many have lost their 
lives from a less cause, or at least been seriously 
injured. But, wonderful to relate ! not a bone was 
broken ; and although a deep cut was close to one 
eye, the eye itself was uninjured. I was much 
bruised, and had to put on many leeches, and was 
confined to bed for a week. But never did I enjoy 
so much comfort on a sick bed. I was so overcome 
with gratitude for so merciful a deliverance, that I 
could do nothing but praise God, and He seemed 
present, as if beside me constantly. Mr. Stewart was 
frequently with me, helping me to praise, and was 
a great comfort to me ; and still I look back to that 
season as one of peculiar joy. I am now perfectly 
recovered, and came here with my son and the rest 
of the family about a month since. My daughter has 
returned in good health, and enjoyed her tour much. 
My little charge has thriven uncommonly well, I am 
thankful to say. W. is also with us, and well. What 
can I say more? All seems well, well; and truly 
gratitude becomes a poor sinful creature for these 
things. Yet one thing in some instances is lacking, 
and that the chief thing, the one thing needful. This 
I would desire to seek more and more for myself and 



254 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

others. I have told you of my best time ; I dare not 
tell you of my worst, when the things of time eclipse 
the glory to be revealed. But it shall not be always 
thus. ' God in His glory shall appear/ and ' we 
shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is.' 
Let us then fight on, ' faint yet pursuing/ You have 
glorious work, and are a fellow-laborer with God. 
This might give any one courage. I inclose ten 
pounds to help to furnish your manse, as I think you 

must have little to spare. I hope Mrs. likes 

her situation in the North. And with my sincere 
prayers that grace, mercy, and peace may be with 
you in Christ Jesus the Lord, 

" I remain, your true friend in the faith, 

" Janet Colquhoun." 

In the early summer of 1844, a new and affecting 
duty devolved on Lady Colquhoun. Her son, Sir 
James, had been scarcely a year united to a lady * 
whose youth and amiable disposition promised a 
long duration of happiness, and the rejoicings over 

* The younger Lady Colquhoun was a daughter of Sir 
Robert Abercromby, of Forglen, Bart. She died at Edinburgh, 
on the 3d of May, 1844. 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 255 

the birth of a first-born had hardly been celebrated 
in his hereditary domains, — 

It was an April day ; and blithely all 

The youth of nature leaped beneath the sun, 

When tidings came, 
A son was born ; and tidings came again, 
That she who gave it birth was sick to death. 

The infant, thus bequeathed to her maternal tender- 
ness, became an object of unceasing solicitude to his 
fond grandmother ; and if anything could have linked 
her spirit to the earth once more, that child would 
have been the tie. God blessed her anxious tending, 
and her little grandson grew in strength and stature. 
On the rare occasions when she was obliged to send 
him from under her immediate eye, a minute corre- 
spondence was maintained betwixt his attendants and 
herself; and in thinking and planning for the welfare 
of her precious charge, and in watching the develop- 
ments of thought and affection, she lived delightfully 
over again a bygone era of her history. 

The most appropriate contribution which a Chris- 
tian lady can make to the cause of the Gospel is, 
when she " shows piety at home." It is related of a 
Scottish lawyer who rose to a high judicial station in 
England, that with infinite pains he had exchanged 
his vernacular pronunciation for a somewhat finical 



256 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 



fttjO0rt-4l4,T*iL 



English accent ; but when he became old and infirm, 
they say that nature cropped out again, and that 
it was curious to observe the broad Shibboleths of 
boyhood taking a late but ample vengeance on 
the euphuistic orator. And where piety is like Lord 
Loughborough's English, — a thing picked up or put 
on, — it is liable to similar casualties. In life's least 
guarded or least brilliant moments, in languor, in 
sickness, in moments of vexation, carnality triumphs 
over profession ; and the spleen, or the passion, or 
the worldly-mindedness which was all unsuspected 
by the admiring committee or the parlor coterie, 
is revealed without scruple to the domestic circle. 
But the piety of Lady Colquhoun was such a per- 
vasion that the minutest action and the most fami- 
liar moment could only reveal the Christian. " She 
behaved herself wisely in a perfect way, she walked 
within her house with a perfect heart ; " and her 
uniform and attractive goodness commended the 
Gospel to her servants, to her family, and to the 
stranger sojourning within her gates. 

For many years she had been in the habit of in- 
structing her female servants every Sabbath afternoon ; 
and, with her systematic perseverance, she often 
assembled them when feeble health made the exer- 
tion distressing to herself. Thus, in her journal we 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 257 

find her lamenting the levity which exhibited itself 
on one of these occasions ; " for, considering the pain 
it cost me to speak to them, I felt it rather hard." 
But it was the tendency of such exertions for their 
welfare to conciliate the affection of her household, 
especially as they were the exertions of a most kind 
and considerate mistress. One evening, in Edinburgh, 
she rang the bell for her maid, but was told that she 
had gone out and had not returned. It was late 
before she arrived, and when she made her appearance 
Lady Colquhoun asked where she had been. " Taking 
tea with my mother," was the reply. But perceiving 
her embarrassed manner, Lady C. said, " Now, I 
know you are not telling me the truth ; " and the 
young woman confessed that she had gone to a 
theatrical exhibition, which was later of ending than 
she had expected. However, it was true that the 
party had met at her mother's and taken tea before- 
hand; and she had intended to. ask leave, but had 
not found opportunity. Lady C. expressed her 
sorrow at the occurrence, the more especially as she 
had never before discovered in this maid any deviation 
from the truth. She told her how much she dis- 
approved of theatres, which had ruined so many ; and 
reminded her how one fault usually leads to another ; 
" and, C," she added, " I have just been praying for 



258 LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0TJN. 

you." Tears started into the young woman's eyes ; 
and she begged forgiveness of her mistress, solemnly 
promising never to be guilty of the like fault again, 
a promise which she faithfully fulfilled. But although 
she objected to such places of resort, and would not 
allow her servants to spend the Sabbath in walks and 
visits, she was liberal in allowing them other oppor- 
tunities of amusement, and was especially delighted 
when they selected such recreations as tended to 
improve their minds. The servant just mentioned 
had been attending some evening lectures on astro- 
nomy, and Lady C. took great pleasure in hearing all 
that she could remember, and in helping her to under- 
stand them. And all the inmates of her dwelling 
were so well aware of her benevolent feelings towards 
them, that it is not wonderful that they received with 
increasing gratitude her endeavours to promote their 
truest welfare. " There was not one in the household 
who did not love and reverence her, and who would 
not have done anything to serve her." And if her 
instructions have not been followed by lasting results 
in every case, none who were connected with her can 
ever forget how holy and unblameable was her daily 
demeanour. 

With a few final extracts from her diary, we shall 
conclude the active portion of this history. They 



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will supply some omissions in the narrative, and they 
will show how the Lord was preparing his servant 
for her everlasting rest. 

"Edinburgh, June 18, 1843. — I am enjoying the 
rich privilege of Mr. W. Burns' ministrations, amidst 
much to distract my thoughts. On the 14th my son, 
Sir James, was married to Miss Jane Abercromby, an 
event which has given me real pleasure. This day 
I have felt a little, alas ! bid a little, of the Spirit's 
influence. I thought with joyfulness of the will of 
God being done in heaven, and that there I shall 
perfectly do it. Sensibly I feel my inability to do 
anything right here, — sin, sin mixes with all I think, 
say, and do. — Help, Lord ! 

" Stutton House, July 16. — -To-day we attended 
Holbrook Church, and heard a good man, a German, 
preach. I likewise read to the servants here both 
days. I have great cause for thanksgiving that, on 
my journey here, I was remarkably preserved from all 
danger and evil, and that God is present. I found 
all well here, and my cup runneth over. 

"Aug. 7. — I have been striving to keep the 
Sabbath holy, and have had some communion with 
God. We go once to church, in the afternoon, as it 
is too far to go twice to Holbrook, and I have Sab- 
bath hours in the morning, which I pleasantly spend 

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260 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

in my own room. To-day, especially, I was near to 
God, and met with him in Christ. How merciful, 
how joyful it is to think that God is in every place, 
and is found of them that seek him. I read to the 
villagers again last week. I desire to do something, 
whatever God will, and look up for a blessing. My 
dear little James went to-day to church for the first 
time. He is four years and three months. I am 
teaching him the beatitudes in Matthew v. Have 
read to the servants here as usual. 

" Sept. 3. — I enjoyed my earlier hours much to- 
day, reading the Bible and ' Howe's Blessedness ' 
with prayer. When necessarily absent from ordi- 
nances, how often have I found God present ! I 
was at Holbrook Church in the afternoon, and was 
engaged with the servants, &c, in the evening. I 
have thought for some days of my security in Christ, 
that all is well in time and eternity. I felt upon a 
Bock. 

" 20t/i. — To-day my heart was cheered by hearing 
from several Christian friends — Lady Agnew, Mrs. B., 

and Mr. , particularly the last. I have felt so 

anxious that he may derive benefit from a plan I have 
suggested, and enabled him to put in practice, giving 
up all work for a time till his health is restored. He 
is a clergyman, lately licensed, but quite overborne 






LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 2G1 

by labor and studying, &c., eighteen hours a day. 
Thank God, he is better, and travelling about in 
Scotland. The news from Luss delight me : a Free 
Church is likely to be built, both there and at Arro- 

char ; the people like Mr. S , and I trust he may 

prove a great blessing to the neighbourhood. 

" Bossdhu, Tuesday, 28. — Once more in my worth- 
less way have I partaken of the sacrament of the 
Lord's Supper, which w 7 as administered in the Free 
Church at Arnburn, last Sabbath. Mr. Grant, of 
Roseneath, administered it,* and Dr. Paterson, of 
Glasgow, preached yesterday. The services were all 
interesting. But, alas ! my heart, although not dead, 
seemed deadened. I did, however, greatly rejoice to 
see some signs of life in the people of this parish. 

Lord ! so be it. 

" 127, George-street, Edinburgh, Monday, Bee. 25. 
— Having omitted to bring my diary here with me, 

1 have neglected writing for some weeks. Here I 
have been enjoying the highest privileges, for which 
at some periods of my life I would have given any- 
thing. I am in the same lodgings with Mr. William 
Burns, having the two best floors, and he some rooms 
above. I am thus enabled to attend his family 
worship night and morning, and he preaches regularly 

* Before the ordination of the Rev. Neil Stewart. 



262 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

every Sabbath morning and twice during the week. 
To-day I w T as again feasted at his class for young 
women by his exposition of the question, What is 
God ? I had before, nearly two years ago I think, 
heard part of this sublime subject with inexpressible 
delight, but left Edinburgh before he finished it, 
little hoping to hear any more. Now, if spared in 
health, I may hear the rest. Lord, grant it and the 
blessing ! 

" 31. — Arrived at the end of another year, what 
can I say of myself in it ? Perhaps I little know or 
think of my neglected duties, or many sins, but my 
heart does not smite me much ; and yet I see others 
in labors much more abundant, as dear Mr. Burns in 
this house, complaining bitterly of unprofitableness. 
It is probable that I am contented with a very low 
state both of feeling and labor. Let me press 
onward and forward. I took the family worship, as 
I do always on the Sabbaths, as Mr. Burns is late 
of returning from the young men's class. 

" March 10, 1844. — I find more than a month has 
elapsed, and I have omitted writing here. A passage 
from ' Dorney's Letters ' came to me with power and 
comfort. ' The soul that is willing Christ should 
both save him and purge him, shall be saved and 
purged ; and God cannot but account him clean from 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 263 

condemning guilt.' I have made an attempt to lead 
one, who I fear has been afar off, and have lent a 
book with faith and prayer (' Wilberforce's View'). 
From my being enabled to pray, I hope well in 
this. 

"March 17. — My heart is rejoiced this evening 
by one of the servant-girls in these lodgings, whom I 
have been teaching, with the other, on the Sabbaths, 
telling me that what I said to her on prayer had been 
much blessed to her, and that she now found many 
opportunities to pray, and was happy in Christ. O 
Lord ! truly I praise thee for this. Humbly and 
gratefully I thank Thee for making me the honored 
instrument in Thy glorious work. Bless and protect 
this poor girl, and build her up in the faith \ and may 
she glorify Thee eternally ! 

"April 14. — An event of some importance to our 
family has occurred since I last wrote here, — the 
birth of a son to my son, Sir James. His mother has 
been very delicate since \ but all is in the hand of 
God • to Him I commit them, believing that He will 
do well. To-day I feel rather unwell, and am the 
less unwilling to remain at home, as (it is somewhat 
strange) I almost always find God more present 
during the Sabbath-day when thus confined, than 
when attending ordinances. Oh ! it is God, not 



264 LIFE OF LADY COLQTJHOUN. 

ordinances, I seek. Wherever He is present, I would 
be. And this day He was present, especially during 
the hours of the morning service. A letter received 
lately from Mr. Denniston, of Jamaica, with some 
observations on walking with God, was blessed to me 
this morning. 

" 28. — A communion Sabbath. I was privileged to 
hear Mr. A. Bonar, Mr. Somerville, and Dr. Duncan, 
on the previous days, but without any particular 
blessing * when, last night, a friend said she had been 
exhorted simply to receive Christ's broken body, as 
broken for her sins, and his shed blood as shed for 
her; and these few words brought joy and faith with 
them, which remained with me at the table ; I was 
enabled to see a little of the Lord's beauty, and 
rejoice in Him. My daughter-in-law continues in a 
most precarious state \ it seems uncertain whether or 
not she will recover. I have told her of the danger, 
and prayed with her several times. 

" May 5. — A different Sabbath indeed from the 
last, Lady Colquhoun having departed this life on 
Friday afternoon. I witnessed her death, and have 
been since almost constantly with my son, at 132, 
George-street. The infant lives, and will be my 
precious charge. Thus a fresh line of duty and care 
devolves upon me, different, indeed, from what I 



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should have sought. I am dumb \ I open not my 
mouth : for God has done this. It is His way, 
therefore a right way. 

" May 19. — I am beginning to awaken from the 
dream of late events in my family, and am also 
beginning, I hope, to return to the Lord. I am 
certainly led in a way I would not in present circum- 
stances ; but it must be right. It goes to my heart 
when I recollect my dear little boy at Stutton, and 
my religious instructions of him last summer, and 
that now we cannot meet. One thing sweetly 
reconciles me, — God did it. I was present at the 
opening of the Eree Assembly, and enjoyed it much. 

" 26. — I was once or twice more at the Meetings 
of Assembly, which are truly solemn and interesting ; 
but having caught cold, I am now debarred from 
them, and also from ordinances, to-day. I have, 
however, found God in private, both in reading and 
prayer. I lie very low because of shortcoming and 
sin ; but I feel the value of the sacrifice offered for it, 
and see something of that righteousness which is 
unto all and upon all them that believe. Throughout 
the day my heart has rested on God as my portion. 
Oh, how precious ! Thus at times creatures, the 
whole creation, keep their just place in my regard. 
I pant for more of this. 



266 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

" Rossdhu, August 11. — Was much blessed in the 
house of prayer to-day, Mr. Stewart preaching on the 
freedom of the Gospel offer, from John iii. 15. I 
had longed to hear him on this subject ; and it was 
very joyful to me to hear Christ so freely and uncon- 
ditionally preached at Luss. Lord, thou hast given 
us much in this Church, and in this thy devoted 
servant as our pastor; yet all this may be without 
the blessing. For the Holy Ghost I pray ; earnestly, 
unweariedly I pray for the descent of the Spirit upon 
this place and people. I pray in faith, and, looking 
up, expect the answer. I think I shall yet, if spared, 
write here that I am heard. O Lord, hasten the 
time ! 

" Sept. 8. — The three last Sabbaths Lady Sinclair 
and my sisters were here. They were tolerably well 
spent ; in some of them I was enabled to return to 
the evening service. Our good pastor was absent 
last Lord's-day, having lost a sister, who died in the 
Lord. To-day Mr. Stewart gave us a delightful 
sermon on Christ the Resurrection and the Life. It 
came home to my heart. Surely I possess this 
spiritual life. I feel something within that lives to 
God, that delights in God, that cannot exist without 
God, that must be derived from God. And if this 
new nature be, in the first instance, imparted without 






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a right or title, it shall be preserved and strengthened 
unto everlasting life. These and such thoughts have 
been very joyful to me this day. I also felt truly 
grateful to the Almighty that there is such a change 
to the better in my Gospel privileges here. Oh, 
thanks be unto God for this ! 

" Dec. 15. We little know what a day may bring 
forth. Nearly a fortnight ago I fell down thirteen 
steps of a stair, and was much bruised ; but, most 
providentially, had no bone broken, and was not 
otherwise injured. It is singular that this fall has 
been the means of prayer being answered : and, 
between a sense of gratitude for that, and for my 
merciful preservation, my heart has been full of 
thankfulness and praise. I was about a week con- 
fined to bed ; but never was God so present with me 
in illness. I could pray always, and rejoice too. 
Mr. Stewart visits me often, and has been a great 
comfort to me. I was still unable to go out to-day. 
My dear daughter and Mr. Reade, with his little boy, 
are now here. 

" Jan. 5, 1845. — I am now able to attend in God's 
house, and have been there the two last Sabbaths. 
I am happy with many of my family about me ; but, 
alas ! intercourse with others has in some measure 
deadened my heart to God. I look back to my sick- 



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bed with something like regret, for then I was 
with Him all day ; yet He will never leave nor 
forsake me. 

" March 20. — How uncertain are all things here ! 
This day week Lady Sinclair, my kind friend and 
stepmother, was taken ill with a bilious attack, and 
to-day is in that state we cannot say when she may 
be taken hence. I went in a chair to see her 
yesterday and to-day, being unwell myself. It is a 
sorrowing family. I prayed with them, and said 
what I could. Oh ! for a sanctified use of the 
afflictions that are thickening around them : for my 
sister, Mrs. Stewart, has long been also in a very 
precarious way, but seems to rest on the Rock of 
Ages. Lord, how soon may such a time as this 
come to me ! I feel this evening united to Christ. 

" 27. — How much have I to write this evening ! 
My kind friend, Lady Sinclair, is no more ; my sister, 
Mrs. Stewart, also gone. I was much with the 
former; but her recollection was greatly impaired, 
and she could say little on any subject. I saw her 
after death. Ah ! how solemn was the scene ! — how 
sad the feelings of her sorrowing family ! Yesterday 
she was consigned to the same grave at Holyrood, 
where my father lies. Mrs. Stewart gave pleasing 
evidence of being in a state of salvation. Oh, to be 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 269 

ready when my summons shall come ! To-day I 
commemorated my Lord's death in St. Luke's. 

" Rossdhu, Oct. 19. — I think grace grows; but 
it is downward growth. It is a greater sense of 
need, and a feeling that none but Christ can help. 
To-day I was thinking that I have every reason to 
trust that ' the Beloved is mine,' because He has 
made me so heartily willing to be saved in his own 
way. 

"Jan. 4, 1846. — I begin another year in health 
and comfort. This is the first day of the Concert for 
Prayer. I heartily joined in petitioning for an 
abundant outpouring of the precious Spirit; and I 
intend meeting with the servants during the week, 
in accordance with the appointment of our Church. 
I had an answer to prayer last week. How merciful 
is our God ! 

" 25. — Probably the last Sabbath here, as we 
propose leaving for Edinburgh on Wednesday. I 
pray earnestly for a blessing on the congregation and 
its pastor, and on the parish, — a new minister having 
been appointed for the Established Church. I do 
hope that this change will not prove unimportant, but 
that some good may come of it, and the hand of God 
be seen in it. I put my trust in Him for many 
things now depending on his providence. 



270 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOTJN. 

"18, Ainslie-place, Edinburgh, April 12. — Since 
writing here a fortnight ago, I have gone through a 
good deal. A few days after, I became very feverish, 
and about a week was nearly confined to bed. I 
suffered also, and still suffer, from a depressing 
nervousness, which is hard to bear, — disturbing my 
rest at night, and taking away my peace by day. 
Yet I think this illness has been blessed to me. 
Christ has appeared very precious ; and although at 
times I could scarcely see my interest in Him, at 
other times I could embrace the simple promise, and 
hold Him fast, and not let Him go without a 
blessing. Sick and in bed last Lord's-day, I could 
do nothing but offer a few words of prayer. To-day 
I am able to be up, and am rapidly recovering ; but 
being nervous, I thought, ' How shall I spend my 
sacred hours ? ' Looking through some books that 
had been lent me by my sister Catherine, I alighted 
on ' The True Christian, 5 by Jones of Creaton. 
Here I found much just suited to my need. All 
seemed encouraging ; and many times to-day I have 
been receiving Christ and all his fulness. In writing 
of this illness, I must not forget to notice my many 
temporal blessings. God has given me all I possibly 
could desire. Truly, 'He has made all my bed in 
my sickness.' 






LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 271 

" 19. — Although still feeble, I have been pro- 
gressing towards complete recovery during the week. 
Thanks to a gracious God ! I have felt great benefit 
from this illness. I never so strongly saw my need 
of Christ, nor so fully closed with Him. Reading 
this morning in Jones's little book, I felt assured that 
what he describes as certain marks of the new 
nature, — the love of God for what He is ; the love 
of holiness ; the love of the Spirit wherever seen ; 
the love of the law, — I felt convinced that these 
marks are mine, and something like assurance grew 
upon it. 

" 26. — I communicated in Free St. Stephen's, and 
scarcely ever enjoyed so much in the sacramental 
feast. I was fed in last week's preparatory services ; 
but especially to-day, both in the sanctuary and at 
home, God was present. I awoke early, and, before 
rising, read with much delight the sixth chapter of 
John. Mr. Gillies, on the love of Christ, from 
John xiii. 1, was truly delightful. Dr. James 
Buchanan served the second table, and followed in 
the same strain, from t Christ loved the Church, and 
gave himself for it.' I have heard soul-refreshing 
truths, and I have given myself to the Lord, and 
rejoice in his love. God enabling me, I will hence- 
forth confide in Him more, 



272 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

" Bossdhu, June 28. — Many weeks have elapsed 
since I was able to note down my spiritual state and 
feelings. I have been very ill; and after coming 
here from Edinburgh, was obliged to return to it 
for medical advice. The Almighty directed me to 
Dr. Simpson, who at once saw the root of the evil, 
and whose method of treatment has, under Provi- 
dence, given me great relief. The nervousness which 
so distressed me is gone. I have had a sight of 
death ; for when one attack followed another, I often 
thought I might not recover. Alas ! I never can 
view it with that desire to depart which many of 
God's children feel. However, in this, as in every- 
thing else, I must lean upon the Beloved, and hope 
He will guide me in safety through the dark valley. 
I seem to have been at school, and trust I have 
learned something, especially my helplessness, worth- 
lessness, utter insufficiency. Against this could I but 
set Christ's strength, worth, sufficiency, all Avould be 
well. I was five weeks in Edinburgh, and returned 
two days ago. God has mercifully kept my little 
grandson in health during my absence, and all has 
been mercifully ordered. 

"July 5. — Not well, but continuing to recover. 
Was at church, and heard a missionary, Mr. Strachan, 
preach, on Luke i. 77 — 79. How dark, how awful 



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LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 273 

would have been our thoughts regarding futurity, had 
not the tender mercy of our God caused the Day- 
spring to visit us, giving knowledge of salvation and 
the remission of sins ! Blessed knowledge ! most 
needful remission ! Deeply, most deeply do I feel 
my need of it." 

With the following letter to the Rev. Mr. Mac- 
donald, of Plockton, we conclude this chapter. This 
faithful minister was endeavouring to carry through 
some young men in their education as Gaelic 
preachers, an object to which Lady Colquhoun often 
and cheerfully contributed. 

"Bossdhu, Sept. 24, 1846. 
"Dear Mr. Macdonald, — I received your kind 
letter this morning, and you see I lose no time in 
replying. I have indeed been a great invalid, at least 
I thought myself so. No doubt, many of God's dear 
children suffer much more, and I had every comfort 
to alleviate. He c made all my bed in my sickness/ 
I am now, through mercy, very much better. Oh ! it 
was sweet to me, when little able to pray for myself, 
to hope that some of God's people prayed for me. I 
was ashamed when I read in your letter that thrice a 
day you remembered me ! Dear Sir, I can only say 



274 LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 

I value it more than tongue can tell. I often pray 
that any blessing asked for me may be largely given 
to those who ask themselves. You rightly judge that 
I have been longing for the sanctified use of affliction, 
more, I hope, than for its removal. It has laid me 
very low, and this is the greatest benefit I can 
perceive. I felt, and do feel, such a poor creature, 
weak, helpless, inconsistent, and sinful, that, were it 
not for the freeness of grace, I could have no hope. 
Yet, ' the foundation standeth sure.' Blessed, precious 
truth ! On the promises I hang, and I ask and wish 
for nothing but what God has promised to give. 
And ' is He a man that He should lie ? or the son of 
man that He should repent ? ' 

" I did not know you had been laboring in Skye. 
I should like to hear your opinion of the awakening 
there. You are sent, I have no doubt, where there is 
work for you, although possibly you may not see it. 
One prescription of my medical adviser I do not feel 
palatable, — that I must spend next winter, if spared, 
in England. But it is the Lord who sends me there. 
' As thou wilt,' I desire to say. Oh ! I felt touched 
by your observation, that I shall be here whilst God 
has any work to do with me or in me ; and what 
would faith desire more ? Ah, it is the want of faith 
that would lead us to wish to remain in this cold, 



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comfortless world. Pray, dear Mr. M., that in me it 
may be strengthened, and that the Spirit, — that best, 
that promised, that purchased gift may be given me 
in all its fulness, to enlighten and sanctify. 

" I propose remaining at Rossdhu till November, 
when I intend to remove to the south of England ; 
but it is not yet fixed where. Like Abraham, ' I go 
out not knowing whither I go/ I inclose 10/. for 
your young men, who, I am happy to learn, continue 
promising. May God grant you and your hearers all 
needful supplies of grace ! May He be your sun and 
shield wherever you are ! 

" I remain, yours in the best of bonds, 

" Janet Colquhoun." 



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CHAPTER VII. 

PRECIOUS IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD IS THE DEATH OF HIS 
SAINTS. PSALM CXVI. 15. 



The quiet chamber where the Christian sleeps, 
And where, from year to year, he prays and weeps j 
Whence, in the midnight watch, his thoughts arise 
To those bright mansions where his treasure lies, — 
How near it is to all his faith can see ! 
Yes, for that bliss unspeakable, unseen, 
Is ready, and the veil of flesh between 
A gentle sigh may rend, and then display 
The broad, full splendour of an endless day. 

JANE TAYLOR. 












The last chapter left the subject of this Memoir in 
shattered health; and, from its depressing influence 
on the nervous system, the illness of that spring 
was at first peculiarly painful. The temperament of 
Lady Colquhoun was in unison with her sober judg- 
ment, and any deviations from its habitual tranquillity 
were generally in a cheerful direction ; and so seldom 
was her religious experience tinctured with gloom, 
that she had a very imperfect sympathy with the deep 
dejection of some eminent Christians, in whose 
biography she otherwise found delight and instruction. 
When, therefore, dreary or disconsolate weeks were ap- 
pointed, she felt as if some strange thing had happened 
to her ; but, instead of yielding to despondency, her 
sound understanding ascribed to its real pathological 
origin this withdrawment of sensible comfort, and with 
unshaken confidence she rested still on the Rock of 
her Salvation ; and through her heavenly Father's 



280 LIFE OF LADY C0LQTJH0UN. 

tender mercy, this trying attendant on her malady 
was ere long succeeded by her wonted serenity. 

Having come to Rossdhu in May, as has already 
been mentioned, she was obliged to return to Edin- 
burgh for medical advice almost immediately. There, 
in much weakness, she spent the month of June; 
and we have now before us the notes, neatly, but 
feebly written, in which she conveyed tidings of her 
progress to her servants at home. To her attached 
housekeeper she wrote, — 

" Monday. — Your few lines, which I received this 
morning, gave me pleasure, — to hear of the dear 
child's keeping well, and that all is going on com- 
fortably. I am able to be up now, and in the 
parlor; but this last illness has thrown me back. 
I would say I am sorry, but am silenced by the 
thought, — it is the Lord. Dr. Simpson is now to go 
on with his prescription, to which the Lord can give 
efficacy if so seemeth Him good. But what if now 
should be His time to call me hence ? I should be 
' also ready.' He will do well. I do not know that 
there is much cause for alarm. I have less nervous- 
ness, and sleep better. We have comfortable lodgings. 
I am in good hands. (Deut. xxxiii. 3.) I am happy 
you had such good assistance at the communion. 

" Your sincere friend, — J. C." 



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To her little grandson, now two years old, she 
had always shown the most tender affection, and a 
chief part of her present trial was separation from 
him. Many of these notes are addressed to his 
nnrse : — 

" May 29. — I was very glad indeed to hear that 
my dear little boy continued strong, and was be- 
having well. May God in mercy watch over him, 
and bring me back to him in comfort 1 I sometimes 
feel the thought that (poor little fellow !) he cannot 
understand why I have left him. I am going on with 
the means prescribed, and have less of the nervousness 
than I had, and I sleep better. I am out as much 
as possible, and have every reason to be thankful for 
goodness and mercy following me." 

In the beginning of July she returned to Dum- 
bartonshire, recruited ; but on the 18th of that 
month an aguish fever compelled her to hasten back 
to Edinburgh. There again the means were blessed ; 
and she recovered strength enough to hear Dr. 
Gordon and Mr. Gilhes preach, and was able to pay 
a visit to the venerable widow of her old pastor, 
Dr. Buchanan. When Lady Colquhoun rose to take 
leave, her aged friend insisted on accompanying her 
to the door; and to the gentle remonstrance of her 
niece, replied, "It is the last time." She did not 



282 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

think that the younger was to go first, for her " own 
time was not yet." 

From Edinburgh, about the middle of August, she 
proceeded to Helensburgh, and was sufficiently well to 
take a lively interest in every movement affecting the 
welfare of the Redeemer's kingdom. She had there, 
in the preceding year, organized a branch of the 
Irish Home Mission ; and whilst its affairs gave her 
some occupation, she was greatly cheered by accounts 
of the progress made by Hindoo girls attending the 
schools of her favorite Society in India. A month's 
sojourn on the coast apparently revived her strength ; 
and at the period of her final return to Rossdhu, her 
habitual language was gratitude to the Father of 
mercies. Peaceful slumber was a boon which she 
now frequently enjoyed, and had learned exceedingly 
to prize ■ and in the mornings she would frequently 
say, " How thankful should I be when I think of 
Mrs. Cathcart ! " Mrs. C. had been deprived of rest 
at night for a long time before her death, — the only 
true repose she could obtain being a short sleep in 
the evening, on a sofa in the drawing-room. 

On the 29th of September, when out walking, she 
was overtaken in a shower, and obliged to seek 
shelter under a tree. She herself apprehended no 
injury, and smiled at the excessive caution of her 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 283 

family in sending out cloaks and shawls. Next 
morning, however, she complained of sore -throat and 
fever; and although that morning she appeared at 
the breakfast-table, and for two days continued to go 
about and converse with her usual cheerfulness, she 
evidently grew worse, and before Sabbath the 4th of 
October, she had taken to that bed from which she 
was never again to arise. On that first Sabbath of 
her illness, one of the servants, to whom she had 
often spoken on the concerns of her soul, came into 
the room ; and, after saying a few kind words to 
her, Lady Colquhoun offered to pray with her, as she 
had frequently done in other days. The brief but 
touching prayer will not readily be forgotten by her 
on whose behalf it was offered, all the rather, that 
every utterance had now become an exertion. To 
one of her family that day she said emphatically, 
" ' Christ is all my salvation and all my desire/ I 
hope for salvation in nothing but Christ/' 

At an early period of her illness she sent for Sir 
James, desiring to speak to him alone. She told 
him that before she became too ill, she wanted to 
give directions about her funeral; that she did not 
wish to have any one invited but the nearest 
relations, and that it should be quite private. She 
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composure told them her apprehension as to the 
result, adding, "I die at the foot of the cross." 
Next day she gave her youngest son directions 
regarding certain charities, one of which was, that 
the sum she had paid for the education of a 
theological student should be continued till his 
college course was ended. " I see," she said, " that 
you are affected; but I know that you will pay 
attention to my wishes, as I have not left them as 
bequests in my will." She then subjoined with 
great earnestness, " Christ is my Portion ; and, oh ! 
what a Portion ! Seek that Portion." 

A message had been sent to Edinburgh for Dr. 
Simpson. His partner, Dr. Keith, arrived on the 6th, 
and stayed all night ; Dr. Simpson came on the 9th ; 
and during the remainder of her illness — an attack of 
dysentery, then prevalent, — one or other of these dis- 
tinguished practitioners was frequently with her, doing 
all that skill and kindness could devise, often to the 
great temporary relief of their patient. But from 
her first seizure she herself seemed to have only one 
impression regarding the issue. About a week after 
its commencement she said to one of the household, 
" Mrs. L., I am convinced that this illness is to end 
in death; and I have just one hope — only one, — 
and that is, the finished work of Jesus." On her 



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attendant expressing a hope that she might recover, 
she answered, " Oh, no ! And for me to live would 
be Christ, but to die will be gain, — unspeakable 
gain ; " and then, after a short prayer, she musingly 
added, "And shall I see Him as He is — so soon? 
And shall I join the redeemed around the throne? 
Overwhelming thought ! " The next day, — and it 
was the only day that she so complained, — she spoke 
as if under a cloud, and requested that those words 
might be read to her (Isa. xliii. 1 — 3), " Pear not j 
for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy 
name ; thou art mine. When thou passest through 
the waters, I will be with thee; and through the 
rivers, they shall not overflow thee : when thou walkest 
through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither 
shall the flame kindle upon thee. For I am the 
Lord thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour." 
But after that she seemed to be no more disturbed, 
often saying, " What a blessing it is that the enemy 
is kept away ! " And from her lips were constantly 
dropping such expressions as, " The righteous hath 
hope in his death." " I know that my Redeemer 
liveth." " I cannot praise Him as I would ; but I 
shall yet praise Him in perfection; yea, through all 
eternity." 

She earnestly desired to see her daughter, Mrs. 



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Page Reade; but as the distance was great, feared 
that she might not reach Rossdhu in time to see her 
alive. 

It was a great delight to her when her second son 
arrived from Edinburgh. She took his hand, saying, 
" That dear hand ! " and after conversing cheerfully 
and minutely with him about his family, she ended 
by affectionately giving him her blessing. 

Two lovely features of Christian character were 
very observable during this illness, a sweet acqui- 
escence in the will of God and a constant mindful- 
ness of others. Her sufferings were often very great, 
but she bore them without a murmur. On one occa- 
sion when the pain was violent, and in eagerness for 
speedy relief many palliatives were tried in quick suc- 
cession, she said to one of the servants, " I fear you 
will think me impatient ; " and the servant, who was 
only thinking of her mistress's sufferings, could give 
no answer but by bursting into tears. Another time, 
when her daughter was expressing the hope that she 
might yet be spared to them, her answer was, " And 
would you wish to keep me here ? You don't know 
what I suffer." Then recollecting how these words 
might be understood, and alarmed at the idea of 
their conveying an impression of repining, with a 
look of anguish she exclaimed, " Oh, do I complain ? 



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I did not mean to complain. I retract these words." 
And when there was any abatement of suffering, she 
took care to apprize those near her, often by a single 
word when she could say no more, " Better, easy, — 
easier," or " The Lord be praised for that." And in 
perfect self-forgetfulness, her great concern was for 
the health and comfort of those who ministered to 
her. In deep weakness she would remember the 
minutest precautions lest her daughter might catch 
cold sitting by her- bedside over-night. During her 
own sickness the oldest inmate of the establishment 
was very low, — the aged nurse, Mrs. Barbara Graham. 
For years this faithful servant had been very frail and 
almost bedridden, and now, like her kind mistress, 
she was rapidly sinking j and to Lady Colquhoun it 
was a frequent anxiety, lest in their attendance on 
herself poor Graham should feel lonely or be any way 
overlooked. Amongst other relatives then at Bossdhu 
was her sister-in-law, Miss Colquhoun ; and, speaking 
to her, she remarked, "You must find this a dull 
house," and she charged her servants to do all they 
could for the comfort of the guests, so that they 
might not be too much reminded of her own indis- 
position. 

She could now take scarcely any sustenance, and 
as it was with the outer, so it was with the inner 



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man. Her soul desired no dainty meat, but sub- 
sisted entirely on the Word of God. Such texts as 
Isaiah xxxii. 2, John xiv. 27, and xvii. 24, Romans 
viii. 32 — 39, were cordials which her spirit drank in 
when all human authorship had lost its relish. That 
passage in the Romans was the last to which she 
listened, and it is interesting to know that it is 
the last which was read to her beloved sister, 
Hannah. And though it was an effort to speak 
much, it seemed to make the effort less if it were 
some "tried word" that she was quoting. Just 
previous to this illness her daughter had been suffer- 
ing from headache, and one day to her affectionate 
inquiry Miss Colquhoun replying that she was quite 
well, she rejoined, " He stayeth his rough wind in 
the day of his east wind." And at the time when 
her precarious state was first revealed to her family, 
perceiving Miss C. in deep distress, she gently said, 
" f All his saints are in thy hand/ Do you remember 
that?" — alluding to a sermon preached in the fore- 
going spring, by Mr. Gillies, the notes of which had 
afforded her singular delight. And at another time, 
turning to her daughter with a look of ineffable fond- 
ness, she repeated, " I will never leave thee nor for- 
sake thee." 

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for all the servants, and spoke to them separately on 
the things of their eternal peace. To one she said, 
" Mary, you will soon lose me. Your day may not 
be so near, but it is coming ; see that you have an 
interest in Christ before that; for what would I do 
to-day without Him ? Mary, don't forget me, and re- 
member all I have told you \ and be sure you attend 
to the preaching of the Word. I benefited much 
from that in my own youth. And thank you for all 
that you have done for me." To another she said, 
" Look at me, a poor helpless creature, and don't 
put off preparing for eternity till you come to a 
death-bed. May the Lord be with you ! " To 
another, " Now, I., be kind to Graham as long as 
you have her ; but above all, oh remember your own 
soul ! Good by, God bless you ! " And to one in 
whose spiritual welfare she had much interested 
herself, f- Well, Mary, I wish to bid you good by ; 
for I will soon be taken from you. Never forget 
what I have said to you ; and oh, take Jesus for your 
friend, and then there will be no fear of you. Good 
by, Mary." And great as was the exertion to 
her wasted frame, so intent was she on addressing 
a word of kindness and parting counsel to every 
one of them, that, having missed one of the men- 
servants, she sent a messenger to bring him. She 



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had something suitable for each, and no one was 
overlooked. 

What else transpired within the precincts of that 
hallowed chamber must be told in the words of filial 
affection : — " She now felt as if her work were done. 
At the same time she declared that she renounced 
all dependance on anything she had ever performed, 
as her best was altogether sinful; adding, ' Christ is 
my hope, should be my motto ; I rely entirely on his 
finished work.' To myself she said, ' My death will 
do you more good than my life could do; for it 
will show you more forcibly than anything that can 
happen, the vanity of earthly things/ After express- 
ing in strong terms how much she felt at leaving 
me behind, she said, ' I wish I could take you with 
me ; but God can make up my loss to you/ I told 
her that a letter had come to her from her beloved 
friend, Miss S. She said, ' Poor A. ! little does she 
think of the news that awaits her ; ' but she did not 
ask to have the letter read. Indeed she was too ill 
to listen. 

" Six days before her death, the nurse brought her 
little grandson to the door of her chamber, and I 
asked if she might bring him in. c Oh, yes/ she 
replied, f tell her to bring him in that I may see him 
for the last time/ Her eyes were now almost con- 



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stantly closed, but she raised them and looked on 
him with inexpressible tenderness. Then giving him 
her blessing, she prayed ■ that the Lord might make 
him a child of grace, and that, if spared, he might 
yet witness for His own cause.' She then said, ' I 
have given him up to God, and commit him to His 
care \ } and gave his nurse her blessing. The dear 
child's look of infantine delight at again beholding 
his grandmamma was touchingly contrasted with 
all besides in that solemn scene. She spoke of her 
daughter, Mrs. Reade, and of the probability that 
she and Mr. Reade were then on their way. ' But 
tell Helen how much I love her, and give my love 
to Mr. Reade, and their dear, dear little boy/ That 
evening, when all the family who were then at home 
were assembled in her apartment, she desired a light 
to be brought near, and asked if they saw much 
change in her appearance ; but though very wasted, 
it was wonderful how little alteration had come over 
that placid countenance. 

" On the morning of the 17th, her sister and 
sister-in-law being about to leave, came to bid her 
farewell. To Miss Diana Sinclair she said, ' Set the 
Lord Jesus always before you, and it will be your 
comfort on your death-bed, as it is at this moment 
mine/ In a previous interview her sister had been 

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much affected by her asking, ' Do I not remind 
you of Hannah ? ' When Miss Colquhoun afterwards 
came into the room, she likewise exhorted her to 
go to the Saviour, and embraced her affectionately 
and gave her her blessing. By that day's post intel- 
ligence was received that Mr. and Mrs. Reade would 
reach Rossdhu in the evening. They accordingly 
arrived at seven o'clock, having travelled day and 
night. The meeting, though affecting, was an inex- 
pressible comfort to mother and daughter. 

" On first seeing Mrs. Reade, she repeated, ' I am 
so thankful, I am so thankful ; ' adding, l Yesterday I 
never expected to see you again in this w r orld \ but 
how merciful is my gracious Lord to hear my prayers, 
that you may receive my parting blessing still ! ' And 
then she continued, ' But I am much better to-day ; 
indeed, I feel better since you arrived ; although 
you must find me much changed. However, we 
must look from this to the glorious change/ She 
then asked to see Mr. Reade, and her young grand- 
son, James Reade, for whom she had always evinced 
a great affection. He was then seven years old. 
She reminded him of the times when she used to 
take such pleasure in teaching him chapters from the 
Bible, and hymns, and when she used to tell him 
of Jesus' love to little children. She then asked him 



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to repeat the last six verses of the eleventh chapter 
of Matthew, and then told him that she had no fears 
of death because she had cast her ' heavy load ' on 
Jesus, who was willing to receive c all ' who ' came ' 
to Him. And when she ended with saying, ' I trust, 
dear boy, we shall one day meet in heaven ; there is 
plenty of room there,' and more to the same purport, 
tears filled the eyes of all who overheard her simple 
exhortation ." 

Being so much better that day, Mrs. Reade asked 
what would be her own wishes in regard to recovery. 
She answered that her only tie to life now would be 
to be with them all, and then she said, " Perhaps 
it would be better if I went now, having advanced so 
far on the way; for even if I do recover from this 
illness, I shall sooner or later have to go through the 
same scene again, and at my period of life the time 
must be short." 

" A few days before her death," — we resume Miss 
Colquhoun's narrative, — "on being raised up, she 
remarked, with apparent satisfaction, that she could 
not see out of the window nor distinguish objects at 
any distance. Thankfulness was still a prominent 
trait of her disposition, and every relief from pain 
called forth some grateful acknowledgment. * Thanks, 
Lord,' was her usual emphatic expression every time 



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she received her medicines or such slight nourishment 
as she was able to take. Dr. Simpson's last visit was 
on the night of the 19th, and he was again the 
means of alleviating her sufferings for a time. He 
could do no more. She gradually relapsed, and 
it was plain that her release could not be distant. 
She herself seemed to long for it, and frequently 
repeated, * Come, Lord Jesus, come quickly.' She 
asked if the doctors would not know by her pulse 
how long she was likely to last, and said to Mrs. 
Reade, when they were together alone, f Now think 
if there is anything else you would like to say or 
to ask ; for my time is very short.' Mrs. R. replied, 
' You seem very anxious to be gone.' * Yes,' was 
the answer, ' the sooner the better now, for me 
and for you too; but I must be patient.' She 
then said, \ Dearest H., you will never forget all I 
have said to you. I sometimes fear I have not said 
enough to you all § but I commit you to the Saviour.' 
Mrs. R. said, ' I am sure it rests with ourselves if we 
have not benefited as we ought.' She replied, c That's 
gratifying,' — and after a few more remarks, ended at 
that time by embracing her affectionately, and with 
great earnestness and solemnity gave her the final 
blessing. She then desired Mrs. R. to bring her 
little boy, James Reade, that he might also receive 



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her parting blessing, and she took leave of him in a 
most affectionate manner. On the evening of the 
20th she took an affectionate leave of her eldest and 
youngest sons. She thanked my eldest brother for 
all his kindness to her, particularizing some of her 
obligations to him, and then she gave each of them 
her last blessing, adding, ' I hope to meet you all at 
the right hand of the Judge/ After midnight she 
desired that I should endeavour to procure some rest, 
and as her attendants promised to come for me if 
Lady Colquhoun became worse, I complied, the more 
readily as the violence of her sufferings had now con- 
siderably abated. Towards morning she showed her 
usual consideration for those around her. A maid- 
servant had sat up to relieve one of her regular 
attendants : and when she was leaving the room, 
though articulation was now very difficult, she said, 
i Remember, M., you must not go to your work as 
usual to-day. J That morning, the 21st, I found 
her quiet, and apparently free from pain, though 
evidently going home. Her eyes were closed, but 
she was not asleep ; for when I spoke she threw 
her arms round my neck and kissed me affectionately. 
It was a mother's last embrace. She then said to me, 
'My Sarah, I have not given you my blessing. I 
pray that God may bless you with all spiritual 



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blessings in heavenly places in Christ Jesus.' By 
and by she said, 'I wish none to be with me but 
my family/ My sister and I knew that this was 
in allusion to her last moments. She again asked 
to see her little grandson, James Reade; but when 
he was brought the shades of death had obscured her 
sight. She said, 'Where is he? I cannot see him/ 
Mrs. R. put his hand within hers, and she grasped it 
firmly, her lips moving as if in prayer. Mrs. R. and 
I sat down by her bed-side, and after a short interval 
I said to her, 'We shall meet in heaven/ She 
returned no answer, nor could I be sure that she 
heard me. I then said, 'And Jesus is with you 
now/ She turned her head round to me, and made 
an effort to reply, and by the expression of her 
countenance I am quite certain that she understood 
me. She spoke no more, and seemed as if in a soft 
sleep. She faintly acquiesced when Mrs. Reade 
asked if she would like to see Mr. Stewart, in whose 
visits she had taken peculiar pleasure. She was quite 
unable to speak to him when he arrived, but assented 
when asked if he should pray. We kneeled down, 
and in a most solemn and impressive prayer Mr. S. 
commended her soul to God. After this she lingered, 
as if in a peaceful slumber, until three o'clock in 
the afternoon, when, without a struggle, a groan, 



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or sigh, her willing spirit took its flight to those 
glorious realms for which she had longed so ardently. 
But so gentle, so imperceptible was her release, that 
for some time we could scarcely believe she was really 
gone. { She was not, for God took her ; ' and after 
death her countenance retained the peaceful, tranquil 
look it had worn when living." 

It was on Wednesday, October 21, 1846, that her 
shining path thus merged in perfect day. And 
on the following Saturday another pilgrimage ended. 
Mrs. Graham only outlived by three days that kind 
and grateful mistress who had provided with every 
comfort her years of infirmity and decay. On 
Tuesday the 27th the chapel, which ten years before 
had received the remains of her husband, opened 
for the coffin of Lady Colquhoun. In compliance 
with her own request, she still wore her wedding- 
ring and a mourning-ring containing Sir James's hair. 
The funeral was private, but a few of the people 
in the neighbourhood sought and received permission 
to be present. Mr. N. Stewart conducted the usual 
service before the precious remains were carried forth 
to the place of sepulture. It was exactly four weeks 
that day when last she looked on the tints of autumn. 
The copses were russet then, and the noble trees 
around the mansion wore their final drapery of scarlet, 



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and brown, and gold, a sight which she used wonder- 
fully to admire. But by the time the withered leaves 
were drifting into her grave, she needed not to mind 
that it was winter in the earth ; for, instead of the 
roughening lake and the searing forest, God had 
showed her " the pure river, clear as crystal," and 
"the tree of life, yielding fruit every month," and 
whose leaves " heal the nations : " and, better still, 
she had found her life-long wish ; she " served God 
and saw his face." 

On the following Sabbath her funeral sermon was 
preached from Heb. vi. 12, in the Free Church of 
Luss, by her much-valued friend and minister, the 
Rev. Neil Stewart ; and in the parish church an 
appropriate and impressive sermon was delivered from 
John xiv. 27, by the Rev. Robert Wright. And when 
the various religious societies and charitable institu- 
tions with which she had been connected held their 
next meetings, they placed on record their fervent 
tributes of affection and esteem.* 

* In the " Thirty-sixth Annual Report of the Gaelic School 
Society," appeared the following just and discriminating notice, 
which we have much satisfaction in transferring to these 
pages : — 

" Before passing from what refers to the Ladies' Association, 
your Committee lament to say, that in common with all the 
friends of religion in this land, they have, in the death of Lady 



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Tall and dignified, with an ample and intellectual 
forehead, and with beautiful Grecian features, lighted 

Colquhoun, to mourn over the removal from among them of 
one who formed a distinguished member of Christ's Church 
upon earth, — one who adorned the profession of Christianity, 
and who formed an invaluable friend of the Gaelic School 
Society, as Treasurer of the Ladies' Association, and one of the 
Society's Vice-Patronesses. The Committee have a melancholy 
satisfaction in transferring to these pages the minute which 
they have recorded elsewhere, on this affecting event in the 
history of the past year, — with the sentiments expressed in 
which, they feel assured, all the friends of the Society will 
heartily sympathize : — 

" ' It is with deep concern and solemnity of feeling that the 
Committee have now to record the death of Lady Colquhoun 
of Luss, who for several years has acted as Treasurer to the 
Ladies' Auxiliary Association in connexion with this Society. 
They are deeply sensible that the event is felt by the religious 
world to be a public loss. The influence of Lady Colquhoun's 
holy and consistent life ; the character of her writings, uniting 
spirituality of tone, and faithfulness in sentiment, with mental 
acuteness and elegance of diction ; the munificence of her 
offerings to the cause of Christ, which was ever dear to her ; 
and, above all, the efficacy of her fervent prayers, combined to 
render her at once the ornament of her numerous circle of 
friends, and an esteemed and truly valuable member of the 
Church of Christ. The removal of one, who in the providence 
and by the grace of God, occupied such a position, especially at 
such a time, is an occurrence which cannot fail solemnly to 
affect the minds of all who are concerned for the cause of 
truth. 

" * But the Committee feel that their province is specially to 



up by a fine complexion and an eye mildly pene- 
trating, there was something peculiarly prepossessing 

regard this event in its bearing on the Gaelic School Society. 
It is with melancholy interest they record the lively and 
affectionate concern uniformly evinced by Lady Colquhoun for 
the prosperity of this Institution. In its times of difficulty 
and trial she was its faithful, zealous, self-denying, devoted 
friend. When it pleased the Lord to vouchsafe to its efforts 
any marked tokens of His countenance and blessing, such 
tidings were ever to her the occasion of humble gratitude and 
praise. The Society received largely of her bounty, and no 
doubt was often the subject of her prayers. Reflecting on the 
high place which she was enabled to occupy, the Committee 
feel that in her removal by the hand of Providence, one of their 
chief earthly props has been taken away. 

" \ But it is the Lord's hand which has smitten. He is 
teaching by this event to "cease from man/' and to look with 
undivided reliance to his grace and power. He will graciously 
maintain his own cause, and command the light to shine even 
out of darkness. The Committee would, therefore, while 
feeling the stroke, desire to go on with their humble labors, 
encouraging themselves in the Lord. In the meantime, they 
would take comfort in reflecting on the well-grounded hope 
which they are warranted to cherish regarding their valued 
and lamented friend. And while they pray that this solemn 
event may be sanctified to themselves and to all who knew the 
Christian worth and zeal of Lady Colquhoun, they fervently 
trust that the Lord will be pleased specially to bless it to her 
sorrowing family and relatives. To them the bereavement is, 
humanly speaking, irreparable. But their sorrow may well be 
turned into joy, for it is written, " Blessed are the dead which 
die in the Lord, from henceforth; yea, saith the Spirit, that 



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in the youthful appearance of Lady Colquhoun. A 
total absence of affectation superadded the perfecting 

they may rest from their labors ; and their works do follow 
them." ' " 

The same event was thus noticed in the Report on Female 
Education in India : — 

" During the past year, not a few of those who once were 
distinguished associates with us in this great enterprise, whose 
tenderest sympathies were long ago aroused for the manifold 
sorrows of the daughters of India, and whose delight it was to 
devise and to prosecute plans which should ensure their com- 
plete and final redemption from all their woes, have ceased to 
be engaged in such occupations on earth. Lady Colquhoun, 
of Luss, one of your Society's earliest and most highly-valued 
friends, with whose enlightened Christian counsels and pre- 
vailing intercessions it was for long so eminently favored ; 
and Major John St. Clair Jameson,- of Bombay, whose honoured 
name is associated in the minds of so many in this country, 
with their first feelings of commiseration for the fate of their 
afflicted sisters in the East, as well as other less distinguished, 
but not less devoted friends of the cause, have within the last few 
months rested from their labors and entered upon their reward. 

"Regarding the elevated character of the late lamented 
Patroness (Lady Colquhoun), the Committee feel that it would 
be superfluous now to remark. The distinguished gifts she 
possessed, which all were consecrated to the noblest and best of 
purposes ; her matured graces, which served so eminently to 
adorn the doctrine of her God and Saviour, — these were well 
known and appreciated in the Churches while she was yet 
here, and will long be cherished in the fond remembrance of 
many, now that she is gone. But the Committee are assured 
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charm of a sweet unconsciousness. Her elevated 
mind and graceful manners were instinct with 
feminine refinement and inherent nobility; and 
though in later years her complexion had faded and 
her figure stooped, there came the more brightly 

your agent at Calcutta by their revered departed friend, 
indicating, as it does, the views and feelings she entertained 
regarding India during her last days on earth, will be regarded 
as possessing peculiar interest by all the members of the 
Society : — 

" ' I would wish to encourage the hope that there is a bless- 
ing in store for India. The windows of heaven seem opening ; 
put in your claim for a share of the refreshing shower. Hope 
on ! Wait on ! Urge and work on ! After toil, rest is sweet; 
and the rest that remains for the people of God will be most 
welcome to those who have borne the burden and heat of the 
day.' " 

To which must be added an extract from the Sixth Address 
of the Ladies' Society in Scotland in Aid of the Home Mission 
of the Presbyterian Church in Ireland : — 

" We cannot close this Report without alluding to the loss 
which our Society has sustained in the removal, by death, of 
its much-respected Patroness, Lady Colquhoun. To her this 
Society chiefly owed its origin. In her death, the cause of the 
Home Mission may be said to have lost, in Scotland, its oldest 
and most influential friend. Besides defraying the College 
expenses of one of the converts now training for the ministry 
(Mr. Keegan), she ever contributed readily with her means to 
the numerous demands of the Mission in other ways. The want 
of her generous support and Christian counsel in the manage- 
ment of this Society will be long and deeply felt," &c, &c. 



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forth the reassuring gentleness, the delicate con- 
sideration, and the tact in diffusing happiness, which 
are among the loveliest attributes of the Christian 
lady. 

The basis of her natural goodness was truth. 
Even before it was hallowed into "godly sincerity," 
her disposition was unusually open and candid ; and 
after she had learned to live in the recollection, — 
" Thou, God, seest me/' she became studiously exact 
and scrupulous. It was not only that she forbade 
her servants to use the fashionable equivocation, 
" Not at home," but all her intercourse and corre- 
spondence were pervaded by a most rigid adherence 
to the rule of " Yea, yea, and Nay, nay." And this 
elaborate truthfulness re-acted on all her character. 
It materially promoted her self-knowledge, and con- 
tributed to her growth in grace. And the blessed 
consciousness that she had never wilfully flattered or 
maligned, enabled her to mingle in all society with 
a cheerful security and a goodwill as obvious as it 
was genuine. Nor was she " afraid of evil tidings. 
Her heart was fixed, trusting in the Lord." 

The steps by which she was brought to the 
knowledge of the Saviour, have been traced in the 
foregoing pages; but, as a brief review of her 
religious experience, and as an expression of her 



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matured feelings and sentiments very near the close 
of life, we are sure the reader will peruse with 
interest the following letter. It was addressed to a 
faithful minister in the Highlands, towards the erec- 
tion of whose church she had previously contributed, 
and is dated Oct. 28, 1845 :— 

"My dear Sir, — I know not how to refuse the 
request made in your letter, which I received a short 
time since; and yet I am assured nothing but mis- 
conception on your part could have induced you to 
make it. I am to tell you ' my sentiments and 
feelings when Jehovah causes the light of his face to 
shine on me.' Alas ! alas ! how rare is this ! And 
I am to say what are my ' views and feelings when, 
in chastisement, His face is hid/ Here, also, I am at 
fault; for I know little of the heights and depths to 
which so many of God's people are subjected. I 
have been led in green pastures, and beside the still 
waters. One thing I have learned, and from the 
bottom of my heart I feel it, — my utter nothingness. 
But do not think my speaking thus is the sign of 
deep humility. Ah ! no. I am sensible you will not 
think the worse of me for saying so. I fear to write 
of myself, — I cannot, without sin. I may write, 
then, of my Saviour; there is a theme upon which I 



LIFE OF LADY C0LQUH0UN. 305 

need not dread to enlarge. And I can with truth 
say, that each step in my journey through life leads 
me, with more undivided confidence, to rest on Him 
alone, without reference to anything else but His 
finished work. 

" * Nothing in my hand I bring, 
Simply to thy cross I cling ; 
Naked, come to thee for dress ; 
Helpless, look to thee for grace ; 
Foul, I to the Fountain fly ; 
Wash me, Saviour ! or I die.' 

" I have been led very gradually and gently in the 
divine life. I never knew the pangs of the new 
birth ; and at first had slight views of the depravity 
of the heart, or of the need of salvation by Christ. 
These things were more articles of my creed than 
the conviction of the soul. I believed them chiefly 
because the Bible told me they were true. But years 
have supervened, and proof that the heart is deceitful 
above all things and desperately wicked has not been 
awanting; and hence, if saved at all, I now feel it 
must be by grace through faith. One thing, I 
believe, is rather singular in my experience, — that I 
was more induced to devote myself to God by the 
beauty of the divine character, and the lovely pre- 
cepts of the Gospel, than by any other consideration. 



306 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

And still, when I can get but a glimpse of these 
things in anything like their transcendent glory, my 
heart is fixed. But I dare not go on in this strain. 
I am much afraid you will think me very different 
from what I am. I have wandered from my subject. 
I was going to write of the Saviour. I think, then, 
the Apostle Peter is very happy in the expression 
when he calls Him 'precious.' What so precious 
as that which we cannot have a moment's peace 
without ? What so precious as that in which per- 
fection dwells, — where beauty alone shines? Or, 
what is of equal value to us with the God-man, who 
saves us from everlasting perdition, and makes us 
* partakers of His holiness ? ' These are common- 
place and well-known truths ; but we need to be 
reminded of them ; and, ah ! how slightly are they 
impressed upon the heart ! Yet still — still we must 
say, however listlessly and feebly, Christ is precious! 
Many, I know, say it with more devout affections 
than I can do. But say so I must and will, as He 
Himself shall enable me. He must take my heart; 
I cannot give it Him. You, my dear Sir, have a 
high honor assigned to you in having the ever- 
lasting Gospel to preach. Let not your hands hang 
down ; you have a noble cause, a good Master, and 
assurance, of some measure at least, of success. I 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 307 

believe ministers are often little aware of the effect 
of their preaching. I knew a man of God, now 
in his grave, or rather, I should say, now before 
the throne, (Dr. Buchanan, of the Canongate,) who 
told me that he had just heard of one who had died 
in the Lord, and mentioned, on his death-bed, that 
Dr. B.'s preaching had been the means of his con- 
version twenty years before ; and all that time he 
was ignorant of the circumstance. When very 
young, Dr. B. was of great use to myself; but I 
dared not have told him so for long after. I have 
now, as far as I know it, and according to my 
ability, complied with your request. May not I, 
with equal reason, expect that a word from you will 
benefit me ? But I do not wish to tax you. I know 
the many calls you must have upon your time, and I, 
too, have sometimes as much writing as I can well 
accomplish." 

The pervading element in her piety was an adoring 
attachment to this Divine Redeemer. The desire 
to see His cause triumphant in the world impelled 
her efforts in the many Societies of which she was 
an assiduous member. Regard for His honor 
prompted all the more important actions of her later 
life. The hope of introducing others to His trans- 

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forming friendship made her personally and with 
the pen, in books and in conversation, in cottage 
visits and in exalted society, " instant in season and 
out of season." And the belief that they belonged 
to the Saviour endeared to her obscure or imperfect 
Christians, just as the perception of earnestness in 
His service drew her regard towards ministers of 
ordinary gifts, and made her a docile or delighted 
listener to sermons which would have been reckoned 
common-place by hearers more fastidious or less 
fervent. And closely allied to this was her unusual 
confidence in prayer. It was one of the sisters at 
Bethany who said to Jesus, "Lord, if thou hadst 
been here, my brother had not died. But I know, 
that even now, whatsoever thou wilt ask of God, 
God will give it thee." And the subject of this 
record had a confidence in the Saviour's grace and 
power akin to that of Martha, and for a similar 
reason, — she had a like affection. In everything by 
prayer and supplication, she made known her 
requests ; and her Diary abounds in notices of 
answered prayer. 

"Ye are the light of the world." The believer 
fulfils his exalted function when, filled with the 
Divine Spirit, he so acts that in his graciousness 
men are reminded of the grace of God. "Let it 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 309 

shine/ ' and " let it so shine that men may see 
your good works, and glorify your Father in heaven.' 5 
The piety of Lady Colquhoun was spontaneous, 
effusive, evenly, like a lamp abundantly replenished ; 
and its bright spirituality at once reminded the 
beholder of its heavenly Source. And we know not 
that we can better describe what manner of person 
she was in this respect, than by copying the words 
of her own minister, and those of her eldest 
brother. 

" It has been my privilege," says the Rev. Neil 
Stewart, " to converse with not a few persons of 
Christian character ; but I have not received the 
same pleasure or benefit from all. In conversing 
with some, I have felt my affections restrained, my 
spirits depressed, and a painful feeling of discontent 
predominating in my mind. But I never left Lady 
Colquhoun without feeling my affections purified, my 
heart warmed, and my spirit raised in humble thank- 
fulness to God for his goodness, and in earnest 
desire to be conformed to His image, and to do all 
things to His glory. This, I am persuaded, was the 
result of the peculiar character of her piety, which 
was alike devoid of that asceticism which contracts 
the affections, and that enthusiasm which impairs 
the judgment. Like one of her favorite authors, 



310 LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 

John Howe, she dwelt with much delight on the 
character and attributes of God as revealed in the 
face of Jesus Christ, and by the habitual contempla- 
tion of them it seemed as if she were more and 
more conformed to the same image." 

And to his niece, Sir George Sinclair writes : — 
" I look back with unfeigned satisfaction on all my 
personal intercourse with my beloved sister, because 
I am quite certain that we never exchanged a hasty 
word, and never harboured towards each other an 
unkind feeling, even for a single moment. Her piety 
was entirely free from moroseness or gloom. She 
was never highly elevated, and never unduly de- 
pressed. Though always dignified, her manner was 
often playful. She did not exact from others a strict 
and undeviating observance of the rules which she 
laid down for her own guidance, and though uncom- 
promising as to all principles of grave importance, 
she was always inclined to the side of lenity and 
indulgence when she differed from others in matters 
of minor moment. You are aware with what enthusi- 
astic strength of zeal and conviction she espoused 
the interests of the Free Church ; and yet she always 
discussed that very exciting question with me (who 
had reluctantly, but conscientiously, remained con- 
nected with the Established Church) in a spirit of 



LIFE OF LADY COLQUHOUN. 311 

charity and forbearance, which is much more fre- 
quently enforced than exemplified. On the whole, 
I have never seen any character so blameless and 
harmless, and without rebuke ; so free from in- 
firmities, and so adorned by virtues. She lived much 
with her Saviour in prayer, which is the surest 
resource for being enabled to live like him in daily 
conversation." 

Thus devoted and thus endowed, it was her 
blessedness to accomplish much for that Redeemer 
whom she loved so ardently and followed so affec- 
tionately. In the nearest circle of her kindred, in 
her own household, amongst her younger and older 
neighbors, to the poor of other places, to casual 
visitors, she was the source of incalculable benefits. 
Irrespective of her munificent contributions and 
unwearying exertions in the cause of Christian 
philanthropy, the friends of the Gospel felt a per- 
petual solace in her presence, and were comforted 
to think that in the most polished society was 
exhibited such a specimen of pure and consistent 
piety. Her light shone to the last, and was 
brightest at the end ; and her Father in heaven was 
glorified. 

Like Hannah and Jessie Sinclair, we invite our 
younger readers to choose " that better part, which 



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shall not be taken from them ; " assuring them 
that, if at the foot of the Cross they lay down 
some things that are brilliant, they will there obtain 
in return all that is beautiful. When these happy 
sisters found the Saviour they did not lose their 
taste for intellectual enjoyments, nor their zeal for 
personal improvement ; but they found a Friend 
all-wise and ever-present, who in scenes of anxiety 
kept them calm and self-possessed, and in the midst 
of flattery preserved them sober-minded; and who, 
along with the forgiveness of sin, imparted to 
their character a depth and a delicacy which cannot 
be derived from courtly rules or from culture the 
most assiduous. In their parallel history is seen 
how gracefully with feminine refinement may be 
combined homely duties and labors of practical 
beneficence ; and it proclaims once more how 
essential to eminent piety are self-knowledge, watch- 
fulness, and prayer. And surely, in the blessed con- 
fidence that through His interposition lives so lovely 
have been once more united, we have another reason 
for loving and adoring that Redeemer who has 
already transferred so much of earth to heaven. 

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